New headcanon: Equius was devastated by the destruction of Derse not because of the loss of his dream self, but because that was one of the few places he didn't break everything he touched

Was Equius ever stated to have woken up on Derse? The awakening is always prompted by something, either a kiss when you’re dead, or having an epiphany about your self and your life, stopping suppressing something. I’d say with him kind of. Still kind of following the Hemospectrum rules, he’d have yet to wake up.