other lyctors: i will dedicate my immortal life to mourning my cav. i will agonize and scheme for 10,000 years to avenge their death. i will face god and walk backwards into hell ianthe, spraying crumbs of babs’s soul everywhere: what
One thing (of one million things) I love about Camilla Hect is she holds a motherfucking grudge. Dulcie slights the Warden for a handsome ginger butch? Ten year long childhood friendship OVER, Cam literally acts like she doesn’t know her. Will she keep Jody alive? Sure but she’s going to make sure she does not enjoy one moment of it. Camilla has had enough education THANK YOU. Coronabeth saved her life once but does that matter? Absolutely not, Corona was part of the lie, nickname privileges REVOKED, found family status TERMINATED. Camilla does not need to be a peacemaker, the Warden has enough diplomacy for the both of them. She stands behind him with her big knives and says the Sixth House remembers, bitch.
Sorry, I just desperately want Gideon Nav to know that she has a mother in Pyrrha Dve. John doesn’t matter, Wake doesn’t matter. Pyrrha wanted her when she thought Gideon was hers. Pyrrha wants her now, knowing full well that Gideon isn’t hers.
It’s making me cry actually. Gideon Nav thinks that she is just a weapon, a bomb, a sword, a shield. She doesn’t know that people love her.
She doesn’t know that she’s Pyrrha’s daughter. She doesn’t know that she’s Aiglamene’s protégé. She doesn’t know that Camilla and Palamedes loved her, that theywere friends, that they missed her. She doesn’t know that Harrow loves her, that Harrow tore herself apart because she wanted Gideon to live. That is all anyone who loves her has wanted her to do.
Aiglamene wanted her to live and have her dream. Harrow wanted her to live. Palamedes wanted her to live. Pyrrha wanted her to live and she didn’t even know her.
Aiglamene was going to hurt Nona when she thought she was Harrow. She was going to hurt Harrowhark Nonagesimus, the Reverend Daughter of Drearburh because she had betrayed the oath that she swore to Aiglamene.
Pyrrha asked Wake why she had brought Gideon. She wanted her. She wanted her. She wanted Gideon Nav. She wanted to hold her even as a Corpse Prince. Anyway if I keep thinking about this I’m gonna lose my mind.
gideon does NOT deserve the messy persona everyone gives her in fanfics smh, she’s a neat freak and very clean. HARROW has never heard of cleaning up in her life let’s get it right people!
rereading GtN is so funny. harrow goes missing and gideon flies into full panic mode, spends her whole morning desperately searching, says “ugh I give up, she can just die”, eats lunch and then immediately recommits to searching again, dissociates out of stress when she learns Harrow’s blood is everywhere, breaks her vow of silence to try and get help for Harrow, nearly breaks her wrists trying to open the door in panic, sprints her way down to Harrow, finds that she’s okay and is immediately like
still from My Love by Route 94 ft. Jess Glynne, Stay Over by Tove Lo, Stay, don’t ask don’t tell by Tove Lo, Over, Sweettalk My Heart by Tove Lo, Over, Anywhere u go by Tove Lo, Over, Mistaken by Tove Lo, Glad He’s Gone, Stranger by Tove Lo
The next three of my nine Locked Tomb fics are now out by popular demand! A couple of “what if this happened in Canaan House” fics, largely unconnected, with only the finest trans headcanons and also Naberius Tern is there. Spoiler free for both Harrow and Nona. Rated E; summaries for each (Gideon/Coronabeth, Gideon/Harrow, Naberius/Coronabeth) fic in the Google Doc (title link). See my Locked Tomb masterpost of fics here for posting schedule.
One flesh, one end, you know the drill
Edit: many of you wish these were bookmarks…and they actually are! They’ll be at kyotosparty.bigcartel.com very soon💕
the discourse on butches wearing skirts or whatever is stupid we arent a monolith etc etc i just feel like whenever i see fanart of gideon nav in a dress im killing you and ripping you apart with my teeth
its one thing when i am just projecting onto a character i like yknow i’ll keep my complaints to myself but gideon thelockedtomb is like 70% of all mainstream butch rep
the bit in HtN in the canaan house dream bubble where harrow says something along the lines of, “this is unsustainable, you are all in danger, we need to find a way for you to escape” and abigail responds, “we know how. we already did it for the kids. we all could have left at any time and we all chose to stay, for you”. and then harrow is like, “ok but at least ortus should leave. he isn’t a fighter, he never was, he deserves to leave” and abigail just shuts her down. she’s like, “i already tried, and he can’t be convinced. he wants to stay for you”. i am unwell about it. harrow can’t even really try to convince the remaining souls to leave her because they have already sent away the ones who needed to be protected and they have already tried to convince each other, and failed. there’s nothing left for her to use as ammunition against herself. there’s nothing left but evidence that she is cared for. forgive me but i just want characters who have spent their life drowning in self loating to be forced to reckon with the fact that they are loved.
gee now I wonder WHY ortus’s mom is so worried whenever he gets sick. might have something to do with some wild event that happened in his childhood. don’t ya think
Actually my headcanon for how Harrow felt about Gideon pre-Canaan House was basically “Heartbreaking: Worst Person You Know Is Also Extremely Hot”
The reason she responds so quickly to Gideon saying “why was I born so attractive?” is because she has been asking herself that question about Gideon since the moment she hit puberty
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![ID: drawings of harrow and nona based on various cat images. drawing 1: harrow looking up evilly, a bleeding finger in the foreground. drawing 2: a close up of harrow’s eyes, with text saying, “i fucking hate the hand that feeds me. i think i’ll do something fucked up to it.” above. drawing 3: harrow curled up, biting gideon’s sword. drawing 4: nona swimming amongst jellyfish, with text saying, “anyway. onto better things” below. drawing 5: harrow looking over her shoulder, sticking her tongue out in disgust. there are bowls of soup on the table behind her, and gideon the first is sitting opposite her. drawing 6: harrow, yelling with her eyes scrunched up. the text says, [sometimes the pain escapes]. end ID.](../media/fc86eee39ccdcaac3ffcf93e2219b8b3d160b07b.png)
