Vanitas vanitatum, Chapter 19: Empty Head, Empty Heart (Part 1)

(start with chapter 1, here! reminder that this fic is nsfw)

me, in november, when i wrote this chapter: okay this sex scene should just have bare minimum detail. like three paragraphs of sex is enough to get the point across.
me, two weeks ago, at work, bored out of my mind and hellbent on writing dumbass dirkjohn erotica for half my day: ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) not enough