i’m just supposed to, what? go to sleep tonight knowing that Nona knows she’s living on borrowed time? i’m just supposed go to work with the knowledge that Nona appreciates being alive with such genuine joy and fervor while a sword of damocles hangs above her head? i’m expected to be productive in society while thinking about how Nona’s birthday isn’t just some cute thing but rather a celebration in the face of certain death? am i supposed to not be thinking about how Harrow/Gideon and Nona can’t all live without one dying?