2022-08-25 20:44:54 ¶ ●

the bit in HtN in the canaan house dream bubble where harrow says something along the lines of, “this is unsustainable, you are all in danger, we need to find a way for you to escape” and abigail responds, “we know how. we already did it for the kids. we all could have left at any time and we all chose to stay, for you”. and then harrow is like, “ok but at least ortus should leave. he isn’t a fighter, he never was, he deserves to leave” and abigail just shuts her down. she’s like, “i already tried, and he can’t be convinced. he wants to stay for you”. i am unwell about it. harrow can’t even really try to convince the remaining souls to leave her because they have already sent away the ones who needed to be protected and they have already tried to convince each other, and failed. there’s nothing left for her to use as ammunition against herself. there’s nothing left but evidence that she is cared for. forgive me but i just want characters who have spent their life drowning in self loating to be forced to reckon with the fact that they are loved.