I need. Jon teetering on the edge of corruption god I need a better word for that asking elias if he’s still human. Like I know that happens in canon but idk this has a different flavor. Or maybe. Am I a person. Just this exhausted terrified look on his face. Being a person is hard and confusing and scary and he can’t love right. He either does so obsessively or not at all and is this love? How would he know if he felt it? He’s clutching the scars from the worms. Maybe from the attack. Or maybe he almost got Got somehow. Maybe he almost succumbed. Is he still a person, if he almost doesn’t want to be? If he’s never known how to be one? If he doesn’t act like one? Has he ever been human?