skiesandcandy:

Idk how jh ended up bonding in my au but god it’s SO fun to think about. Smth about jon getting worse…idk what convinces him she’s helen. Maybe some conversation with someone goes worse and he goes. If I’m still me. If. I’m still me.. and has a crisis. Idk. Idk. Bit smth about the idea of jon wandering into the tunnels. Just kind of sitting next to her door. Helen arching an eyebrow at him after he doesnt immediately tell her to go away or that she’s not helen. Maybe he just says flatly “I’m reading down here. It’s too loud up there.” And she offers very unnecessary very annoying commentary tje whole time. Maybe she starts helping him cover up his feeding. Maybe he starts offering himself up for her to feed on so she stops traumatizing random people. (At least here he can do something useful.) Idk how the hell it gets to them fucking for the first time. Maybe jons distressed in the tunnels crying and scared out if his skin and helens finally here to bring him back and maybe he grabs onto her so so tightly, shaking. Idk how it progresses to them fucking but. Maybe it’s just this desperation for something solid something as close to real as anything feels here. And helens laugh hurts his ears but it’s something other than buzzing static. Is this real? He doesn’t know. He doesn’t know anything. He needs it to feel more real but her hands are all wrong and confusing and he needs to feel real. Alive. Like a person. Idk..