28/02/2024 2:10:40 ¶ ●

ok to the anon thats talkin w me about mental eelness and bro and the “knight of time” line:

id post your entire ask but its Very Long and im struggling to answer all of it in a way that isnt fucking with my head and anxiety so im going to answer with only the character analysis stuff HERE on this post my apologies

for the record i dont even remotely know how to begin tagging this mess down here and i really think itd be better suited for my nsfw blog but yall aint asking about this on that blog which is fair take care of yourselves

## JSYK it’s stuff about brocal/intrusive thoughts about inc st and c s a SO kids please avert your eyes for my comfort thank YOU

i dont personally have ocd afaik but as someone who Has intrusive thoughts (actual horrifying ones that dirk, gabe and i have to beat back with a stick, not the ones kids think are intrusive thoughts today)

i definitely think that’s how bro approaches raising dave; overcompensating for the accusations from his mind and cal[iborn] leading to total icing him out

> okay same anon who was asking abt the “i was raising the knight of time” line. you saying “caliborn made [bro] believe that platonic affection is in fact not platonic at all and is instead sexual[the implications when bro is constantly carrying around cal with his arms around his neck btw. insane.]” is fascinating. is this based off the fact that caliborn thinks even hugging or a kiss on the cheek is “filthy?” it makes me think about ocd/bipolar disorder/misc mental illnesses and intrusive thoughts. i have bipolar and im a huge softie for kids but my intrusive thoughts sometimes try to convince me that my affection is somehow sinister.

YES very much

i need to describe to you my thoughts on brocal really quick bc i think that’ll help put it in perspective and idk how else to talk about it;

heres the thing

cal is both bro’s boyfriend and his fucking family okay

imagine you’re a kid and you have this puppet friend that speaks to you using silly words and tells you that you should eat glass maybe :) or cut your fingers off or tear off your own head and hes the only thing thats taking care of you as a person even if hes mean

he tells you that people touching is inappropriate and vulgar and he cant believe theyre doing that in public (but its okay if we hug and cuddle you know?)

but also as you grow up this puppet starts calling you weird shit like stud or hunky or what the hell ever and maybe. youre going to kiss him

this puppet is the only thing you care about because hes the only thing that cares about you youve been with him for years and years and he talks to you and hes all that matters and now youre obsessed with him and you dont know when that happened but you have an obsessive personality anyway

youll do anything for him. (let me kill for you)

hes the only person you love because you dont love roxy this way (consuming, overwhelming, obligating to do what he wants, because he’s all you have)

and well shit

if cals telling you that youre a freak for wanting to cuddle on the baby like you did that once (call it the knight it helps keep your distance) then i guess you’re a fucking freak because its not even your right to treat it as family anyway; it’s bigger than you. it’s more than you will ever be and you need to make sure it doesn’t fucking die and apparently that involves at least a little bit of affection cal please understand(what a disgusting species)

28/02/2024 2:35:07 ¶ ●

my anxiety is thru the roof i think im going to stream more for a bit if yall want to come hang out w me/help me chill out by drawing stuff

hopefully drawing big hal today

tsgart - Picarto

i got chat working and hopefully also the audio

28/02/2024 22:28:44 ¶ ●

beta hal update: he is big now

he is large and avoids most people/is kind of two faced but the second he sees dirk he is in Harassment Mode :tm:

also just because:

i fixed big halbun

and drew lil halbun

when they hav their own bodies they get along pretty alright,

28/02/2024 22:30:20 ¶ ● ⬈

turnstechgodhead:

> beta hal update: he is big now

> he is large and avoids most people/is kind of two faced but the second he sees dirk he is in Harassment Mode :tm:

> also just because:

> i fixed big halbun

> and drew lil halbun

> when they hav their own bodies they get along pretty alright,

OH RIGHT… halbuns are because i think its hilarious if they can transformer mode between lil seb body and big robot body.

29/02/2024 6:59:44 ¶ ●

29/02/2024 7:24:56 ¶ ●

augh i keep forgetting about gender