July 2023

An edited comment by Gideon Nav: I WANT TO FIGHT!! I WANT TO SWING MY SWORD!! I WANT TO GRAB MY TWO HANDER, AND BREAK SHIT OVER THIS!...........BUT MY WIFE IS ON THE COUCH WITH A MIGRAINE!........SHE IS MY WORLD!ALT

throwback to the time Harrow passed out after the Winnowing/Response trial and Gideon just kind of hung out w her in the basement twiddling her thumbs for several hours until Harrow woke up

My dream Griddlehark ending will have the same energy as the ending of that lesbian Black Mirror episode, San Junipero- still slightly strange and thought provoking but overall happily ever after and it’s also a pun. They drive off into the sunset and we pan back to the tomb where John and Alecto lay with their hands around each other’s throats.

ngl this is a dream ending…. i selfishly WANT it to end semi open, with questions answered but still horizons left to explore as a fan & fandom. I want it to make me sit and think and maybe cry, I want it to be interesting and make me feel over making me feel *good*. I want griddlehark to be together, not in a All Threads Tied, Happily Ever After way, but in a way that has addressed and honored both their conflicts between each other and with themselves and naturally brought them to the front seat of the same car (or space ship) to gives them at least one breath of peace. I want John & Alecto to both live or both die and be tangled up in each other regardless. sleeping like puppies with their hands on each others throats.

PLEASE @ tamsyn muir. im so drunk tamsyn muirrrrrrrr

so I started rereading GtN (as one does) and was struck by this passage where from the very beginning of the book, Gideon positions herself as more important to Harrow than the Locked Tomb:

“So, here’s the thing, your Lady would set the Locked Tomb on fire if it meant I’d never see another sky,” Gideon said, looking up. “Your Lady would stone cold eat a baby if it meant she got to lock me up infinitely. Your Lady would slather burning turds on the great-aunts if she thought it would ruin my day. Your Lady is the nastiest b—”ALT

cut to the pool scene and Gideon learns that not only does Harrow love the corpse of the Locked Tomb, but that the corpse of the Locked Tomb was, in all her silent sleep, able to convince Harrow to live in a way Gideon’s (loud, active, constant) existance in her life was never able to

“Nav, when I saw her face I decided I wanted to live. I decided to live forever just in case she ever woke up.” Her voice had the quality of someone in a long dream. She stared through Gideon without looking at her, and Gideon gently took her hands away from Harrow’s jaw.ALT
Gideon’s brain moved and broke against itself like the tiny wavelets they had left, the water lurching restlessly from side to side, until it came to a final conclusion.ALT

and I think that is really, like, when Gideon truly starts her sort of… backslide wrt her perception of her relationship with Harrow – like, at this point in the story in the pool, she’s already well along in her corruption arc into the “Perfect Cavalier”. BUT like, we know from being inside Harrow’s head that Harrow would break herself and her duty in order to hold onto Gideon. she would & she did!!!! which is!!! something that Gideon KNOWS at the beginning of GtN but then forgets/is convinced out of, entierly unintentionally, but to the point where by the time she comes back in HtN she has a totally reversed perception of how Harrow feels. leading to, of course, this:

said. “She’s in love with the refrigerated museum piece in the Locked Tomb. You should’ve seen the look she had on when she told me about this ice-lolly bimbo. I knew the moment I saw it. I never made her look like that … She can’t love me, even if I’d wanted her to. She can’t love you. She can’t even try.”ALT

anyway.

drawing of Gideon Nav (art by @b1cr1ptic) in sunglasses, holding a sword over her shoulder. She is wearing a black and white varsity jacket with IX on the chest, and a skull with sunglasses path on the arm. The other arm has a patch that says "Class of 10,000". She is also wearing a black T shirt that says "IM VERY VULNERABLE RN IF ANY BAD BITCHES WANNA TAKE ADVANTAGE OF ME", as well as having a carabiner with 3 keys clipped to her belt, a skull face mask in her pocket, and shoes with roses. ALT
Gideon Nav (art by @b1cr1ptic), in the same outfit as the previous image, lies on a couch reading a comic book, with one hand behind her head and one leg flung over the back of the couch. The comic book has a scantily clad woman on it complete with the large number 5ALT

AAAHH EVERYONE check out the utterly STUNNING comissions I got of my varsity jacket Gideon cosplay, drawn by the indomitable @b1cr1ptic!!!! This is my absolute favorite cosplay to wear and she was able to capture every detail SO well I’m in awe!!!

an edited screenshot of a twitter photo post. the text says "when he holds ur thigh while driving >>>". The image shows two people sitting in a car, the perspective is in the first person from the passenger's POV. the driver has both hands on the wheel, and coming off of their right hand is a skeleton arm, who's bone hand is resting on the thigh of the passengerALT

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