More Jon having a rape kink thoughts. Him touching himself to the thought of being coerced, threatened. “I can’t believe you’re letting me do this.” When he’s very much not. Being forced to hold his tongue, shaking with fear and want and disgust all at the same time. Thinking of being forced onto his knees , being held down onto Jonahs desk as he struggled and yelled. But nobody hears <33 he’s jonahs now, and he cant do anything about it. And he’ll keep going until he’s crying for more, more, more, and so ashamed of himself the whole time. Extremely pent up Jon imagining Jonah forcing him up against a wall and telling him to keep quiet, could he imagine would the others would do if they saw? This one makes him feel the worst, but he can never stay away from it either. Just. Jon having intense rape fantasies about Jonah. Thinking about Jonah hurting him and leaving scars all over him. Thinking about Jonah cumming inside of him and changing him forever against his will <333 and trying not to think about it after. It does not work.