June 2023

*adjusts my glasses* Harrowhark Nonagesimus is the opposite of a girlboss. an inverse, if you will, a mirror, a girlboss from the Upside-Down. specifically, if Harrowhark is anything she is a thing-employee. Lady-or-Lord of the Ninth House, wet rat scrunkly of inscrutable gender experience, penitant to the Tomb to the grave to the thing that lies burried and to her 201 safeguarded souls. 👍

gideon nav (talking to her friends): yeah harrow proposed last week but im on the fence about it

Harrow (devotion so strong it makes her live)

Gideon (devotion so strong it makes her die)

i bring a sort of "killing myself on a spike" vibe to declarations of love and devotion that THE REVEREND HARROWHARK NONAGESIMUS, KNOWN AS THE REVEREND DAUGHTER BY HER OWN DESIRE, NOW HARROWHARK THE FIRST, WRITING AS THE SAME, NOW DEAD don't really likeALT
i bring a sort of "exploding myself into 10000 tiny pieces" vibe to the sickroom that an evil cougar demigod (and also my bodyguard soulmate) don't really likeALT

is this anything

who up griddling their hark

thinking about Cam in BOE custody and holding so tightly onto Palamades’ bones before she even knew for sure he was really in there, through BOE torture and electric shocks and Judith & Crown’s… everything and how she didn’t talk for weeks. “Cam was gone”. hollowed out and gutted and razed to the fucking ground by grief. and she was grieving Palamades, of course, but how much of that grief was also for Dulcie, who Cam found out was dead maybe fifteen seconds after Palamades himself exploded?

im thinking about how she and Pal and Dulcie had been exchanging letters for over 10 years and Cam had saved every one. EVERY single one. sharing your whole life your whole self with two people that you love and then suddenly you’re alone. two parts of her gone, one of them she didn’t even notice until it was too late. she didn’t notice. grief and guilt and destruction. she never got to say goodbye to either of them. what the fuck.

“Listen, she can be in hell for all I care, I won’t get mad,” said Kiriona. “She can be at the bottom of the sea or at the bottom of space. I just need to know—where.”ALT
[Verse 1]
You know the distance never made a difference to me
I swam a lake of fire, I'd have walked across the floor of any sea
Ignored the vastness between all that can be seen
And all that we believe
So I thought you were like an angel to meALT
“Gideon the Ninth, first flower of my House,” she said hoarsely, “you are the greatest cavalier we have ever produced. You are our triumph. The best of all of us. It has been my privilege to be your necromancer.”ALT
[Verse 3]
You called me angel for the first time, my heart leapt from me
You smile now, I can see its pieces still stuck in your teeth
And what's left of it, I listen to it tick
Every tedious beat
Going unknown as any angel to meALT
I spent all that time drowning and surfacing in you, over and over and over, and all because in the end you could not bear to do the one thing I asked you to do.ALT

[Bridge]
Do you know I could break beneath the weight?
Of the goodness, love, I still carry for you
That I'd walk so far just to take
The injury of finally knowin' youALT
“Don’t think this means you get more than the teeny-weeniest smidge of pity from me,” I added. “If you think anything I did, I did to make her love me, then you don’t know anything about her and me. I’m her cavalier, dipshit! I’d kill for her! I’d die for her. I did die for her.ALT

going unknown as any angel to me

Nona the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir | Unknown/Nth by Hozier | Gideon the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir | Harrow the Ninth by Tamsyn Muir

stick figure drawing of a figure with ginger hair impaled on a fence & lying in a pool of blood. Another figure crouches above her, with messy tears coming out of her eyes and blood all over her mouth. In the top left corner a box shows a face with a bob cut and very neutral expression, also covered in blood. the box is labled "live camilla reaction"ALT

Act 5 of Gideon the Ninth

line drawing of a person cozy in bed. the books Nona the Ninth, Gideon the Ninth, and Harrow the Ninth are tucked under the blankets with them. Above them is a mobile depicting various scenes of  Gideon Nav and Harrowhark, rendered in a poorly drawn stick figure style. From left to right the top row shows 1) Gideon impaled on a fence bleeding out with Harrow standing over her crying 2) Gideon picking Harrow up by the armpits 3) Gideon-in-Harrow holding a sword surrounded by Heralds 4) Gideon standing behind Harrow, both holding a sword as Harrow cries. From left to right, the bottom row shows 1) Harrow and Gideon on a bed with a large black CENSORED box drawn over most of their tangled bodies 2) Gideon wearing a crown and Harrow standing with Ortus & Aiglamene, in between them is Abigail Pent holding a sign that says "NO!" 3) Gideon at a booth labled "BARI" ALT

how i sleep knowing griddlehark haven’t even spoken for almost 1,000 pages ❤️

gideon the ninth but instead of the secret to lyctorhood being to eat your cavalier’s soul you just have to buy your cavalier the grimace shake and then let It happen