I don’t have very deep Takes about this yet, but it Makes Me Think, how ferociously Harrow clings to her lobotomy when she has no idea why she did it.
Like. Listen. Original Harrowhark, kicking and screaming and clawing, and being ready to die rather than fully eat Gideon, I get that. But Lobotomy Harrowhark? Has no idea who Gideon is!
All she knows is that she told herself to Do This, and so she Does This. No matter how miserable it makes her, no matter how much scorn and bullshit and MUDER ATTEMPTS she gets for it, Harrow holds herself fast to her past self’s promise. When she doesn’t know WHAT it is! Why she did it! She has no idea why this was important at all!!
I can’t quite articulate What This Mean or What This Says About Harrow, but isn’t it… fucking something. She is naked on the floor after almost getting killed (again) by the Saint of Duty, she has no idea why or what she did to herself, but in no moment does she ever consider undoing it. Man. MAN. HARROW!!