Short, because writing for this fandom is still irrationally hard for me?
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It’s hard, and you fight sometimes (a-lot-of-times), which is expected, but you believe Jade every time she says you’ll get through it. There isn’t really another choice.
You talk a lot when you’ve run out of things to do, or when you’ve gotten lonely. There isn’t really another choice.
“I miss school,” you tell her one day, or whatever the equivalent is here. You’ve been thinking about it a lot, your life before. It’s impossibly far away, now, and you’ve been here with Jade long enough that the person you were seems like a distant, silly memory.
You’re sure that isn’t entirely because of the game.
“Isn’t that kind of weird? I never wanted to go to school before. Now I miss it.” It’s not that weird, you realize as soon as you finish talking, but Jade has told you that you ramble sometimes, so you’re trying to stop.
“I never went to school,” Jade says, without looking at you. “This isn’t actually very different from my life before, when I think about it. I mean, Bec’s technically gone, and we’re gods now, I guess. But a lot of it’s just the same.”
“Oh,” you say, unsure quite how to look at her, because that’s… really kind of sad.
Jade’s hand finds yours and squeezes. You look down. Her hand is so small compared to yours, now; you’ve both inherited the long piano fingers, but hers aren’t quite as knobby as yours, tapering off into something more feminine and with much more atrocious nail hygiene.
Her hand is always, always so warm.
“Except I’ve got you now, in person,” Jade says. The words dissipate in the air, warm like her hand and just as small. “There’s that.”
Your chest hurts a little. It’s not unpleasant. “Yeah,” you agree.
This is a test episode for a podcast I want to do that gives me and my guests space to delve into the more controversial sides of fandom. Be prepared for taboo and adult topics, or skip this episode entirely! We’ll be back to our regularly scheduled programming next week!
Have you ever felt shamed for your interests within a fandom community? Join me in a revealing conversation with guest @sgt-spank, known for his Bro Strider body pillow, as we tackle the topic of Homestuck fandom purity culture and its impact on fans. We share our personal experiences with this damaging mindset and discuss how it has affected our enjoyment of fandoms while navigating the path to self-acceptance.
This podcast’s transcript is entirely automated and I have not yet gone through and edited it outside of adding speaker names, so sorry for any inaccuracies!
Hey I’m archiving a bunch of Twitter accounts to preserve some Homestuck fandom history (which I am doing 4 years too late tbh)
If anyone has any suggestions for accounts to archive or already existing archival sites (not limited to Twitter) lmk!
I might also do Tumblr accounts at some point, but I’m less worried about those since once you reblog it, it exists forever. Not to say things don’t disappear, but it’s less of an immediate concern that Twitter
I’ll be honest, I’m mostly concerned with “modern” fandom, like from the lead up to the Epilogues drop on, or maybe as far back as the Friendsim drops, but honestly that’s just my focus and I’ll take whatever anyone has as far back as time itself
