Jonpeter should have some miserable awful wretched sex in S4. Peter should exploit Jon’s degradation kink and self-loathing in a way that makes Jon feel absolutely wretched during sex and dropping HARD after. Jon feeling so gut-wrenchingly terrible and lonely and yet almost Seen and Known for what he truly is should have him cumming with a sob and then stumbling back down to the archives to curl up in the fetal position and sob for several hours until he feels hollow and wrung dry. Peter digs his claws into every vulnerable festering wound and it’s awful and overwhelming and Jon’s body is responding to it. He hates it. He thinks he deserves it. He aches when he goes too long between scenes. He needs it. He hates it. It’s the closest thing he has to comfort. Elias is gone. This miserable, turbulent fling is all he has left now.