imo people do not give Gideon enough credit for being incredibly fucked up in the head. gonna devote your life to any pretty lady who shows you even the smallest bit of affection? gonna show your love and loyalty by consuming yourself, so you do not have to be percieved in the act of loving, so there is nothing of you left to love in return? gonna devote your life and death and life-beyond-death to a girl that (regardless of the facts) you genuinely believe does not care about you? mentally ill as hell. i love her.