Girl help. Now I’m thinking about Elias trying to keep jon from going full blown corruption. Trying to satisfy that Itch in other ways…I need it to be weird. I need Jon to be clinging onto Elias for dear life because he’s one of the few things grounding him. Jon trembling kneeling at Elias’ feet looking up at him with big sad eyes, trembling lips and so so cute…they should be so toxic. Which is fueling the corruption in a different way. It’s just changed to Elias being his wasp nest <3. Just. Jon begging for him to use him pleading he needs it he needs it so bad break him, break him , he needs it, he needs it please it hurts-
Jon attaching to Elias so hard after reading her statement because he’s crumbling and needs stability. He needs a cnc scene so bad. Yknow his rape fantasies where Elias wants him so bad it doesn’t matter what he wants? Those are even more intense when he’s feeling this low and I think. Cnc won’t fix it but he Is using it to try and keep himself calm. Losing himself in feeling like Elias needs him. Can’t help himself. Can’t resist his wonderful son, who’s just so perfect and good and how can he not bend him over his desk even when he cries no no no. When his pain is just so pretty. Losing himself in the idea of getting knocked up against his will, consumed by a constant mark of Elias’ need. Changed and claimed forever, helpless to do anything but watch as his body is molded by his fathers loving, cruel hands. I still think it’d be hot if Elias got him pregnant to fulfill that Need. To be a home. Be consumed by what loves him. And I think that scene could be so so good. I think Elias makes a comment about getting him pregnant and this part of him that is crawling and writhing sings.