every time I read Harrow the Ninth I cry about Ortus and Harrow
“…there was always so much of Ortus, too much of him for his own comfort: he did not know what to do with his fingers, he did not know how to settle himself into the chair he filled or accept that he occupied space.” (HtN, pg. 399)
ouch
“I am so sorry, Harrowhark. I am sorry for everything … I am sorry for what they did … I am sorry that I was no kind of cavalier to you. I was so much older, and too selfish to take responsibility, and too affrighted by the idea of doing anything difficult or painful. I was weak because weakness is easy, and because rebuff is hard… I should have died for you. Gideon should still be alive. I was, and am, a grown man, and you were both neglected children.” (HtN, pg. 400-1)
whatever the opposite of a character assassination is, this is it.
give me more adoptive father Ortus fics NOW