i completely fucking hate you. i don’t even remember about you most of the time. i would die without your attention. i am most myself when i am opposing you. you know me like no one else and you can hurt me like no one else. i will never trust you. i don’t know who i am without you.
i want you to need me like i need you. i want you to hurt like i am hurting. i want to be the only one to see you weak. the thought of losing you devastates me. …i don’t want to examine that.