## Preface

Push and Pull
Posted originally on the Archive of Our Own at https://archiveofourown.org/works/65868253.

Rating:
  Teen And Up Audiences
Archive Warning:
  No Archive Warnings Apply
Category:
  Gen
Fandoms:
  Heathers (1988), Heathers (TV)
Relationship:
  Jason "J. D." Dean/Reader
Characters:
  Jason "J. D." Dean, Jason "J. D." Dean (Heathers 1988)
Additional Tags:
  Angst, Fluff and Angst, Heavy Angst, Angst and Romance, Teen Angst, Romance, Eventual Romance, Slow Romance, Tragic Romance, Slow Burn, Friends With Benefits, Smoking, situationship - Freeform, eventual situationship, Reader is 7/11 employee, Making Out, French Kissing, Sleepovers, Eventual Smut, AFAB | Assigned Female at Birth Reader-Insert, He/Him and They/Them Pronouns for Reader-Insert, Trans reader ig? I just don't want to use fem pronouns sorry, Smut, Fluff and Smut, Shameless Smut, Vaginal Fingering
Language:
  English
Series:
  Part 1 of JD/EMLPOYEE!READER SITUATIONSHIP
Stats:
  Published: 2025-05-25 Completed: 2025-07-07 Words: 14,627 Chapters: 12/12

# Push and Pull

by CottonTheCow

Summary

> m᥆rᥱ ȷძ!! :3

> һᥱһᥱһᥱһᥱһᥱһᥱһᥱ…

> It was two or so weeks after your “graduation,” and of course life had led you to becoming a 7/11 employee. You worked as hard as you could to gain enough money to move out as soon as possible, as you wanted to start your own life. The days had been usually chill and the job hadn’t required that much social interaction due to the people in the area being just as antisocial, but the occasional Karen wasn't completely avoidable. Well, that was until a particularly chatty boy decided to show up. You did your best to just get through the interaction, but he just refused to leave for some reason.

Notes

> і᥎ᥱ ᥒᥱ᥎ᥱr ᥕ᥆rkᥱძ ᥲᥒᥡ ȷ᥆ᑲ ᥒ᥆r ძ᥆ і ᥱ᥎ᥱr ᥕᥲᥒ𝗍 𝗍᥆ g᥆ іᥒ𝗍᥆ ᥴᥙs𝗍᥆mᥱr sᥱr᥎іᥴᥱ ᥱ᥎ᥱr s᥆ ᥴᥙ𝗍 mᥱ s᥆mᥱ sᥣᥲᥴk і𝖿 і gᥱ𝗍 s᥆mᥱ 𝗍һіᥒgs ᥕr᥆ᥒg 😅🙏

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## Chapter 1: Why the Hell Not

Today's work day was going slow, slower than usual. Every time you glanced at the clock it felt like it was 20 minutes behind what it should've been, and you could feel exhaustion weighing heavy on your body. You leaned against the counter, sipping the red slushie you had gotten for yourself while you scrolled on your phone. You always like to sneak it as your own little treats during your shift, usually near the end. You glanced at the time yet again, surprised to find it was just 15 minutes before closing. You sighed, feeling a little relaxed by the fact that you could go home and get some much needed rest. Well… that was until you heard someone walk in. You rolled your eyes and put your phone in your pocket, standing up straight to keep an eye out on them in case they stole or something.

However, they only skimmed over the items on the shelves before coming right up to the counter. He had a smirk on his face, and a look in his eyes… you almost felt drawn to his demeanor. You mentally shook yourself to focus again as he spoke. “Greetings and salutations, I'll take a slushie cup please.” He said, his voice low yet cheery at the same time, as he held out accouple bills in his hands. “Keep the change,” He added with a wink. You just nodded, offering the best smile you could, before taking the money and putting it into the register. Once he was handed his cup you watched as he made his way over to the machine, pushing the lever on the blue color. Assuming he'd just turn to the door and leave, you went back to your phone aswell as your own slushie.

You were abit startled as you heard his voice again. “You got your own, huh?” You whipped your head to him, and he still had that smirk with his eyebrow raised. “Are you also a slushie connoisseur?” The question was more rhetorical this time as he tilted his head faintly while sipping at his drink, awaiting an answer. “What, you don't talk?” His smirk widened slightly. “Yes, I do.” You had spoken up to finally answer him, and he nodded. “Ah, good to know.” He then leaned against the other side of the counter, taking another sip. “Well, now that I know you can answer me, I wanted to ask if you do have slushies often.” It was an odd ask… but you answered nonetheless. “Uh.. Yeah, I guess I do. Cherry is always my go-to.” He nodded at that, taking a few sips of his before responding. “Interesting… I take any flavor, but I guess I do have blue the most.” You smiled abit and raised your brow. “You call the flavor just ‘blue’?” He chuckled abit in response. “Yeah, silly isn't it?” You just shrugged. You were really just trying to get through this final stretch, but this guy was making it difficult.

“Yeah, I guess…” You uttered, trying to think of a way to get him to leave. “But uh I really can't wait to get home after such a long day.” You hoped that would send the message. “Oh? When's your shift over?” He shifted to stand up straight again as he sipped his slushie, raising a brow. “Uh…” You started, glancing at the clock. “Like 10 minutes or so.” It wasn't exact, but you were too tired to be accurate. His eyebrows raised as he seemed intrigued. “Oh, really? Well why not close up early and hang with me?” You furrowed your eyebrows at his response, not knowing if you should. You hadn't even known his name… but then again, something about him made it feel like he would be more interesting than here. You glanced out the door, seeing as the streets were empty so noone would come in anyway. ‘Why the hell not?’ Your gaze shifted back to him as you shrugged. “Alright, sure.” His smirk grew to a smile as he nodded. “Ok, then, come on.” He took a step or two back as he awaited for you to follow, but you needed to actually close up first.

You did your best to hurry before you were locking the door behind you, both of your slushies still in hand and half-empty. It was mostly silent, other than him giving directions, until you finally decided to ask him his name. “Jason Dean, JD for short.” He had replied, then asked for yours. After the name exchange it was quiet yet again. As you walked the streets of the late afternoon, the sky was dark and the moon was barely visible through the smog. The darkened streets were mostly scarce, save for the few cars that would pass. As you looked to the sky, it was disappointing to see the stars covered in light pollution aswell as the previously mentioned smog. Whenever you were able to see a clear night sky it was always a nice occasion. ‘I guess tonight just isn't one of those nights…’ Eventually, you two had made your way to a park near the edge of the town. It was a grassy area with a light forest and many clearings. Once the two of you were stopped beneath a tree he turned to you.

“You smoke?”

## Chapter 2: Haze

Chapter Notes

> I DO NOT ENCOURAGE SMOKING GUYS ITS BAD FOR U 🙏🙏 ITS FOR THE PLOT TRUST 😭

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The question had caught you abit off guard as you turned around to see him with a pack of cigarettes in one hand, lighter in the other as he attempted to light the one that was already between his lips. “Uh.. Yeah, sometimes I guess…” You replied with a shrug. It might've been abit of an understatement, but you didn’t want to seem like a total mess. Once he was able to light the cigarette, he handed one to you before the box was back in his pocket. You took the lighter as he held it out to you aswell in order to light it, before taking a slow and deep breath in. It burned, like it did every time, but the simmer had become soothing. As you huffed out the dark cloud, you could see as he took a drag as well. “Mmm, feels nice after such a long day, huh?” He uttered, and suddenly his voice sounded 10 times smoother. You just nodded as you breathed in and out again, the same smoke replacing the oxygen with nicotine.

You leaned back against the tree as it took a few drags before that fog glossed over your mind and that haze shifted your vision. “Yeah, it really does clear the mind…” Jason smirked abit as he nodded before inhaling the addictive smoke again. There was a silence that settled between you two then, only broken by the inhale and exhale of embers. It was an almost comforting silence, as JD's presence seemed to calm you in some unexplained way. You could see him smile as he noticed you relaxing, taking it you were feeling content. The silence was then broken as he spoke. “So, why don't you tell me more about yourself.” He requested, tilting his head at you. “Like what?” You questioned back, as whenever someone would ask about you it seemed you'd forget everything about yourself. “Well, let's start with… your favourite color?” He offered. You gave him a simple answer, but then added on the specific shade, and he nodded in intrigue.

“That's a good one, I myself enjoy blood red.” For some reason that answer hadn't raised any red flags in your mind, but then again your judgement was quite foggy. “Now, uh.. Any hobbies?” He then added, taking a step closer. You thought for a moment before you gave an answer of just a few words, then adding on a little more before you began to rant. The conversation flowed from there as he listened before interjecting with his own thoughts, and before you knew it the two of you were learning quite abit about eachother. You probably wouldn't even remember half of it the next day anyway. At some point there had been a contact exchange before the subject shifted once more. You had found yourself venting at some point, then using it to make a hilarious joke. You couldn't help but find Jason's laugh contagious as the both of you laughed until you were lightheaded, maybe a little too lightheaded. The haze in your mind definitely hadn't helped as you wobbled just a bit, though it had only been for a moment or two.

“It really do be like that sometimes.” JD said in response to the joke. “But life doesn't stop, so you just gotta move on.” It was a little depressing, but it was true. You huffed out a sigh. “Yup, it really doesn't stop, does it..?” JD raised a brow. “Yeah, it's just relentless, isn't it?” You couldn't quite place what he was getting at, so you just brushed it off. “I guess it just never lets up…” You shrugged. “It really does just love to keep going at you, huh?” You saw a smirk on Jason's face as it took you just a few seconds to finally get it. You raised a brow with a smirk of your own. “All day and all night, baby.” He chuckled at that, elbowing you gently. “Sounds like someone I know.” His smirk shifted to a smile. “Oh yeah? And who's that?” You almost challenged. “Me.” He replied simply, and you giggled at him. You barely registered the fact that he was staring at you while you did, even feeling a little closer. You then decided to ignore it and forget about it as you were able to speak again after calming abit. “Oh really? Wanna prove it?” Of course you didn't mean it, you'd just met this guy, but the nicotine had spoken for you. He only shrugged in response before deciding to shift the topic.

The two of you began yapping again for quite a while. Time blurred as you lost track, not bothering to pay any attention. That was until your phone rang. You groaned as you fished it out of your pocket, JD watching with an eyebrow raised as your eyes widened. “Who is it?” He asked, leaning over to peek. You stepped back abit as you answered. “Fuck- it's my dad… I-I really should go.” His brows furrowed. “Awh, really? You can't stay for-” You cut him off, surprising yourself just as much as him. “No, JD. It's late as hell and I have work in the morning anyways.” He pouted at you as you turned to begin walking away. “I'll stop by then!” He called out, not receiving an answer as you hurried your way back home while on the call with your dad. You were a little annoyed by the fact that you had to cut the hangout short, and you had no idea how well you were gonna be able to act sober once you got home.

Well, apparently it was pretty well as your dad hadn't questioned you much once you were home. You were able to get a relatively big cup of water in order to try and sober up whatsoever before spending the rest of your time in your room. You doomscrolled for quite a while as you couldn't seem to get your mind off of Jason. He seemed to plague your mind just the same as the haze clung to it. You couldn't stop thinking about how he smirked at you when he'd made that joke or the way he looked at you whenever you noticed it. It was probably just the nicotine in your system, despite the fact that it was supposed to clear your mind. You needed more, but sadly you really did need to head to be because of work in the morning… fuckass work. Just the thought of it was stressing you into sobriety. Atleast maybe JD would stop by like he'd promised. That was the only thought driving you to finally plug your phone in and settle into bed.

Chapter End Notes

> іm s᥆ ᑲᥲძ ᥲ𝗍 sᥣ᥆ᥕ ᑲᥙrᥒs 😔

## Chapter 3: A New Routine

Chapter Notes

> 𝗍һіs ᥴһᥲ⍴𝗍ᥱr ᥕᥲs ᥎ᥱrᥡ rᥲᥒძ᥆m ᥲs і ძіძᥒ'𝗍 һᥲ᥎ᥱ 𝗍һᥲ𝗍 mᥲᥒᥡ ⍴ᥣᥲᥒs 𝖿᥆r ᥕһᥲ𝗍 ᥕ᥆ᥙᥣძ һᥲ⍴⍴ᥱᥒ 😭 kіᥒძᥲ ȷᥙs𝗍 ᥲ 𝖿іᥣᥣᥱr 𝗍᥆ sᥣ᥆ᥕ 𝗍һᥱ ᑲᥙrᥒ ᥒgᥣ 😃

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The next morning you did your best to hurry getting ready, because you'd slept in and totally not because you wanted to see JD sooner. It wasn't long before you were already out the door and on the way to work. You tried your best to not have the sun blind you while you crossed the not so busy streets before you were finally able to get to your work. You did the things you needed to in order to open before standing behind the counter to wait for Jason. Each time someone came in you perked, thinking and hoping it was him, but it was just another normal customer. Just as you were about to try messaging him, someone had come up to the counter. You huffed out a sigh as it was just some younger looking woman with a sour look on her face.

“Was that a phone?” She spat, her eyes narrowing. You just rolled your own before answering. “Uh, yea-” She cut you off. “Don't roll your eyes at me! You and I both know you're being EXTREMELY unprofessional.” You did your best to not shout right back. “Ma'am… I can assure you, I am allowed my phone out for two seconds…” The woman wasn't having any of it. “I'll have you know I can contact your supervisor and tell him what you're doing! I am a valued customer and-” You decided it was your turn to cut her off. “Ok, first of all it's ‘her,’ and second I've never seen you here before.” You crossed your arms, but it seemed that you had just ticked her off even more. “How DARE you with this attitude?? I have come here every day! It's not my fault you're too distracted to see it! I swear I will-”

She suddenly stopped as a hand gripped onto her shoulder. “Lady.” The man said, and you immediately saw that it had been Jason ‘Finally, the fucking timing…’ You let out a breath you hadn't realized you were holding. The woman had whipped her head to face him, her glare instantly dissipating as she saw the barely contained rage in his face. “S-sir, hello, I was just…” “Leaving?” JD had finished her sentence for her, his grip on her shoulder tightening just a fraction. “Yes, actually! Ha-have a nice day!” The woman then frantically made her way out of the door, the both of you watching her as she did. Jason huffed out a sigh as he turned back to you. “Could I have a cup?” He asked, smiling at you. You just nodded as he dipped his head and pulled out his wallet to take out what he needed. “Rough day, huh?” He muttered, raising a brow and glancing at you. You shrugged in response and he walked off to fill his cup, and someone else had come over to the counter. Once Jason came back he stood to the side to allow you to deal with the customers.

As your shift went on, JD stood right beside the counter as you worked. You could see him glare at someone whenever they were being particularly difficult, seeming to shorten the interaction by just his gaze alone. It was nice, making your work a whole lot easier. “Wow, I guess people think they can treat you like shit just because you can't do anything.” He had said. “Eh, it's really nothing new.” That had done the opposite of reassure him as his brows furrowed. “So this is an everyday thing..?” You could hear the protectiveness in his tone as he shifted to face you more fully. “Uh… well, it isn't like I'm getting death threats every day…” JD's eyes widened. “Death threats?” He half shouted. ‘Aw shit.’ You mentally facepalmed yourself as you sighed. “Jason, it's fine, I can deal with it.” You waved a dismissive hand as you turned to a customer that had approached.

Jason decided to let it go for now, but the conversation definitely wasn't over. From then on he seemed to be extra protective, even snapping at a few customers. It was mostly fine, until he had snapped at someone simply for being slow. After the person had hurried off, you turned to him. “Ok, seriously JD, I can handle them myself.” You crossed your arms, but your gaze softened as you could see he looked guilty. “Sorry..” He mumbled sheepishly as he scratched at the back of his neck, glancing off to the side. You uncrossed your arms as you reached over to hold his hand - well, his wrist as you couldn't quite reach while standing straight. “It's fine, just know I can handle myself… I have this long, right?” You offered a gentle smile as he looked back at you. “I… guess..” He smiled faintly. Your smile widened as you two smiled at eachother for a few beats before the door opened and you had to pay attention again. The rest of your shift went relatively well, as JD went back to just glaring at those giving you a hard time.

Near the end of your shift you had gotten your usual slushie and JD decided to get a refill on his. Once the next person to work had come in your shift was over, the two of you had gotten used to the routine so there weren't any words exchanged before you and Jason were out the door. “So, uh… now what?” You were the first to speak as the two of you stood outside the 7/11. He shrugged. “I dunno, wanna head back to the park?” You thought about the offer for a moment before shrugging yourself. Jason then perked, as if he'd gotten an idea. “Actually, follow me.” He said before taking your hand and walking off. You tried your best not to drop your slushie cup as you were suddenly on the move.

Chapter End Notes

> ძᥱᥴіძᥱძ 𝗍᥆ s⍴ᥣі𝗍 𝗍һіs іᥒ𝗍᥆ 2 ⍴ᥲr𝗍s ᥴᥙz і𝗍 ᥱᥒძᥱძ ᥙ⍴ gᥱ𝗍𝗍іᥒg s᥆ ძᥲmᥒ ᥣ᥆ᥒg 😭 ძᥕ, і'ᥣᥣ ᥙ⍴ᥣ᥆ᥲძ 𝗍һᥱ ᥒᥱ᥊𝗍 ᥆ᥒᥱ іᥒ ᥣіkᥱ ᥲᥒ һr ᥆r 2🙏

## Chapter 4: Clear

Chapter Notes

> ⍴ᥲr𝗍 2!! :3

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You noticed he was leading you towards the park anyway, but then he took a turn leading to another entrance. He led you through the grass and beneath the trees, then up a shallow hill with a singular yet rather large tree. He turned to you with an almost proud smile as he still held your hand with his outstretched, slightly out of breath from the hurry. “Here..” He uttered between breaths. You looked around the area before looking back at him. “Why here..?” You tilted your head. Obviously you weren't complaining, but you were curious as to why he was seemingly so passionate about the spot. He faltered slightly at your questioning but answered brightly nonetheless. “It's just my little hangout spot, sometimes I like to watch the sunset here. If you'd like, we can.” He offered, turning to you as he stepped closer. You glanced at the sky behind him before looking back at him, smiling softly. “I guess that'd be ok.” You shrugged abit. “Great!” He chirped as he led you over to the tree in order to sit against it.

The two of you cloudgazed as you pointed out different shapes in the clouds, making the occasional joke. Time flew by as for once you didn’t need nicotine to clear your mind. It was kinda nice to breathe in the fresh air of the afternoon. At some point you had ended up laying on your back in the grass beside JD as he was on his stomach, your eyes closed. You could practically sense Jason staring at you. At some point you decide to open your eyes and turn to meet his gaze, but what you found was a little different than you'd anticipated. His head was turned to the side as he looked at you, resting his cheek on his arm. He had a gentle, warm smile on his lips as his gaze held something akin to adoration. But it was… off? There was something darker. Well, you decided to ignore it. He chuckled abit as you looked at him, and a smile of your own spread across your face.

He then turned his head to look forward, his chin digging into his arm. His eyes widened abit as he sat up. “Look!” He exclaimed as he pointed forward. You sat up yourself to look at the sky, looking at the way oranges, yellows and purples danced across it like a watercolor painting. You glanced at JD as the soft lighting made his smile all the brighter. He side glanced at you before turning his head to face you. He then winked at you before turning back to the sunset. You were abit confused, but turned to look at it aswell anyway. You both sat there for a while as the sky shifted from color to color, even taking a few pictures. At some point you had called your dad to notify him you’d be out later again to avoid another interruption.

Once the stars were out you were back to laying in the grass, both of you now laying on your back right beside eachother. You huffed out a sigh as you knew you'd have to head back soon, even if your dad wouldn't be yelling at you to. You were startled into opening your eyes as you felt him take your hand. Your gaze was still on the sky as you were tense for a few moments before relaxing. You glanced over to see his eyes were still closed before looking back at the sky. You could feel his thumb move back and forth to gently rub the back of your hand, and there was an odd comfort to it. You couldn't help but smile, your eyes darting around the sky as you took in the stars. It was one of those nights with a clear sky, paralleling the way your mind had been cleared. “I can see the stars in your eyes.”

You were a little startled by the sudden breaking of the silence, shifting your gaze to JD. “Huh?” You were a little confused on what he'd meant. He chuckled softly before rolling over to lay on his side, still holding your hand. “The sky is reflected in your pupils when you look at it.” He explained, smile widening abit. “It's kind of cute.” He then added. You could feel your cheeks heat up just a little despite the cool breeze of the afternoon. You didn't really have any response, just giggling. He began to giggle aswell before the both of you were laughing your asses off together. The both of you were out of breath by the time you had stopped, and you let out a deep sigh. Then, once silence had fallen between you yet again, you simply gazed at eachother. You could see his pupils make miniscule movements as they explored your features, but yours had been fixed on his gaze alone.

After a while longer of laying together, you decided to sit up in order to check the time. Jason sat up aswell beside you as you did. Your expression dropped as you saw it was nearing the time you said you'd be back home by, begrudgingly telling JD you had to leave. Unlike last time, he hadn't protested and allowed you to go. You kept looking at the sky on the way back, already missing the serenity of laying beside him beneath it. But you knew you'd see him again soon, tomorrow. The thought put an excited yet nervous flutter in your gut, but you decided to not think about it too much. Once you were home you had a quick dinner before heading to your room to sleep. You decided not to do anything beforehand as you felt too heavy to stay awake any longer. You couldn't stop thinking about laying beside JD as you laid in your bed, eventually being able to fall asleep.

Chapter End Notes

> ‘,:3<

## Chapter 5: Red and Blue Makes Purple

Chapter Notes

> sһһһ 𝗍һᥲ𝗍 𝗍і𝗍ᥣᥱ ძ᥆ᥱsᥒ𝗍 mᥱᥲᥒ ᥲᥒᥡ𝗍һіᥒg…

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You and JD had begun to hang out together regularly. It was pretty much every day that you two were in the park, smoking together every so often. Even on the days you were off the two of you still were out and about, each time with your own respective slushies. Yours red and his blue. Every time you both were together it was always the highlight of your day, and you started to feel brighter and brighter each day. You didn't feel as drained, you could actually get up in the morning without having to drag yourself, and you could feel your face muscles becoming less stiff as you smiled and laughed for hours on end. The two of you messed around and laughed your asses off at the stupidest shit, especially the not so occasional dirty jokes. The both of you seemed to be just as dirty minded as eachother as the jokes just bounced off of one another. It was honestly amazing what Jason was doing to your mind, and you found yourself craving to be right beside him more and more every day.

However, there was one day that had been different. A huge change happened as the dynamic shifted, yet stayed exactly the same…

It was the park, like always, you two were smoking on the ‘sunset hill,’ as you two had called it, and you each had your slushies. Nothing new. “Such a lovely evening, huh?” JD had spoken up, nudging at you with his elbow as he glanced at you. The both of you stood beside eachother while you were just next to the tree as it was the afternoon, but not late enough for the sky to begin darkening. You took a sip of your slushie before answering. “Yeah, it is a really nice day today.” You leaned beside him just abit, your sides resting against one another. He took a drag of his cigarette and you took another sip of your slushie, noticing you'd finished. “Awh dang…” You muttered as you looked down at your cup. Jason glanced over, chuckling as he couldn't help but find what you said amusing.

“Here,” he said as he took the cigarette from between his lips and held it infront of yours. “Have this instead.” He offered. It wasn't uncommon for each of you to share a cigarette with eachother after a while of hanging out. You took it between your lips and he let go to let you have it. You took a drag, surprising the both of you as you coughed. The cold of the slushie and the smoky embers seemed to not be a good combination. JD just patted your back and giggled a little as you coughed for a few seconds, quickly recovering. “Hey, your tongue is red.” Jason noted, and you were confused for a second before you realized it was from the slushie. “Oh, yeah, I guess it is.” You chuckled abit. “What about yours?” You raised a brow as you turned to face him. He stuck out his tongue, and you couldn't help but giggle at the silly face he made. “Well?” He said, his voice altered by the fact that he had his tongue out of his mouth. “Yup, it's blue.” You said matter-of-factly with a sharp nod. JD stopped sticking his tongue out as he nodded.

You giggled at nothing, as you often seemed to do around JD, as Jason couldn't help but smile at you. He then turned to step closer, suddenly leaning in. “Well, what if we made purple?” He spoke in a low tone. You both had always made dirty jokes, but this one was different. Was he… serious? It was the tone, the look in his eyes, the way he was getting closer with each breath. It wasn't just you imagining things as his lips pressed against yours and he closed his eyes. It was just a few heartbeats before he'd pulled back, just slightly, to gaze at you again. He smirked as you were simply dumbfounded, doe-eyed and speechless. His hand then moved to rest on your waist, the other cupping your face before he kissed you once more. It was soft at first as his lips simply pressed against yours, but then they had begun to move. His arm moved from simply resting on your hip to wrapping around the small of your back and pulling you in from your waist.

The remaining gap between you dissipated as if it was never there, your chests pressing together. You decided to finally have some sort of reaction as you raised your arms to wrap around his shoulders. Jason tilted his head as the kiss roughened, kisses connecting time and time again before you could feel his tongue slip past the seam of your lips. You let out a soft noise, the forgotten cigarette between your fingers dropped on the dirt, which had his hand gripping at your waist. His other hand moved to the back of your head to hold it, almost cradling it while your tongues danced. It was very abrupt when he had pulled away, swiftly stepping back as the gap between you grew once more.

Any and all of his touch was gone, and you could feel yourself yearn for every brush of him against you. You furrowed your brows as you were confused by the sudden lack of contact, tilting your head at him. “What-” You began, cutting yourself off as Jason had talked at the same time as you. “Well, that was quite something.” He murmured, smirking. Something about his expression made you feel uneasy, the feeling only becoming more as Jason just shifted into another conversation. Did he… regret it? You certainly hadn't. You very much wanted to do it again, but… he just kept talking. Talking about something else. You just tried your best to return the conversation while your thoughts ran wild. You were utterly confused, and admittedly concerned. Would it ever happen again? Would he even talk about what happened? Would it even be brought up ever again?

What are we?

Chapter End Notes

> ᥒ᥆ᥕ 𝗍һᥱ rᥱᥲᥣ s𝗍᥆rᥡ s𝗍ᥲr𝗍s 👀

## Chapter 6: Unbothered

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The rest of the time you spent together that day had gone just as normal as the rest despite the sudden heat. You eventually learned to mimic the way he had seemed to just forget about it, playing it cool and finally moving on. You really hadn't, how could you? But JD seemed to just keep the new topics rolling, so you just played along. That night you were barely able to sleep. You couldn't stop thinking about it, about him, about the kiss. Your mind clung to the memory of his lips against yours, the way he'd held you so close and every so softly. You felt the need for it growing each day. It was like he'd set off a spark in your heart, leaving you to the flames. Well you were done burning alone in your room every night, so you'd finally been able to get around to sleeping over at his house.

You had to admit there were butterflies in your stomach as you awaited Jason to come and pick you up, pacing your room. You had a bag packed with the basic essentials for a sleepover on your bed, awaiting for you to pick it up. You stood still and perked as you heard the sound of his motorbike approaching and stop infront of your house. You huffed out a sharp breath before scooping the bag off your bed and making your way to the front door. You were taken aback as you saw JD already standing there, his hand raised to knock. His equally startled expression melted into a warm smile as he lowered his hand. “Well hello there.” He uttered, his voice smooth. “Shall we go?” He offered along with his hand. You smiled as you took it and nodded. “Alright, lead the way.” You said as he turned to walk with you over to his bike. You simply put the bag on your back as he climbed onto it, and you followed.

You felt awkward in this position as anxiety had already been bubbling in your gut, trying your best to have a gap between you. JD glanced at you behind him for a moment before turning to look forward, starting the vehicle and beginning to move. On the first acceleration you had jerked forward to wrap your arms around him with a small squeak, and he paused for a moment to chuckle at you. “A good back there?” He teased. “Just go!” You grumbled, narrowing your eyes at him. He huffed out a soft chuckle before moving again, starting off towards his house. You kept yourself pressed close to his back while the whole ride neither of you talked, it'd be hard to talk over the engine anyway. It took a decent amount of time, but you hadn't really paid attention as you were more focused on how close you were pressed against his back.

Jason was the first to get off of the bike, taking your hand as you followed suit before walking to his house. For some odd reason he had been quick to rush you to his room before the door was closed behind him. After you set your bag on the ground he turned to you. He sighed as he had his hands on his hips, looking annoyed yet saddened at the same time. You walked up infront of him and raised a brow. “What's up?” You asked, concerned. “Nothing, just… my dad. He promised not to bother us at all, but I'm still worried he's gonna..” His arms shifted to cross over his chest as he looked off to the side. You offered a faint yet hopefully reassuring smile as you placed a hand on his arm. “It's fine, he probably isn't worse than my dad anyway…” You shrugged. JD looked back at you, and for a split second you could see his face show a concerned panic before he shook his head and relaxed. “Yeah, you're right…” He murmured with a soft smile as he uncrossed his arms to hold your hand.

The room had fallen silent for a few moments before he spoke up again. “So- uh… what'd you bring?” He gestured towards your bag. “Oh! Right-” You chirped as you turned away and let go of his hand to sit beside it. “Uhh, just some basic things.” You began as you unzipped the bag and sifted through it. “Snacks, change of clothes, blanket, electronic stuff…” You listed them off before looking back up at him. “Wait- just a blanket?” He asked as he stepped over to peek into the bag. “Um… yeah, it's all I could fit in here. Why?” You said as you tilted your head. “Well… I mean, I have extra pillows, but..” He began nervously, glancing away. “I don't have any sort of mattress or something? And my floor is…” He trailed off as the both of you looked around the mess that was on the ground, mostly clothes piled ontop of other items. “Yeah… I didn't want to say anything when I came in…” You chuckled awkwardly. “I know it's messy, but honestly I don't care.” JD said with a shrug. “But, I guess you do need somewhere to sleep…” He scratched the back of his neck as he looked down in thought.

“Why couldn't I just sleep on your bed?” You furrowed your brows, wondering why he was so avoidant on it. “Oh- I just… hadn't thought of it, I guess..” He smiled sheepishly. It seemed mostly reasonable, so you just brushed it off. You then grabbed the blanket from the bag and turned to toss it onto the bed before standing back up. “Now what?” You asked, JD thinking for a moment as he glanced around the room. “Uh… What kinda snacks did you bring?” He offered. You raised a brow and put a hand on your hip. “The kind for me. You have your own food, don't you?” You tilted your head. JD just rolled his eyes. “Well, yeah, but nothing special. Pleaassee can I have some?” He clasped his hands together and pouted in an overexaggerated beg. You giggled at him as you huffed out a sigh. “Oh, fine.” You grumbled as you turned to grab the snacks from your bag. The two of you then sat on the bed as you shared the snacks together, striking up a conversation aswell. Just as always, the conversation turned from topic to topic. It felt normal, like before. You'd completely forgotten about the kiss.

Right, the kiss…

Chapter End Notes

> і g᥆𝗍 ᥒ᥆ ᥕ᥆rძs 🙏 ȷs m᥆᥎іᥒg 𝗍һᥱ s𝗍᥆rᥡ ᥲᥣ᥆ᥒg

## Chapter 7: Again

Chapter Notes

> kіᥒძᥲ ȷᥙs𝗍 rᥱᥲᥣіzᥱძ іm ᥣ᥆sіᥒg 𝗍һᥱ ⍴ᥣ᥆𝗍 ᥲ ᥣі𝗍𝗍ᥣᥱ, s᥆ s᥆rrᥡ і𝖿 𝗍һᥱ rᥱᥲძᥱr sᥙძძᥱᥒᥣᥡ s𝗍ᥲr𝗍s 𝗍һіᥒkіᥒg ძі𝖿𝖿ᥱrᥱᥒ𝗍ᥣᥡ 😃 і'ᥣᥣ 𝗍rᥡ mᥡ ᑲᥱs𝗍 𝗍᥆ ᑲᥱ sm᥆᥆𝗍һ 𝗍rᥙs𝗍 🙏

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Jason seemed to notice you were suddenly bothered by your thoughts, furrowing his brows and tilting his head. “Is… something wrong?” He asked as he reached out to place a hand on yours. You looked at him, and you could feel the words bubble in your throat just behind your tongue. You wanted to speak up, confront him, confess… but something stopped you. Your lips just wouldn't move. So, you just tried your best to smile as you took his hand. “It's nothing important, really…” You muttered the lie, and JD seemed to believe it. He looked like he wanted to push, but he let it go. “Well… if something's bothering you, why don't we watch something to take your mind off of it?” He said as he raised a hand to gesture towards the TV in his room. [Guys js pretend he has one 🙏] You looked over at the TV as he pointed at it, nodding faintly. “Yeah, ok, just put whatever on…”

So he did, and the two of you watched whatever movies looked interesting. At some point the snacks were finished and the bed was brushed off before you two had your arms wrapped around eachother while laying down. The both of you laid on your sides to face as you watched whatever romcom had been on. You did your best to crane your neck but after having it turned to the side for so long you decided to rest your cheek against the mattress and dip your head into his upper chest. His hand trailed up to play with your hair and you could feel yourself relaxing. You felt really nice like you always had with JD, but moments like these felt different. It had that warm feeling bloom in your ribcage and the urge to pull him closer tugging on your arms. His hand then trailed down to rub at your back before resting on your hip, his thumb tracing small circles. The silence was then abruptly broken as he spoke. “Bet you wish that were us, huh?” He tilted his head to lean abit closer.

You were confused for abit before you glanced over at the TV, seeing the scene had been getting steamy. You just giggled at his comment, laughing it off like any other joke, but it fizzled out as he hadn't laughed along with you. His gaze almost held your own captive as he just stared at you. You smiled and he smiled back as you saw his eyes flicker down to your lips for a moment. You knew exactly what that meant. Jason then finally leaned in to close the gap, his hand sliding upwards from your hip to your waist. Your eyes fluttered closed as your arms around him pulled him closer. Your whole body exploded with excitement at the fact that your lips were connected once more, and you tilted your head to deepen the kiss. Jason hummed faintly before he slowly turned you over from laying on your side onto your back, never breaking the kiss as he followed to land ontop of you. His other hand came to hold the side of your neck, pressing his lips firmer against yours before his tongue was pushing against yours.

The hand placed on your waist then began to trail lower, brushing across your thigh. The both of you then jumped as there was a brief yet firm knock at the bedroom door. Jason grumbled as he lifted his head, his hands clenching into fists where they were, glaring at the door and the voice that rang out from behind it. “Jason! Ok- I get you said not to bother you, but atleast come down to have a dinner.” The man, who you assumed had been his father, called out. JD just huffed out a harsh sigh and sat up. “Yeah, give me a moment!” He called back, and his dad's footsteps faded down the hall. JD then looked back to you, his gaze apologetic as his brows furrowed. “I'm really sorry about that.” He took your hand, and you sat up aswell. “It's fine, we have all night…” You reassured, seeing it had worked as he smiled again. “Damn right..” He muttered as he leaned in to place one last lingering kiss to your lips before he stood and made his way to the door.

You hopped off the bed in order to follow close behind as the two of you made it to the table. You looked at the food before your gaze found that JD hadn't sat down yet. “Hey, son, would you wanna eat upstairs..?” He asked as he rubbed at the back of his neck. His dad raised a brow as you furrowed yours. “Well I wouldn't wanna get crumbs on my bed.” His dad had responded. You were frankly confused, but decided not to speak up for now. “Yeah, but if you're real careful and don't eat on the bed?” JD smiled hopefully, and his dad scratched at his chin. “Nah, I wouldn't risk it. I think I'll just sit at the table. Now.” Jason huffed out a sigh as he sat down, and you sat beside him. You looked between them, silence filling the room while you all began to eat. Jason rushed the meal to get it over with sooner, waiting for you to be done once he was. He had almost a pleading look in his eyes as he watched you eat, so you did your best to hurry. Once you did finish the food Jason took your plate and dumped it in the sink before taking your hand and dragging you back up to his room.

He was quick to shut the door behind the both of you while you sat on the bed. You were about to speak but before you could get more than half a word out he was standing infront of you with his hand on your jaw.

“Now, where were we?”

Chapter End Notes

> ᥕᥱᥒ𝗍 ᑲᥱ𝗍𝗍ᥱr 𝗍һᥲᥒ і ᥱ᥊⍴ᥱᥴ𝗍ᥱძ 😃 𝖿ᥱᥱᥣ 𝖿rᥱᥱ 𝗍᥆ skі⍴ 𝗍һᥱ ᥒᥱ᥊𝗍 ᥆ᥒᥱ і𝖿 ᥙr ᥒ᥆𝗍 ᥲ smᥙ𝗍 ⍴ᥱrs᥆ᥒ 🙏

## Chapter 8: Heated

Chapter Notes

> ᥡᥲᥡᥡ smᥙ𝗍 ✨ (𝖿іᥒᥲᥣᥣᥡ…)

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Jason held your gaze with a look in his eyes you hadn't seen on him before. It was almost… hunger. It was desperation. It was passion. It was built up emotions just waiting to spill and overflow. He was quick to lean in and press his lips firmly against yours, swiftly yet gently leading you to lay on your back. You wrapped your arms around him as his body pressed flush against yours, nearly crushing you. The kiss was intense and messy, his hand moving from your jaw to cradle the back of your head. Jason's other hand trailed down the side of your body, dragging along the fabric of your shirt, slipping beneath to rest on your hip. He then pulled back slightly, the both of your breaths coming heavier, in order to speak. “Hey, speak up if you need to, alright baby?” He murmured, placing a peck to the corner of your lips. You just nodded in response before lifting your hand to his cheek and pulling his lips back onto yours.

You tilted your head into the kiss as it swiftly grew heated once again. You could feel Jason's hand trail over your belly before lowering to the fabric between your thighs. His fingers pressed down, and you could feel your hips shift against the feeling. He pressed his digits firmer at the reaction, the friction causing your guts to ache for more. You whined into the kiss in a wordless attempt to plea, and he somehow understood. He pulled away, his face sticking near yours, as his hand rose briefly before it was tugging at the waistband of your shorts to pull them down slowly and teasingly. Once they were off his hand returned to it's place between your inner thighs, running his finger over the slit. You gasped lightly as you couldn't help but whine, and he chuckled. “That feels nice, huh?” Jason teased, not giving you a chance to answer before his pointer was digging its way into your entrance.

You let out a gasping moan before he set a decent pace, curling his finger every so often. It was an amazing feeling to finally be beneath him like this, to finally have some part of him inside you and touching you. Jason decided to add a second finger after not that long, basking in your whines and mewls. He dipped his head to pepper kisses along the column of your neck aswell as along the length of your collarbone and shoulders. Every so often his lips parted to drag his tongue across your skin, his fingers growing relentless as they slowed in order to curl further. The feeling had you gasping as you began to utter his name, desperation seeping into your voice. It was like a drug to Jason, and goddamn it he was going to chase that high. You subconsciously grabbed at his coat as your guts coiled tighter and tighter, your breath shortened and your mewls became more and more high pitched. Jason's thumb worked to find your clit, rubbing over the bundle of nerves to help you draw near. It hadn't taken that long before the rope snapped and you came, the juices flowing over his hand.

Jason's fingers moved in a few more shallow thrusts before he pulled his hand away, leaning back enough to lap up the cream that coated his fingers. He hummed lowly as he gazed down at you. “You're amazing, darling..” He purred between licks before he'd decided his hand was clean enough. He leaned in to place a kiss on your burning cheek, listening to your ragged and shallow breaths. He decided to be cautious and allow you to catch your breath before doing more, simply peppering your face and lips with a few lingering kisses. Once you'd mostly calmed down, Jason met your gaze before he spoke. “Ready for the main event?” He muttered, raising a brow with a smirk. “Born ready…” You uttered without an ounce of hesitation, eager for what was about to go down. “Good..” Jason muttered before he pulled back in order to shrug off his overcoat before reaching for the hem of his shirt. He held your gaze throughout the whole things, watching as your own eyes raked over the form revealed by the lifting of fabric. His expression was teasing and cocky as he chuckled softly.

He then, at last, slid his pants down and set them beside the bed. As he sat above you, nude, you couldn't help but check him out. You looked up and down, from his hair to his thighs, and you loved it all. You needed it all. “Jas-” You began to speak, before he silenced you. “Shh, I know..” JD hummed as he leaned back in. His lips pressed against yours as he held your head, shifting his hips back and forth in order to properly align. He sunk in for just the tip before abruptly bottoming out in one thrust. You cried out as Jason pulled away from the kiss to pepper his lips across your face. He loved the feeling of how warm and wet you were, not able to hold back any more as he began moving. “Ah- yes, fuck…~ so good..” He groaned as his hips rocked, and you moaned and whined alongside him. One of his hands came up to run through your hair as his head dipped into the crook of your neck. He opened his mouth to sink his teeth into your skin, causing you to let out a high pitched whine as you squirmed.

Jason licked at the mark before continuing on to place kisses along the side of your neck, his hips gradually growing quicker in their rhythm. His fingers dug into your scalp as he subconsciously clenched at your hair, his other arm coiled tightly around your middle. He placed a few more spare bites along your shoulders, pressing his teeth deep in order to leave a mark. JD needed people to know you would never be anyone else's. You couldn’t help but arch your back at each one as his thrusts were harsh and sharp. You almost felt trapped beneath him as he pressed down into you, your body sinking into the mattress as it trembled from his movements. Jason was losing himself inside of you, his mouth giving up the effort of moving across your skin as he simply moaned and groaned. His heated breaths fanned across the shell of your ear with each ragged breath. Hearing him like that had your guts tightening like before, and JD groaned as you quite literally had. Your walls clenched around him as your hips buckled up to meet his with each thrust, his rhythm beginning to crack.

Jason's hips held himself inside you for longer and longer with each thrust growing deeper and deeper. It hadn't taken that much more before the both of you were growing closer to the peak. Jason was the first to come undone as he held himself deep inside you, trembling as every muscle was tensed. You followed just a few beats after, whining and calling out to him breathlessly. Jason relaxed as he settled his weight onto you, his chest heaving rapidly. It was a little hard for you to breathe, but you honestly hadn't had much of the energy to complain. Jason had eventually decided to pull out and roll to the side, laying on his back with one arm still under your neck. You stared up at the ceiling, awaiting for your mind to clear and vision to straighten up. The silence was finally broken by JD's breathless voice. “That… was better than any high..” He uttered before turning his head. “You, you… you're better than any drug..” He smiled then, and you couldn't help but smile back. You rolled over to lay on your side aswell as get closer, your arm draping over his torso. “So are you..” You murmured in response before turning further to snuggle up into his side.

Chapter End Notes

> і𝗍's ᥲᑲі𝗍 ᥣ᥆ᥒg, ᑲᥙ𝗍 ᥒ᥆ᑲ᥆ძᥡ's ᥴ᥆m⍴ᥣᥲіᥒіᥒg і ᑲᥱ𝗍 😏
> (ᥡkᥒ᥆ᥕ ᥕһᥲ𝗍 ᥱᥣsᥱ-)

> mіgһ𝗍 ᑲᥱ sᥣ᥆ᥕᥱr 𝗍᥆ ᥙ⍴ძᥲ𝗍ᥱ ᥴᥙz mᥡ mᥱᥒ𝗍ᥲᥣ һᥱᥲᥣ𝗍һ іs g᥆іᥒg 𝗍һr᥆ᥙgһ ᥲ ძᥱ⍴rᥱssі᥆ᥒ ᥲᥒძ і'᥎ᥱ ᑲᥱᥱᥒ 𝖿і᥊ᥲ𝗍іᥒg ᥆ᥒ ᥆𝗍һᥱr 𝗍һіᥒgs, ᑲᥙ𝗍 і'm ᥒ᥆𝗍 ᥲᑲᥲᥒძ᥆ᥒіᥒg 𝗍һіs ᥱᥒ𝗍іrᥱᥣᥡ 🙏

## Chapter 9: Rushing in the Rain

Chapter Notes

> mᑲ 𝖿᥆r 𝗍һᥱ ᥣ᥆ᥒg ᥲᑲsᥱᥒᥴᥱ. іk і ᥲᥣrᥱᥲძᥡ sᥲіძ і'ძ ᑲᥱ sᥣ᥆ᥕᥱr ᑲᥙ𝗍 і һᥲძᥒ'𝗍 ᥱ᥊⍴ᥱᥴ𝗍ᥱძ 𝗍᥆ ᑲᥱ /𝗍һіs/ sᥣ᥆ᥕ 😅

The two of you laid beside eachother as you caught your breaths, and at some point JD had sat up to grab and put his clothes back on. He tossed over yours and you sat up beside him to get dressed aswell. Once you were done you looked over to see Jason had kept his shirt off, and your eyes couldn't help but glance at his chest and torso again. JD raised a brow as he spoke. “Hey, eyes are up here.” He murmured with a smirk, and you were quick to correct yourself as you met his gaze again. His brows furrowed abit, concern seeping through. “You look tired.” He noted. You honestly felt the part as you nodded with a heavy sigh. “Yeah, I am…” You muttered. Jason nodded then, a soft smile gracing his lips. “Well then we should probably head to bed, huh?” He offered, shifting so that he could lay along the length of the bed. You shuffled to slot in beside him, wrapping your arms around him and pressing your cheek against his chest. You heard his breathing even out into deep, soft breaths as he fell asleep after not too long. You yourself took a while longer as you couldn't quite get to sleep. You hadn't known why, it was just that something felt off. You couldn't shake it.

You huffed out a sigh and nuzzled yourself deeper into Jason's side, your eyes fluttering closed, as he shifted in his sleep to wrap his arms tighter around you. You tried to focus on the comforting warmth of his body, the compress of his arms around you, and the way he was so peaceful in his sleep. Eventually you had been able to fall asleep yourself, dreamless and restless, but sleep nonetheless. The next morning the birds chirping was a harsh sound, and the sun was much too bright. Your body felt uncomfortable in a cold sweat, yet there was also an unbearable heat within your chest. You felt that the bed beside you had been emptied, opening your eyes to squint at the wrinkled sheets where there was still a dip in the mattress. However, the gentle warmth was absent as the spot had gone cold. You let out a groggy whine at Jason's absence, but then you heard the sound of stern, strained yet hushed mumbled coming from downstairs. It was probably Jason and his dad. You thought back to the odd interaction that had happened the day before. They were quite the… odd family, but certainly not the worst you'd encountered.

You rolled over to look at the door, slightly ajar, voices still trailing in from downstairs. You couldn't help but want Jason to be back in here beside you. You wanted his arms around you again, you wanted his lips against your skin. You needed the comforting feeling of him being there with you. You grumbled as you rolled onto your back to stretch with a strained whine before attempting to drag yourself from the bed. You stood, but just as you padded over to the door and put a hand on it to open it Jason was in the doorway. “Oh- hey, you're awake.” He spoke softly with a smile as he stepped in the doorway. You blinked, a little startled by his sudden presence, but welcoming it nonetheless. You smiled groggily back. “Yeah… still feeling a little tired though.” You murmured as Jason raised a brow. “Still? You slept in quite abit…” He held concern in his gaze and tone. You just shrugged. “It's ok though, I can still function.” You reassured. It took him a moment or two before his expression eased into a gentle smile. Jason huffed out a sigh before leaning into to place a peck on your forehead. “Ok… if you-” You then abruptly cut him off. “Wait- what time is it? How late did I sleep in?” You blurted out, suddenly remembering your afternoon shift. You thought it wasn’t much to stress about the day before but now you were starting to worry with how much you had supposedly slept.

“Uh… well, not too late.” JD muttered as he scratched at the back of his neck. You rolled your eyes. “Very specific.” You grumbled sarcastically as you fished around your pocket for your phone, finding it wasn't in there. You looked behind you around the room before spotting it on the dresser beside the bed. You quickly picked it up to check the time as JD took a few steps toward you from behind. “Ah shit-” You hissed out as you shoved your phone into your pocket and rushed over to your bag. “What? What's wrong?” Jason asked, his voice wavering slightly as his concern grew yet again. “It's fine- I just have 10 minutes to get home and drop this off before I have to go to work!” You exclaimed, not meaning to yell at him. JD’s brows furrowed as you did, but his expression softened in understanding that you were just stressing out. “Ok- uh… call after?” He offered as he watched you stand and sling the bag over your shoulders. “Yeah, sure- uh… text me, ok?” Your words were rushed as you speed walked out of the room. JD followed behind as you both called out your goodbyes before you were out the door.

You were as quick as you could be, power walking through the streets with the weight on your back hadn't been easy. At some point you'd made the mistake of not watching the road and a car zipped past right as you were out of the way. You whipped around to glare at it before moving on, no way you had time to be mad at some dumbass driver. You huffed a sharp sigh and turned a corner, beginning to jog as you could see your house just down the block. You rushed into your room without a word to your family, dropped the bag on the floor with a rather loud THUMP, and were out the door once again. It was just your luck that halfway there the clouds began to cry and rumble as rain drizzled then poured to drench you. You ran as fast as you could, ignoring the burning in your calves, to make it through the rain. You always hated the rain. It always came with bad luck, and very bad days. You were able to make it into work just on time, doing your best to dry off in any way you could. A few customers asked about and commented on your drenched state, but you just brushed them off. You tried your best to work through each customer as fast as you could, but of course there were some difficulties.

The hours passed by unbearably slowly, but eventually it had come to an end. You had taken the fastest shower of your life after work, because you felt all icky after everything that had happened, before flopping into your bed and calling Jason without even texting first. But he hadn't picked up. You began to panic internally as you called 5 times more, before giving up and just staring at your phone. It was 15 minutes before Jason had messaged he was busy. That was it. ‘I'm busy.’ For how long? Until tomorrow? Busy with what? Was he ok? Was he in danger? Was he with someone else? You knew it was wrong to be jealous, but you really couldn't help it. You sent him a few messages, spamming him, but decided to give up and let him do what he needed to. It wasn't like it was the end of the world. You begrudgingly went on another app to entertain yourself, and maybe distract yourself, before it had been dinner time. Of course your parents had confronted you about staying over at Jason's so late into the day, yet another thing to upset you. You did your best to power through the rest of the day before just opting to go right to bed after dinner. You were exhausted, and really had nothing better to do if Jason still wasn't answering.

## Chapter 10: Sunset Spot

Chapter Notes

> ᥒ᥆𝗍 mᥙᥴһ ᥆𝖿 ᥲ ⍴ᥣᥲᥒ ᥲs ᥆𝖿 ᥕrі𝗍іᥒg 𝗍һіs ᑲᥱ𝖿᥆rᥱ і᥎ᥱ s𝗍ᥲr𝗍ᥱძ ᥆ᥒ mᥙᥴһ ᥆𝖿 𝗍һᥱ ᥴһᥲ⍴𝗍ᥱr, ᥣᥱ𝗍's sᥱᥱ һ᥆ᥕ 𝗍һіs g᥆ᥱs! 😅

> ᥲᥣs᥆ іm 𝗍rᥡіᥒg 𝗍᥆ ᥱ᥊𝗍ᥱᥒძ ᥴһᥲ⍴𝗍ᥱrs ᥲᥒძ ᥒ᥆𝗍 gі᥎ᥱ mᥡsᥱᥣ𝖿 ᥲ mіᥒ ᥆r mᥲ᥊ ᥣіmі𝗍! :3 ᥙsᥙᥲᥣᥣᥡ і 𝗍rᥡ 𝗍᥆ s𝗍іᥴk 𝗍᥆ 4-6 ⍴ᥲrᥲgrᥲ⍴һs ᑲᥙ𝗍 іm s𝗍ᥲr𝗍іᥒg 𝗍᥆ rᥱᥲᥣіzᥱ і𝗍s ᥲ ᑲᥲძ һᥲᑲі𝗍… (іm᥆)

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The next morning, as soon as you were up you were messaging him, you were calling him. Anything and everything you could do to get an answer you were doing, and all the tension left your body as you read the message that had popped up.

Jason Dean (JD) 9:15 AM

Come to the spot.

You didn't need any further explanation, or to be asked twice, you knew what he meant. You were out the door pretty quick. Maybe you could spend the whole day with him, considering you were off today. You couldn't help but smile at that. Sure, the two of you had hung out more times than you could count, but you still looked forward to it each and every time. You made sure to let your dad be aware so there was no more lecturing before you were out the door with your phone in your pocket and some spare cash for a surprise. Your legs sped through the dampened streets from the rain last night, nearly slipping once or twice but you were quick to regain your footing. Even though it had been your day off, you still zipped into the 7/11. It was the first time you were actually glad to see the tiled floors and ceiling of the dimly lit, frankly dirty old store. You didn't say much to the person behind the counter, simply asking for two slushie cups, exchanging the money, and making sure the instant those cups were in your hands that you were infront of the machine.

You got your traditional respective colors before you were power walking through the streets again. You didn't pay much mind to the scenery like you usually had, your mind too laser focused on the rush to get to Jason. However, you had been more cautious of your footing so that the slushies weren’t spilt. Accouple people grumbled and shouted as you whipped past right infront of them, but you just ignored them like everything else. You could feel yourself allow your body to relax as you neared the entrance used to get to the usual ‘sunset spot.’ You ducked and weaved through the trees before you saw Jason sitting atop the hill. Your lips curled into a wide, warm smile at the sight of him, despite his temporary ghosting. You made your way up the hill where he sat in the grass beside the tree, perking and turning his head as he heard you nearing. Jason smiled brightly as you sat down beside him, about to greet you before he stopped himself as he noticed you holding the slushy to him. “Oh- thanks..” He murmured as he took it, looking into the cup to see it was already a third melted from the journey here. He shrugged as he began drinking it, and you drank your own.

There was a silence between the two of you, filled with the gentle sounds of the damp morning. You yourself felt calmed by the scene, the comforting silence, finally taking in your surroundings. The grass beneath you was dampening your pants, but you hadn't minded that much. All that mattered was that you were beside Jason. You felt a gentle warmth from his presence alone. You looked over at him as he was looking up at the clouds, noticing he was more on the tense side. His shoulders were rigid and his brows were slightly furrowed, his lips pressed in a tight frown. Your expression dropped to one of concern as you shifted to put a hand on his arm, making him startle slightly. JD looked at you with a sheepish grin before turning away, sipping at his drink in order to hide the awkward tension within him. Those same doubts after the first kiss creeped into your mind as you withdrew aswell on instinct. You took big gulps of your slushie as your mind raced. ‘Did he regret yesterday..? That's probably why he hadn't been answering… Maybe he's just come here to say he never wants to see me again. Maybe he just-’ Your train of thought's rails were frozen over as a sharp pain in your head made you wince. Brain freeze.

Your eyes squinted and nose wrinkled at the uncomfortable feeling, and Jason looked over at your discomfort. “You good..?” He asked as he put a hand on your shoulder, leaning a little closer. “Yeah- yeah, it's fine… just brain freeze..” You uttered out through gritted teeth, and JD couldn't help but chuckle. “That's the whole point of having a slushie, you know.” He said matter-of-factly. You raised a brow at his odd comment as the pain subsided at last. “What? That's like… the worst part.” You retorted with a disbelieving smile. JD just rolled his eyes. “Well, for me it feels nice to just freeze my brain. Helps me forget, yknow?” He offered with a subtle elbow to the arm. You just huffed at him. How could anyone actually enjoy brain freeze? But now that you thought back to every single time you'd have your slushies together, you remember how he always downs it all without a single wince. It was a little fascinating how he'd always finish his drink so fast. Speaking of, it was then you'd noticed he had finished his drink, before standing to stretch abit.

You shrugged, deciding to be dismissive. “Ok, yeah, whatever you say… damn masochist…” You muttered that last part, pretty sure Jason had heard, considering he raised a brow with a wide smirk, but in the end he hadn't commented on it. He just stretched his arms up, over his head and arched his back. “I've been waiting a while, you know.” JD chided playfully as he crossed his arms and leaned back against the tree. You rolled your eyes as you pushed yourself up from the grass to stand beside him, your side leaning against the tree to face him. “Awh, you're welcome for getting you the slushies.” You cooed sarcastically as he huffed and rolled his own eyes. Your thought process then lead you back to the kiss. Your tongues. The colors. You decided to make an inside joke. “Without them, we wouldn't be able to make purple.” You added, and saw Jason raise a brow as his smirk widened. He then turned his body to face you and lean closer. “Oh yeah, that would be rather disappointing, huh?” He uttered in a lower voice, that same look in his eyes. This time you hadn't been taken aback by it, only encouraging it by leaning in closer with a “mhmm..”

In one fluid move he turned his body to be in front of you, turning you so that your back was against the tree and he was pushing up against you to lean in. JD then wordlessly dipped his head to press his lips against yours, his arm wrapping around your waist to pull you closer while the other braced beside your head against the trunk of the tree. Your own hands raised to either side of his face to hold it, keeping the kiss connected, tilting your head with your eyes shut. He pulled back just a bit, a faint smirk gracing his lips, to look down at you. You expected him to pull away again like before, to put distance between you, but he leaned in to kiss you again. Your lips parted as your tongues began to dance, JD leaning closer to press his body tighter against yours. His leg raised to part your thighs, his knee pressing against the bark as his thigh dug into your crotch. You couldn't help but let out a soft whimper into the kiss as your legs instinctively squeezed around his. His hand lowered from where it was braced beside your head in order to cup your cheek before he pulled back from the kiss, panting lightly. You yourself had heavy breath, your lips parted to pant aswell.

JD smirked before he spoke. “You're so beautiful like this, it's adorable…” He murmured as he looked over your face. He then dipped his head to pepper kisses along the column of your neck. “J… JD..” You huffed out, about to add on before he interrupted. He lifted his head from your neck to your ear. “Don't use that silly nickname, my real name sounds so much better from your mouth…” JD offered, awaiting you to correct yourself per his word. “Jason..” You continued after a moment, seeing his smirk widen. The next words you spoke slipped past your lips before you were able to stop it. “..I love you.” You weren't even sure what had compelled you to say those three words, but you had. A foolish hope bubbled in your chest that he would say it back, despite his history of being distant. JD's body was tense against yours as his smirk became strained. He quickly shifted into a lazy smile as he said nothing in return, only a small “hmp” of intrigue. After a few more moments he tilted his head to place a kiss on your cheek before stepping back. You blinked at him as he did, brows furrowing faintly in concern and confusion, taking just a step off of the tree.

JD sighed heavily as he fished his pocket for the pack of cigarettes, putting one between his lips, then pulling out a lighter to start the embers burning. Silence fell between the two of you yet again as he breathed in deeply, huffing out a smoky haze. He gazed at the trees with his eyes lidded in a saddened expression before his view shifted over to you. He saw you silently just staring at him, reaching back into his pocket to hold out the mini box to you. You looked down on it, hesitating. You hesitated. You hadn't remembered the last time you actually smoked. The whole time you'd been hanging out with Jason, you'd never really… Well, you took one anyway. You put it between your lips as he lit it for you, slowly inhaling the ever so addicting substance. You lost track of time as the two of you stood in the silence, the both of you feeling too awkward to speak. The reality of what had just happened ran through your mind. Making out in the middle of a public park, on a hill where it's easier to spot nonetheless. You breathed a sigh of embarrassed regret as Jason perked abit at the sound. He looked at you a few moments before finally breaking the silence.

“I… am gonna go, probably..” He uttered with a shrug.

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## Chapter 11: Distance

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> һᥱһᥱ ᥒᥱᥲrіᥒg 𝗍һᥱ ᥱᥒძ ᥆𝖿 𝗍һᥱ 𝖿іᥴ 😊

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The statement saddened you as you heard it, but you nodded nonetheless. “Ok… uh, yeah, you do that…” You mumbled, not entirely sure you would leave the spot yourself. JD lingered for just a moment or two longer before he was off. You watched him the whole way as he made his way out of the park through the trees. Once he was out of sight your shoulders slumped as you'd been unaware of how tense you'd been before. You looked at your forgotten slushy on the ground, now tipped over and spilled out as it was entirely melted. Your gaze then flickered to Jason's empty cup also on the ground where he had been sitting. You turned away to take a drag of the cigarette, the only thing you could focus on without the weight of saddened doubt sagging your heartstrings. You gazed out at the sky, where the sunset would've been, and at the trees aswell. You watched birds come and go as the park was filled with their songs.

Each time you felt your heart ache you took a drag, time blurring. After a while you then suddenly thought about how Jason had maybe messaged you. You pulled your phone from your pocket, more frantically than you'd like to admit, but opened the screen to 0 messages. Your lips curled into a frown as you brows furrowed. ‘Fine, I guess I'll message first…’ You huffed in your mind as you did just that. You fully expected him to ignore you again, but he hadn't. Your face lit up as after 7 minutes or so he had replied. You pinched the cigarette between your lips as your thumbs moved at lightning speed across the keyboard, making a few spelling errors. Nonetheless, he had understood. Or… well, you're pretty sure he did, but his response had been abit uncertain in its brevity. You messaged again, making sure to check over your spellings before sending it this time. His response was equally short, dry even. You thought nothing of it as you continued to text eachother, but he was still being unbearably dry. Atleast you were talking to him, right?

For some odd reason he'd refused to call, as you'd finally given up after the 20th time asking. When he was taking abit of a while to respond you put the cigarette out, picked up the two cups, and began making your way home. You did your best to message back, carry it all, and pay attention to your surroundings all at the same time before you found a trash can just outside the park. You threw the items out, nearly dropping your phone in the process, before beginning to make your way home. You had been messaging back and forth the whole time, though his responses expeditionally became shorter and more far apart. By the time you were home he was taking 15 minutes to respond at the earliest. You breathed a defeated sigh as you flopped down onto your bed, deciding to scroll on whatever socials inbetween waiting for him to respond. You had stayed up for hours just to get every last minute to talk to him, before he had decided to head off to bed.

You grumbled in his absence as you rolled over to lay on your side. You looked at the wall beside your bed, your gaze tracing over all of the details you had put onto it. You then glanced at the items scattered across your bedside table, before glancing out the window. The sky was dark and cloudy, the moonlight so faint it almost wasn't there at all. Of course, none of the stars had been visible. How typical for a night like this. You rolled onto your back, looking up at the ceiling now. You felt… something. There wasn't any way to put it. You felt so alone and empty, and yet like everything was fine. You felt like how the sky had looked; dark, gloomy, and a haze clouding over it all to cover most of it. You sighed before lifting your phone to your face in order to check the time. ‘Damn..’ It was almost 3 hours after the time you usually went to bed. Maybe you should've taken more of that cigarette. It was too late to go back on your phone, so the usual social media wasn't going to work. You really should get to sleep… After all, you had work again the next day. So you reached over to put your phone on its charger before pulling the blanket over yourself, settling in to get some amount of sleep.

~The next morning~

You awoke with a start as your dad had been shaking you gently, quietly yet sternly informing you that you had slept in and had 4 minutes to get to work. 4 minutes. You were up and awake in an instant, well as much as you could've been, not even bothering to change or eat. You grabbed the first big snack you could find and were out the door with your phone in hand. You haphazardly ran through the streets as fast as you could, eating to the best of your ability on the way. You panted heavily as you finally reached the door, clocking in and making your way behind the counter. It took a good chunk of time before the customers started coming, so you'd finished your “breakfast” by the time they had, and you served each of them the best you could. You suddenly remembered that you hadn't messaged Jason that day midway through a customer. You tried to rush through them, but there had been quite the line behind them.

Finally, once there was a gap in the customers, you were able to open your phone to message him. Although, you had found that… he blocked you? He had straight-up blocked you, without a single word of an explanation. You stared at your phone in disbelief, your eyes skimming over the last few messages that had been shared over and over again. You blinked in confusion, your lips parted and your jaw slightly ajar. Your brows furrowed as you frantically tried over and over to message him, but nothing was going through. You were abruptly pulled from your mini panic attack by someone infront of you trying to get your attention, looking rather annoyed. You perked as they snapped at you, furrowing your brows in displeasure at the action. You just rolled your eyes and dealt with them. Your fists subtly clenched tighter as the door opened and closed, signaling another customer. You worked as quick as you could before checking the time once they'd left. It was still so long until your shift was over…

The second it was, you were gonna be out that door and at Jason's house.

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## Chapter 12: Gone

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> MUJAHSHAHAHAHAH

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You did your best to get through the day without your thoughts overwhelming you and staring off into space as you overthought. You failed miserably. The whole time you couldn't help but think of what you had done, what made him upset, what you said to him. ‘What did I do?’ You thought to yourself many times. You went over every little interaction, thought about how much you might've made him uncomfortable or not like you. You thought about what could've been said in those texts. Were you being too much? Too clingy? Too annoying? Did it bother him that you wanted to talk to him so much? You were jerked from your mind as a customer had walked through the door. You glanced at the clock. 15 minutes had passed. You tried your best not to groan and roll your eyes out of exasperation as the customer walked up to you. They were about to speak before they stopped, their brows furrowing in concern. “Are you… ok?” They asked, and you hadn't been sure how to respond.

This complete stranger was basically asking for your life's story. Well… that's what it felt like. You supposed that they had really just asked you about this morning, because what happened that was bothering you had only started then. Nonetheless, you were able to respond. “Uhm… yeah, just.. Tired…” You decided to lie. Their brows furrowed deeper. “No, I can see something's up, what's wrong?” Your own brows furrowed in confusion as you tilted your head. “I said I'm fine-” “No, you're obviously not. Did you even look in the mirror this morning? Your hair's all frizzed, the bags under your eyes are darker than black, and your face is all red. Were you crying?” You froze as the person rambled out all of the observations. Did you really look that horrible? Was it really that obvious? You blinked a few times before finally speaking up. “No… no, I guess I hadn't noticed…" You glanced away sheepishly, feeling suddenly embarrassed by the state you had supposedly been in.

They raised their eyebrows in a ‘well? Out with it’ look. You huffed out a sigh, glanced out at the door to see if anyone else was here, and then spoke. “Well… it started like, a while ago… I met this guy, we talked alot, got along well, fucked once…” She raised a brow at that. “...but, nothing was ever really… established.. And then he goes really distant for no reason a lot, and then just this morning… he… blocked me out of nowhere… so.. Yeah..” You had your gaze downcast the whole time, perking up as the person spoke. “Well he sounds like an asshole.” They spoke flatly. You immediately jumped to defend Jason. “What? No, he isn't that bad! He's nice, he's funny, and he cares about me!” You exclaimed. They just shook their heads. “Oh, dear…” they huffed out in a sigh. “It sounds to me he was using you for your body. ‘Hit and run,’ ?” They gave you a sympathetic gaze. You wanted to argue against them but… they really did have a point. He had seemed to be overly flirty, but also keeping a strong distance at the same time. He had been leading you on, like a mouse chasing cheese on a string…

“Well, I'm going to his house after work to see him. To talk to him.” You declared, and the customer just nodded. “I guess that sounds like the best bet. You go and tell him how you feel, let him know he's hurt you. You'll see if he really cares then.” You smiled softly at the random customer's support. It might've been silly, but it was all you'd got at the moment. You were about to speak again, but was interrupted by someone walking in with rather loud heels. You sighed before nodding to the customer with a whispered ‘thank you,’ getting them what they needed, and then dealing with the next person who had walked in. They were a flashy, condescending girl with bright red lipstick and a black, expensive-but-probably-not looking dress. She loudly chewed gum as she looked you up and down before scoffing. She then told you what she needed, and you did your best to do it without snapping at her to stop chewing that damn gum so loudly.

As you handed her change to her, she just so happened to tap her hand against yours. She quickly slipped the change into her purse, grabbed her item and stuffed it in there as well, before turning to the mandatory hand sanitizer and dousing her hand in 5 pumps. She gave you one last scowl as she was walking away and out the door. You flipped her the finger behind her back before sighing sternly. You glanced at the clock. It has only been 30 minutes since your work started. ‘Great…’ Then, the door signaled another person in, or it would be people… A group of boys looking no older than high schoolers. It was 3 people as they snickered to eachother. They traveled throughout the small store as a pack, randomly laughing aloud near the other end. You made sure to keep a close eye on the cameras, as these seemed like the type of boys to do casual shoplifting. Of course, one of the boys had been idiotic enough to stuff somehow a relatively small pack of beer under their coat before zipping it up. Another guy picked up a bag of chips and walked up to the counter, while the other boys stayed back.

He went to speak, but you decided to cut right to the chase. “You know there's cameras, right?” You uttered matter-of-factly. He just scoffed. “Yeah, I'm not falling for your reverse psychology.” Your scowl deepened. “That's not-...” You began before huffing out a sigh. “Tell your friend to put the alcohol back, or come here and give me an ID. And pay.” Your eyes narrowed as the boy infront of you still held an arrogant overconfidence. “Ugh, fine…” He grumbled before waving the group over. They looked nervous as one of them spoke. “Hey, bro… did you get the chips?” The first guy held the bag up. “Yeah- but… we're busted.” The whole group groaned as you rolled your eyes. “Yes, now give me the pack.” You held out your hand. The boy with the alcohol looked down in shame as he took it from his jacket and set it on the counter. You set it behind the counter before holding out your hand. “ID?” You stated flatly. The boys all looked at eachother before looking back at you as one of them spoke. “Uh, well actually-” He began before the one dropped the chips as all of them bolted from the store.

You sighed, and honestly had not been paid enough to deal with those idiots, so you just pushed on. After giving up on checking the time every 5 minutes, you focused on just getting through each customer. At some point you could see the sky begin to drizzle, before a storm brewed and thunder rumbled to shale the sky. Surprisingly, not checking the time had caused time to pass by so much quicker. You checked and it was just 15 minutes left… and then you were back to checking it every other minute. The second the clock changed, you were speed walking out that door. You hadn't cared if noone was there yet to take your place, that way their problem. Right now you were only focused on seeing Jason and getting answers. You didn't care how soaked your clothes were, you didn't care how many times you almost slipped, and you certainly hadn't cared how many people shouted at you as you nearly knocked them over. You were getting to his damn house.

You ignored the random white sign infront of his house, you ignored the fact that all the lights were off when they're usually on all the time, and you walked up to the door and knocked. No answer. You knocked again, louder. Still no answer. You knocked frantically until your knuckles went red, you rang the doorbell so many times you were half convinced you'd broken it, or it was already broken and nobody heard it. You were beginning to panic. You instinctively pulled out your phone to try and call him, then remembering he’d blocked you. You then whipped around as you heard the sound of a car approaching the street infront of the house and stop there. Your feet moved before you could think, but stopped as the person stepped out of the car. That wasn't Jason, or his dad. You both looked equally confused by eachother. He had been the first to speak. “I'm sorry- who are you? This house isn't ready yet.” Your brows furrowed in moreso denial than confusion. “I'm sorry- uhm… do you know where Jason Dean is?” You asked as you hesitantly walked up infront of him.

“Well, uh… didn't you see the sign?” He gestured towards it, and you finally looked. For Sale. For. Sale. The fucking house was up for sale. Your stomach dropped. “I-I'm sorry, sir, but… they moved…” He put a hand on your shoulder, which you promptly smacked off. “Where are they!?” You exclaimed wildly. “Why? Why did he leave?” You added as he tried to speak. He waited a few more moments before finally answering you. “I… I'm afraid I can't tell you that… I think it's best if you head home…” He offered gently. You were frozen in place. Not even a goodbye. You hadn't even gotten a damn goodbye. You spent the last conversation you two had bothering him for the stupid reason of simply wanting to talk to him. The man had stepped away, allowing you time to process as you continued to stand there. You then decided to begin your way home, as there was no point in just standing there. You were numb the whole way home, not caring about how loud the thunder roared or how wet the couch would get as you flopped onto it. You sat there, your limbs feeling like TV static and your head spinning.

You then decided to drag yourself up the stairs, the water making you weigh heavy. Once you were in there you took your shirt off and sat on the edge of your bed. You stared blankly at the floor before it all hit you. Your eyes burned, your cheeks felt sticky and hot, every breath never felt like enough air. Noone had even come into the room. You honestly could not care less what time it was or where the hell your parents were. You just cried. You cried over every kiss, sobbed over every touch, and screamed over that one night the two of you had spent. You laid to curl up on your bed, your entire body trembling. You could barely accept it. You would really never see him again. Never see his crooked smile, never hear his soft and gentle chuckle, never smell his comforting scent, and never feel his welcoming warmth. You were scared. You had never loved anyone the way you had loved him. It took gods know how long before you had finally calmed down enough to feel and think. You then abruptly sat up, frantically digging around the drawers before you found it.

A pack of cigarettes.

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## Afterword

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> ᥒ᥆ᥕ ᥕᥱ'rᥱ gᥱ𝗍𝗍іᥒg іᥒ𝗍᥆ 𝗍һᥱ rᥱᥲᥣ 𝖿ᥲᥒ𝖿іᥴ𝗍і᥆ᥒs >:3

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