when gideon says i’m so bloody sorry and THATs when harrow loses it. because she needs gideon, and she needs her as an enemy. she’s clung to their mutual hatred all her life, it’s the fire that keeps her heart beating, it’s armour even more than the bones she wears. gideon not hating her, gideon forgiving her, is unthinkable. for harrowhark nonagesimus, walking war crime, being hated is so, so much easier than being loved. gideon opens the floodgates, and harrow breaks.