2025-04-22 1:09:30 ¶ ● ⬈

skiesandcandy:

> I love. That one concept of college jon + helen it’s SO fun. Helen should mess with Jon and unravel her mind slowly and make Jon lose her grip on reality and slowly lure her into the spiral. Jon should be horrible to all her friends as she gets worse. Jon should start spending more and more times in the corridors and it should have Consequences. She should lose her humanity in a way that’s so confusing and hard for her to keep track of. She should nuzzle into the crook of helens neck and tell her she could at least TRY to be actually helpful and Helen laughs so loud it hurts her brain, but the sound is oddly musical. The pains oddly pleasant. And it’s confusing, and she wants nothing more than to understand it. The more she tries to understand the spiral, the more confused she gets. The more her own mind seems to confuse her. The more she needs to understand. The less she understands the spiral the more she Understands it yk. Why someone would fall. The appeal of it. Of giving up being human or being liked or trying to do good completely. Idk. Helen should unravel her ok. Jon should be aware she’s coming undone but the spiral is singing so loudly and the corridors feel more at home than she’s ever felt anywhere. She wanders them for hours trying to understand. Knowing she can’t. She’s always loved a challenge and there has to be some common thread somewhere. Helen giggling over how hard she keeps trying. Telling her it doesn’t make sense and that’s the point. Jon all whiny and confused and her brain isn’t working :(( barely knows up from down anymore, but the corridors are warm, so warm, and Helen has a nice room for her prepared for when she’s tired. It’s confusing too. Everything’s so confusing. She could stay in this place forever, trying to solve every little mystery, entertained by chasing her own tail, thinking she’s making progress, solving one and immediately slamming headfirst into the other. So endlessly, blissfully confused. Not a single painful thought again.

> She always makes herself leave. But she always has to remind herself. That she can’t just stay in this place forever. That she can’t just curl up in Helens arms and let her reach deep inside of her and rewire her as she pleases. Can’t take up her offers of seeing what they could do about the body she hates so much. Always reminds herself she has to leave eventually.

> She always is a little disappointed when she hears a door open and it isn’t Helen. She’s so angry around her friends all the time, so exhausted and snappy. People don’t like her anymore. She doesn’t want to be here. She’s so angry all the time and.

> And the spiral is singing so loudly, asking aren’t you tired? Aren’t you tired? And she can’t let herself answer

2025-04-26 1:52:24 ¶ ● ⬀ ⬈

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I’ve been thinking a lot about aus where Elias is Jon’s father recently. I think it’s a pretty easy thing to apply to their canon relationship. Elias shaping Jon, that line about “leaving the nest” and “my, you have grown.” Anyway I think it would be very hot if Elias was actually Jon’s father. Slipping off during galas to fuck in an unoccupied room and Jon is protesting but at the same time he’s unbuckling Elias’ belt and reaching for his cock. I also think it’d be hot if Elias did something to mess with Jon’s birth control. Jon pregnant with his father’s child….

tired-fandom-ndn:

> Oh my god anon, I am ALWAYS thinking about jonelias incest and how that would work with Elias’ canon treatment of Jon as something that he created and owns in a way.

> The idea of Jon still working at the Institute is so delicious though, like canon-adjacent jonelias is scandalous enough but Elias giving an important job to his underqualified son? Showing very clear bias to Jon over other employees? Can you imagine how Jon’s coworkers would react? It would just make him even more isolated and push him deeper into Elias’ control. And that’s not even getting into the risk of them sneaking around and potentially even being caught. Elias would never let anyone breathe a word about their relationship but maybe Jon doesn’t actually know what his father is capable of.

> And the babytrapping. Elias seeing Jon interact with his coworkers and build real relationships as an adult for maybe the first time and realizing how quickly things could go wrong if Jon ends up closer rhan anticipated to someone else. It makes complete sense for Elias to replace Jon’s birth control with placebos, right? Doesn’t it just make sense for Elias to take steps to ensure that his son will always be with someone who can keep him safe, who knows what kind of monsters lurk in the world, who will stand by Jon’s sides as he becomes one of those monsters? Jon will understand one day.