2025-07-04 22:21:42 ¶ ●

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tagged by @irreverentarchon ty for thinking of me

> The air in the medicae bay was thick with the sterile tang of synth-skin sealant and the coppery scent of Saren’s own spilled blood, a smell that seemed utterly alien amidst the usual controlled opulence of the Novacula Mortis. The Lord Captain was a ruin laid out on the diagnostic slab, his magnificent greatcoat discarded, the severe lines of his frock coat torn and stained dark. A deep gash ran from his shoulder down his torso, a wound that had overwhelmed even his suit’s auto-suture system, weeping blood onto the white decking. A medicae-servitor whirred and clicked nearby, its metal claws holding cauterizers and injectors, but Saren had waved it away with a snarl.
> Calix stood watch, his own hands stained with his master’s blood from the effort of dragging him here. He held a fresh synth-skin patch, the instruction for its application a simple matter, yet he hesitated. Saren’s mismatched eyes were open, fixed on the cold, lumen-lit ceiling, and they burned with an intensity that had nothing to do with pain and everything to do with a profound, terrifying rage.

> “Stop fussing, Fellner,” Saren rasped, his voice a ragged edge of its usual silken timbre. “Your Margardian pragmatism should tell you when an asset is damaged beyond immediate repair.”
> “The wound requires sealing, Lord Captain,” Calix stated, his own voice flat, trying to anchor the situation in simple, procedural reality. “Your bleeding is… significant.”
> A harsh, dry laugh rattled in Saren’s chest, ending in a pained cough. “Significant?” He turned his head slowly, pinning Calix with that unnerving gaze. “It’s all just… fluid dynamics. A temporary state of being, soon to be corrected.” He wasn’t talking about healing. Calix felt a chill colder than any Margardian night. He had seen men face death—with defiance, with terror, with prayer. He had never seen this: a clear-eyed, almost eager anticipation.
> “Do not speak like that,” Calix said, the words coming out sharper than he intended.
> “Why not?” Saren’s lips curled into a weak, bloodless version of his usual simper. “Because it frightens the loyal hound to see his master welcome the kennel door? Life is no blessing. For what purpose do we live at all, Fellner? It’s inconsequential, this undignified flailing.”
> The confession hung in the sterile air, raw and stripped of all artifice. Calix stood frozen for a long moment, the synth-skin patch forgotten in his hand. He didn’t offer comfort; the words were too honest for such a cheap palliative. Instead, after a silence stretched thin by the hum of the medicae slab, he gave a single, quiet affirmation.
> “Yes,” Calix said, his voice a low Margardian rasp. “It is.”
> Saren’s head turned on the slab, his mismatched eyes narrowing with surprise. This was not the reaction he expected—not the dutiful protest, not the horrified denial.
> Calix met his gaze, his own eyes—one of warm earth, one of cold mist—holding no pity, only a shared, grim understanding. “The galaxy is a meat grinder. The gods are mad. The struggle is inconsequential.” He took a slow step closer, his boots making no sound on the blood-stained decking. “But you and I… we have seen the gears. We know the truth. Most beings flail in ignorance. We… we flail with our eyes wide open. That is the only real difference.”
> Saren stared, his expression unreadable. The usual mask of mockery and command was gone, leaving only the stark, scarred canvas of the man beneath.
> Calix pressed on, his voice still quiet but infused with a cold, hard intensity. “To choose cessation now is to let the void have the final word. It is to admit the chaos that took everything from you is stronger than your will to endure it.” He leaned closer, his presence steady and absolute. “Survival—continuing this pointless, agonizing game—is not a blessing. It is the ultimate act of defiance. It is the only victory that matters.”
> The words landed, not with force, but like ice crystals forming slowly in the air, sharp and clear. Calix watched as a storm of emotions warred behind Saren’s eyes. He saw the allure of oblivion fight against the ingrained, ferocious pride that had driven the man for centuries. He saw the nihilist wrestle with the survivor.
> A long, shuddering breath escaped Saren’s lips. The burning rage in his eyes cooled, banked, replaced by something else—a flicker of profound, weary resolve. His gaze, for the first time, seemed to lose its predatory edge, becoming something almost… raw. He gave a
> single, almost imperceptible nod.
> His voice, when it came, was a rough, quiet rasp, stripped of all its usual power.
> “The patch, Fellner.”
> It was not a command. It was a concession. A request.
> “Help me.”