ive got too many feelings about knights tbh
sometimes i just lay awake at night thinking about how crazy it is that dave and karkat both thought they were fundamentally unlovable for so long and how overwhelming it must have been the first time they realized not that they had feelings for the other, but that the other had feelings for THEM.
dave constantly blamed himself for not being good enough to earn any affection and eventually thought wanting it all was a symptom of his own insurmountable defectiveness. And karkat believed beyond the shadow of a doubt that anyone who got close would either be appalled by his mutant characteristics or barring that eventually “realize” his personality and the things he wanted were just as flawed as his biology and run screaming.
imagine how scared they were at first, the first time dave lets himself just be tentatively physically affectionate and he’s expecting mocking or worse but karkat is just flustered and reciprocates immediately, the first time karkat admits that the things he’s feeling don’t fit into a quadrant and never have and dave’s response is positive and relieved instead of condemning.
imagine how terrifying that must have been and how amazing it must have felt to have those first realizations that all the things they hated about themselves were actually the things that would make the person they fell for fall for them in turn.
god damn.