deeply believe that raised-by-John!Gideon/Kiriona would be such a pompous asshole. a “wait until my father hears about this” type of confident shithead, a prizefighter, a decorated cohort hero, a master swordswoman who is adored by many but known by none. and inside? she’s just so fucking sad, secretly dying for a scrap of true affection & love, trying to prove herself constantly to a father who has never been capable nor willing to give her the kind of care that she needs & who refuses to look at her as more than just another thing that he owns. she has a heart but it’s buried, and maybe dead. she has a sword but it’s all empty valor, and for all her honors she’s never had anything approaching agency. saddest girl in the world, redux.