Jon: I have no self worth issues or parental figure issues in any way or shape or form. Anyways what if Elias wanted me so so bad he couldn’t keep his hands off me even if I didn’t want it, what if all I had to do to make him feel good was just shake and struggle and make such pretty noises while I begged him to let me go. What if I called him dad and said it hurt it hurt and he told me I was taking him so well and I was so pretty and it’s okay, just relax, it’ll start feeling good soon, don’t worry about anything, he’ll make it better, it’s all going to be okay, and I got to be showered in his love and approval without actually doing anything bad.