thinking about the parallels between harrow and orpheus like. you have to turn away from your love in order to keep her. if you look at her she dies, again. you are undone without her so you wade into hell for her, ready to give up anything and everything. she wants you to look at her; she needs to know that you can’t help it, and she needs you to see that she’ll follow you anywhere. you’re nothing without her. she’s gone. she’s gone. she’s gone.