this. this entire sequence from the nightmare -> moment of clarity…

“Like a creeping mold, the complete reality of your existence threads its way through your mind. Birth, death, birth again. Decay and bloom. A million stitches from a million microscopic wounds you’ve inflicted on everyone you’ve ever met with every muscle you moved and with ever word you’ve spoken.”

“Your existence hurts them.”

“A lonely soul in a room by itself weeping. It lives for eighty years and then it’s gone. And then it’s there again.”

“A reprieve. A good life. Love, children, a steady career. Recognition from your peers. Here one moment, gone the next. The worms have found their orifices.” (this line has no right being this good)

“Diagnosis. It forgets everything it is. Anger. Rage. Distance. Poverty. The lonely soul is lonely again. Love turns to mockery, It die. It is reborn. Worse. Lonelier.”

“This is all too much. I… can’t keep going.”

idk what exactly it means, but it feels like the narrator is speaking from the heart about how he feels towards death and all… but this time it’s a lot more sympathetic towards the princess for some reason?? why

i just can’t figure out what exactly this means, but together with the fact the nightmare/moc “desires only companionship but the only thing she knows is how to hurt” and the narrator’s constant dehumanisation of the princess thorough the entire game… it hits hard. seeing it again for the second time made me feel a lot of indescribable things.