I think sometimes Jon wants to be told he didn’t do anything wrong and he Needed to do all of that and it was actually completely morally correct. And sometimes Jon wants to be told yes you’re a horrible irredeemable person and you should keep doing it because who can blame you?? They made you like this. This is THEIR fault. Not yours. They did this to you. You deserve to feel good for once. You tried so hard. Don’t you deserve a break? Anyways I think Jonah should have weird insane beholding sex with him and feed him so many statements. You get it.
I think deep down Jon wants someone to tell him it’s not his fault in some way. And I think if Jonah forced him to feed he’d enjoy it a really abnormal amount. He’d have this wild look in his eyes the whole time, like he wants to eat him alive. I think Jon has fantasized about Jonah MAKING him feed so he doesn’t have to live with the guilt. Jonah did it. He’s a victim. It’s fine. He was so hungry and it wasn’t his fault. (Nobody needs to know that it felt so so good.) I think this is kind of like. Sexless sex. Yknow.
More Jon having a rape kink thoughts. Him touching himself to the thought of being coerced, threatened. “I can’t believe you’re letting me do this.” When he’s very much not. Being forced to hold his tongue, shaking with fear and want and disgust all at the same time. Thinking of being forced onto his knees , being held down onto Jonahs desk as he struggled and yelled. But nobody hears <33 he’s jonahs now, and he cant do anything about it. And he’ll keep going until he’s crying for more, more, more, and so ashamed of himself the whole time. Extremely pent up Jon imagining Jonah forcing him up against a wall and telling him to keep quiet, could he imagine would the others would do if they saw? This one makes him feel the worst, but he can never stay away from it either. Just. Jon having intense rape fantasies about Jonah. Thinking about Jonah hurting him and leaving scars all over him. Thinking about Jonah cumming inside of him and changing him forever against his will <333 and trying not to think about it after. It does not work.
Its like. I love jons canon arc I just also love aus where he goes off the shits and becomes a complete monster and relishing in it. And like making them really really horny. Jon that is completely not human anymore. I don’t know what design I like best for him. But I think he should get to be completely inhuman sometimes. And I think Jonah should think he’s the most beautiful thing he’s ever seen, not in spite of the fear but because of it. And I think they should have batshit insane sex about it. I think they should BOTH be inhuman and in love about it. Ok.
I think Jon should feel so so wanted and adored in tje arms of the man who made him into a monster. Not in spite of it. Partly because of it. He ruined him and he ruined himself and Jon rests his head in his lap, purring quietly. It sounds like a tape recorder whirring. He’s horrifying and he hates himself and his body has never felt more right. It has never felt more like him. And Jonah knows this. Jonah knows, and Jonah thinks he’s beautiful, and Jonah kisses all down his chest and tells him every part that he adores. Jon thinks there’s something deeply wrong with both of them. Jon thinks he understands why Prentiss stuck her hand in the wasp nest, or why Crew took that book, or why Perry lit herself on fire. He bares his neck for Jonah, even though he could tear him to shreds now, and he understands. He thinks he has never felt more Seen. More Known.
It should not feel good. He doesn’t think that matters much now.
I think Jon should have dangerously sharp teeth and I think he should love marking Jonah everywhere with them. I think he should think that it’s only fair after how much Jonah marked and changed him. Something about Jonah trusting him enough to let this monster dig his teeth into him knowing he could kill him, knowing he has every reason to, knowing a part of him WANTS to. Being so afraid of this monster and letting him anyway. I think Jonah should have some clearly visible mark from Jon. It’s only fair, isn’t it? Jon’s whole form now is a mark of Jonahs claim on him. A few scars is a fair trade. Would Jonah actually let him? Probably only after a While. And even then he’d be terrified. Jon laps up his fear. It’s the best meal he’s ever had.
I think Jons form should have whatever body would make him happiest and whatever would scare him the most at the same time. Like. Desires he never let himself express. Desires he’s terrified of. Basically I’m saying trans Jon. Let this man have gender euphoria.
So we agree Jon is still leashed and collared right. Even more important now. He could probably break the collar if he wanted to. Why would he want to? It’s his. He likes it. It feels nice. No he doesn’t want it off, why are you trying to take it off, that’s HIS.
I still need to figure out what I want him to look like as a monster though because. There’s so many different ways it could go. Huge moth monster? Being made up of tapes? Mess of shadows and eyes?? All could be very cool and also very hot. Whatever it is should have terrifying abilities that je sexualizes to no end. Honestly I could probably sexualize it more if I had any idea what he’d look like. Jon with wings could be really good…I’ve seen people do very good shit with his eyes being insanely sensitive. Obviously his genitals are weird but. Idk I’m thinking. I need to figure out how to make breeding him as weird and confusing and hot as possible, ok. Yes it’s still possible to get him pregnant what do you think I am.
Monster Jon on a leash. Monster Jon baring his neck for the man who made him this. Monster Jon happily resting his head in the lap of the man who broke the world. And he’s adored. Completely and utterly adored by the man who ruined his life. “My archivist”, he calls him sometimes, when he’s in a certain mood. “My beautiful archivist.”
Jon had left him several times before. But he always comes back. And he always bares his neck. His arms are warm and loving. And here, when he says “I love you”, when he bears his heart, he doesnt get awkward silence, he doesn’t get dismissal, he doesn’t get changing the subject. He gets an earnest “I love you too, Jon.” And a loving, tender kiss on the forehead. Jonah is so warm. Jonahs arms are strong and sturdy and laying on top of him is nice but being under him is better, it soothes some weird instinct in his brain he’s had long before becoming. This weird Thing that likes being squished and pinned and held in place, be it for sex or just being held down. Jonahs sturdy. Comforting. He could probably easily overpower him now. He’s the archivist. He could do whatever he wanted with him. He’s selfishly glad nobody can overpower him anymore, but. An odd part of him misses when Jonah could pin him down. When Jonah was stronger than him. He’s glad he can’t hurt him anymore, yet some part of him wants to feel so safe and fragile in his arms again. It’s odd. He doesn’t know why. He thinks something in his head got rewired wrong after he almost died so many times. But he whines mournfully when he realizes how little is actually stopping him from walking off and leaving. They’ll figure something out. This is definitely a really healthy coping mechanism. They can probably still drug Jon. Oh god monster Jon drugged would actually be really hot no way it Wouldn’t react differently on him even if it still has him more helpless and soft. So weak and foggy eyed and powers going a little out of control and his big eyes looking at him so so softly and sweetly.
Jon eating Jonah out having to be careful to watch the teeth. Jons tongue going so much deeper in Jonah that it should be possible for it to go, hitting things it should Not reach. Rough and hitting all the little spots that make Jonah gasp and squirm and grab onto jon for dear life.
Its important to me that if you make jon and elias parents you have to acknowledge theyd be the most dogshit parents in existence. Theyve discovered brand new ways to fuck a kid up
Their kid would need to be studied by a whole team to fix whats wrong with them
Ok but what if Jon called Elias dad during a cnc scene?
One of the more forceful ones, maybe. Where Elias told Jon he was going to take care of him whether he wanted it or not. “I’m going to give you what we both know you really need.” Forced Jon over his desk, hands behind his back, Jon pleading for him to stop the whole time. Rimmed him until Jon was a shuddering, whining wreck, cunt dripping. Where Elias let go of him briefly to unbuckle his own pants and Jon tried to vault over the desk and Elias had to catch him, pin him to the floor. Spanked him as punishment for trying to escape then pushed deep inside his cunt with no preparation. Fucked him hard and fast, roughly rubbing at his cock while Jon whimpered no no no no.
Jon came with a cry; “-dad, dad, please, dad!” Cunt clenching around Elias’ cock. Desperately trying to fuck himself on it, orgasm utterly overwhelming and so so so good, lasting several long, long moments. The feeling of Jon’s walls milking his cock, the way he had called Elias “dad,” it was all enough to send Elias over the edge too, hilting himself deep and cumming inside of Jon.
Of course it was a button he pressed during aftercare too, so curious to see what would happen, how Jon would react. Cooed over him lovingly, “just let your father take care of you now,” held Jon in his arms, told him what a good boy he’d been for Elias as Jon sobbed into his arms. “It’ll be okay, I’m here, your dad is here.” It wasn’t surprising, when the praise and Elias calling himself Jon’s dad had Jon rolling his hips into Elias’ thigh, when Elias pressed him down onto the couch and fingerfucked him, murmuring praises to him the whole time. Jon called him “dad” throughout, too aroused and too fucked out for the humiliation to outweigh just how good it felt.
Look I just think it’s neat when Jons soooo dependent on elias but also so bossy about it. Where are you going I want my 10 hours of cuddles. I want another statement. What do you mean I can’t eat you out for five hours. That man is so clingy. Especially monster jon. Like he’s given up completely on being a good person Nothing is holding him back. He WILL get his ten hours of Jonah cuddles. Jon looking up at Jonah like “you turned me into a weird tape monster so I’m your problem. Are you going to restrain my wings and make me feel like a helpless toy for you to take advantage of or not >:/” and Jonah just sighs and pats his head.
And I think it’s neat when Jon is the worst he’s ever been and so so happy <333 I think it’s neat when jons shamelessly indulging in all his worst impulses. I like when Jon feasts on statements and comes home all fuzzy and warm and wet from the horrible things he’s seen. I like when Jon rips someone to shreds for laying a finger on HIS Jonah. He’s the only one allowed to. Don’t you dare touch him. I like when Jonah tells Jon he’s his greatest creation and Jon rolls over and begs for his attention. I like when Jon could kill Jonah and instead he wants to belong to him so so badly. I think he should call him his beautiful archives and Jon should make a happy little chittering noise and nuzzle into his bulge, looking up at him for permission to try getting him off. Ok? OK.
I want someone to try to kill Jonah and suddenly all the tape recorders around the panopticon start screaming “HES MINE.” Jon kills them of course. He’s the Ceaseless watchers specialist little boy. I want Jonah to thank him, tell him he’s such a sweet boy, so loyal, so loving, he’s perfect, and Jons shame to slowly melt away until he’s preening. Tail wagging knowing his jonahs safe and nobody’s gonna touch him. Because Jons a good boy. Jon resting his head on Jonahs lap while he’s on the throne. Maybe Jon deserves the throne more, but Jonah is the King and Jon is the Archives. I need Jon to be SO so loved and I want him to reject any attempt to save him because “you didn’t care when I WANTED help” and I want him to curl up in jonahs arms, horrible and monstrous and so so loved <33
Look I just think it’s neat when Jons soooo dependent on elias but also so bossy about it. Where are you going I want my 10 hours of cuddles. I want another statement. What do you mean I can’t eat you out for five hours. That man is so clingy. Especially monster jon. Like he’s given up completely on being a good person Nothing is holding him back. He WILL get his ten hours of Jonah cuddles. Jon looking up at Jonah like “you turned me into a weird tape monster so I’m your problem. Are you going to restrain my wings and make me feel like a helpless toy for you to take advantage of or not >:/” and Jonah just sighs and pats his head.
And I think it’s neat when Jon is the worst he’s ever been and so so happy <333 I think it’s neat when jons shamelessly indulging in all his worst impulses. I like when Jon feasts on statements and comes home all fuzzy and warm and wet from the horrible things he’s seen. I like when Jon rips someone to shreds for laying a finger on HIS Jonah. He’s the only one allowed to. Don’t you dare touch him. I like when Jonah tells Jon he’s his greatest creation and Jon rolls over and begs for his attention. I like when Jon could kill Jonah and instead he wants to belong to him so so badly. I think he should call him his beautiful archives and Jon should make a happy little chittering noise and nuzzle into his bulge, looking up at him for permission to try getting him off. Ok? OK.
I want someone to try to kill Jonah and suddenly all the tape recorders around the panopticon start screaming “HES MINE.” Jon kills them of course. He’s the Ceaseless watchers specialist little boy. I want Jonah to thank him, tell him he’s such a sweet boy, so loyal, so loving, he’s perfect, and Jons shame to slowly melt away until he’s preening. Tail wagging knowing his jonahs safe and nobody’s gonna touch him. Because Jons a good boy. Jon resting his head on Jonahs lap while he’s on the throne. Maybe Jon deserves the throne more, but Jonah is the King and Jon is the Archives. I need Jon to be SO so loved and I want him to reject any attempt to save him because “you didn’t care when I WANTED help” and I want him to curl up in jonahs arms, horrible and monstrous and so so loved <33
Thinks about monster jon and the prey coded jon to jon acting like just a very big very dangerous spoiled cat pipeline. Like. Baring his throat to the predator and being good for them to be safe at its strongest. Do you see it. Jon getting comfortable in the jaws of a predator because it's warm and secure here and nobody else can hurt him anymore. Jon and his horrible bad fucked up coping mechanisms. Anyways I'm so normal
- skiesandcandy
Prey-coded Jon my beloved!
Yes Jon is, by any definition that makes sense considering his new form, no longer prey. He’s the most dangerous thing in the apocalypse, nothing can hurt him, not really, he’s the apex predator here. He doesn’t need to go limp and pliant in hopes of appeasing the monsters around him.
However this is Jon, so of course those tendencies aren’t completely gone. So he’s still prey, but only to Jonah, because he belongs to him still, and Jon knows it. Jon is a dangerous monster, a terror to everyone, but just this big soft creature around Jonah. Learned helplessness in monster form.
Jon rolling over and baring his neck to Jonah because he’s still the true predator between the two. That’s okay though because Jonah only hurts him in ways he likes, calls him good, gave him a way to make everything else stop hurting. If it cant make decisions, then is it really its fault?
A terrifying monster in a pretty collar, that just wants to be held and loved and told that it’s being so good. Someone else is holding the leash so this isn’t its fault. Identity sliding away until it’s just the Archive, not anything else, just here to be filled. The big thoughts are sharp with edges that catch and hurt, but the small thoughts are comforting, it’s just here to be used. It can just be empty-headed doing what feels good, whatever Jonah wants, because Jonah wants what’s best for them, right?
Ok but Monster Jon going into heat, because this is one more part of himself out of his control. That’s fine though because Jonah is here for him, and Jon tries to be good and pliant, but it’s all so much and he needs more. Jon pinning down Jonah and rubbing against him, just trying to make it stop, he needs it so bad, he feels like he’s burning up. Why isn’t Jonah making it stop right now?
Jonah for just a moment feeling a spike of fear, instinctual because sure, he knew Jon was dangerous, but not to him, surely. Jon is a tamed monster, a pet on the end of the leash that would never think of fighting back. Jon who is so out of it, so needy that he forgets his claws are there, and while they haven’t touched Jonah, they’ve shredded the space around them. He can feel teeth at his throat and he Knows how easily he could be prey. Jon’s thoughts so lost to nothing but instinct, that fear tasting so good, that some part of him wants more.
Jonah taking that badly, pinning Jon down instead, because Jon doesn’t fight he’s getting what he wants. If Jon wanted to he could easily get free, but why would he? Jonah pulling the leash tight reminding Jon that he is in charge here as he fucks him. Reminding Jon that he, not Jonah is still prey here, between the two of them. If Jon had the capacity for thoughts other than, yes and more, he might feel a bit of fear. At how the collar bites into his neck, as Jonah reminds him of his place below him, but none of that matters to the creature, he’s here to be used and filled, and be so so good for Jonah.
at least we will always have cutting open your hand and a vampire immediately latching onto it as some sort of twisted aftercare and foreplay simultaneously
YOUR TAGS ON THAT ONE POST... OHHH MY GOD. I'm gonna be thinking about this forever. Jon so so hungry and Elias hiding him and him being so stubborn because he's trying to do better he has to do better but the moment he sees Elias' blood he crumbles because it smells so good and he's so close. Oh. Jon moved closer. When did he do that? Is he drooling? When did he start doing that? Elias looking so disappointed in him for waiting for so long and he's so hungry and he's right there and oh god. Fresh blood is so much better. Fresh blood is SO much better he can hardly think he can't speak it's so good and elias is chiding him and he's so humiliated but oh god he can't stop. Everything feels so hot and he can't stop grinding against him he needs more now now now and Elias pets his hair and chuckles at what a mess he's making and he thinks hes going to explode. When he's finally satisfied and he's so humiliated he's covered in blood everywhere and he tried so hard to be better but god he can't help it and at least it's Elias. At least it's Elias and it was his fault he was a vampire anyway so it was only fair . I'm really normal.
- skiesandcandy
Vampire Jon who didn’t have a choice in becoming a vampire, because when had Jon had a choice in anything? Maybe Jon doesn’t know Elias is a vampire, let alone the vampire who turned him at first. Jon having to stumble through learning what he is like a newborn kitten, if the newborn kitten could rip someone’s throat out.
Jon starving because he doesn’t know what he needs, doing extensive research, and concluding that he’s a vampire, but that he’s going to be a good one. Jon new to this whole vampire thing trying to live off the rats running around the Archives, but they don’t actually help that much, like the statements in canon they’re stale, and not nearly enough.
Jon locking himself in his office to protect his assistants, because he a monster but a tame one. Soon he can’t even get up the energy to move, hiding under his desk as he feels like he’s being eaten from the inside.
Elias finally going to him, Jon protesting weakly but Elias is insistent as he pulls him out from beneath his desk settling him onto his desk. Elias visibly disappointed, he isn’t actually but that outward appearance makes Jon feel a spike of shame, as he slices his hand holding it out to Jon. Almost like you would hold out your hand to let a cat sniff it, not wanting to spook them.
Jon resisting but he’s so hungry and Elias is right here, and he’s offering, it’s okay if he’s offering right? Jon already inches away before he even agrees with that thought in his own mind. He intends to be careful, maybe just a few kitten licks of the dripping blood, but once it hits his tongue he can’t hold back.
Latching onto Elias’s arm chasing the sweet taste, it’s messy and desperate. Elias chiding him for the mess, wondering at his lack of self control, each word carefully barbed to hit Jon where it hurts. When Jon is sated, and god for once in so long he isn’t hungry, he feels like he’s floating, finally sated.
Elias pulling him into his lap, stroking his hair as Jon burrows against him, because it feels so good to be held. He’s had to avoid any sort of touch since he was turned, scared he’d hurt someone. He can’t resist grinding down against Elias’s thigh, all of his senses heightened as he realized how much he needs more.
Elias chiding Jon, calling him an insatiable little thing, so needy. It’s okay he will take care of him, he doesn’t have to think, he’s so bad at it. Elias calling him a good boy, that he’s so pretty like this, that he’s so glad he turned Jon, that he made Jon his.
A spike of betrayal as Jon realizes that the reason he’s like this is because of Elias. That it wasn’t just some monster and bad luck, this was planned, Jon struggling for a second to pull back, but Elias is strong. So Jon surrenders, goes limp, because well it’s not his fault right? Elias did this, Jon can’t fight against Elias, and it feels so good to be held.
Elias stroking Jon over his clothes encouraging him and Jon can’t help but grind against him again because it quiets his thoughts and the edges don’t hurt as much. He comes as he starts to cry, bloody tears, which only adds to the mess he made from feeding. Jon knowing that he can’t go back to starving himself, not after this, he’s a monster, but it’s fine because it’s not his fault. Right?
Gnghfhf. Monster jon. Jon biting jonah when he wants attention and in is a mood because he’s been good all day and he’s ignoring him. Being all whiny and bratty and just wanting attention!!! Jon being such a little terror when he gets bored.
Human Jon, probably having a lot of complicated thoughts about using it/its pronouns, and just not touching those thoughts with a ten foot pole.
Monster Jon, also not touching those thoughts, look we don’t do introspection, but that’s fine because it doesn’t need to. It feeling like a comfortable skin that it can finally put on now that it’s finally where it belongs.
YOUR TAGS ON THAT ONE POST... OHHH MY GOD. I'm gonna be thinking about this forever. Jon so so hungry and Elias hiding him and him being so stubborn because he's trying to do better he has to do better but the moment he sees Elias' blood he crumbles because it smells so good and he's so close. Oh. Jon moved closer. When did he do that? Is he drooling? When did he start doing that? Elias looking so disappointed in him for waiting for so long and he's so hungry and he's right there and oh god. Fresh blood is so much better. Fresh blood is SO much better he can hardly think he can't speak it's so good and elias is chiding him and he's so humiliated but oh god he can't stop. Everything feels so hot and he can't stop grinding against him he needs more now now now and Elias pets his hair and chuckles at what a mess he's making and he thinks hes going to explode. When he's finally satisfied and he's so humiliated he's covered in blood everywhere and he tried so hard to be better but god he can't help it and at least it's Elias. At least it's Elias and it was his fault he was a vampire anyway so it was only fair . I'm really normal.
Vampire Jon who didn’t have a choice in becoming a vampire, because when had Jon had a choice in anything? Maybe Jon doesn’t know Elias is a vampire, let alone the vampire who turned him at first. Jon having to stumble through learning what he is like a newborn kitten, if the newborn kitten could rip someone’s throat out.
Jon starving because he doesn’t know what he needs, doing extensive research, and concluding that he’s a vampire, but that he’s going to be a good one. Jon new to this whole vampire thing trying to live off the rats running around the Archives, but they don’t actually help that much, like the statements in canon they’re stale, and not nearly enough.
Jon locking himself in his office to protect his assistants, because he a monster but a tame one. Soon he can’t even get up the energy to move, hiding under his desk as he feels like he’s being eaten from the inside.
Elias finally going to him, Jon protesting weakly but Elias is insistent as he pulls him out from beneath his desk settling him onto his desk. Elias visibly disappointed, he isn’t actually but that outward appearance makes Jon feel a spike of shame, as he slices his hand holding it out to Jon. Almost like you would hold out your hand to let a cat sniff it, not wanting to spook them.
Jon resisting but he’s so hungry and Elias is right here, and he’s offering, it’s okay if he’s offering right? Jon already inches away before he even agrees with that thought in his own mind. He intends to be careful, maybe just a few kitten licks of the dripping blood, but once it hits his tongue he can’t hold back.
Latching onto Elias’s arm chasing the sweet taste, it’s messy and desperate. Elias chiding him for the mess, wondering at his lack of self control, each word carefully barbed to hit Jon where it hurts. When Jon is sated, and god for once in so long he isn’t hungry, he feels like he’s floating, finally sated.
Elias pulling him into his lap, stroking his hair as Jon burrows against him, because it feels so good to be held. He’s had to avoid any sort of touch since he was turned, scared he’d hurt someone. He can’t resist grinding down against Elias’s thigh, all of his senses heightened as he realized how much he needs more.
Elias chiding Jon, calling him an insatiable little thing, so needy. It’s okay he will take care of him, he doesn’t have to think, he’s so bad at it. Elias calling him a good boy, that he’s so pretty like this, that he’s so glad he turned Jon, that he made Jon his.
A spike of betrayal as Jon realizes that the reason he’s like this is because of Elias. That it wasn’t just some monster and bad luck, this was planned, Jon struggling for a second to pull back, but Elias is strong. So Jon surrenders, goes limp, because well it’s not his fault right? Elias did this, Jon can’t fight against Elias, and it feels so good to be held.
Elias stroking Jon over his clothes encouraging him and Jon can’t help but grind against him again because it quiets his thoughts and the edges don’t hurt as much. He comes as he starts to cry, bloody tears, which only adds to the mess he made from feeding. Jon knowing that he can’t go back to starving himself, not after this, he’s a monster, but it’s fine because it’s not his fault. Right?
Jon still getting kidnapped, only now it’s not to end the world but because he’s Elias’s. Nikola, maybe a vampire, maybe something else entirely. Jon isn’t yet sure how many of the monsters he thought were stories are real. She not human though that he can tell by the way she easily overpowers him chaining him to a chair. How she can hold him still with one hand, fitting a muzzle on his face after his fangs come a bit too close to her fingers.
Nikola taunting Jon, pointing out how many days it’s been that’s he’s been missing and yet his Elias hasn’t found him yet. Feeding him just enough blood to keep him conscious, but not enough to even touch the hunger. Nikola leading him around her ‘Circus’ on a heavy leash, once he’s too weak to fight, yanking him along whenever he slows too much for her liking.
Nikola getting bored as Jon stops reacting to her taunts, poking and prodding him to get a reaction. Like a child with a toy that ran out of batteries, just trying to get him to be fun again. Jon giving up, thinking he’s finally going to die when Nikola stops bringing him blood, he hasn’t seen her in what must be days. He hadn’t seen anyone, maybe they forgot about him, just like Elias.
Jon thinking he’s hallucinating, that’s he’s finally lost it when he feels someone removing the muzzle. He flinches but the hands are so gentle, prying it off, trying not to hurt him. Jon open his eyes, and now he knows he’s dreaming because Elias is there, kneeling next to him, getting his pristine suit dirty. He doesn’t care if it’s a dream though, leaning into him, whimpering, he’s so hungry, and his dad is here. That thought doesn’t surprise him as much as it should since Elias did make him a monster. The hallucination chuckles, and strokes his cheek, and Jon can’t help leaning in. He whimpers that he was so scared, why didn’t you come sooner, dad, why leave him so alone?
Jon being carried out, and not really believing it’s real till he’s sat down drinking from Elias wrist in the other man’s home. Jon feels a small bit of embarrassment remembering calling Elias dad, but he can’t regret it. Elias pulling him close stroking his hair, telling Jon he’s so good, that he’s sorry but took him so long, that he’ll never let something like this happen again. It’s okay his dad is here, he doesn’t have to be in pain anymore.
The sex they have next is probably the softest they’ve ever had between them. Jon just wanting to be close, to get rid of the feeling of others hands on him, of the empty room, of being paraded like a prize in a leash. Elias holding him tightly, whispering gentle words, how he’s so good, his good boy, don’t worry he’s here, and he won’t let anything get to him again. Jon falling asleep in Elias’s arms, not letting go even asleep.
Future!Jon wrapping past!Jon up with their arms and tail, keeping him pinned and helpless while they fuck him ruthlessly. Tongue-fucking him with something long and limber that licks at all his sensitive spots just right. Past!Jon who can slide his whole fist inside of their cunt with relative ease. Who has to coax their long (barbed?) cock from its sheath before he can take it into his mouth or ass or cunt. Future!Jon pinning him beneath their weight and using him until they’re satisfied. Who has heats that past!Jon can barely keep up with (that maybe Elias can help with…). Past!Jon is always a little afraid his future self will kill and eat him. Will dig out his every secret with claws and teeth. Who shudders with equal fear and arousal whenever those claws prick his soft, vulnerable stomach, those teeth settle too close to his throat. Fascinated and terrified by every deadly, monstrous quality. Who longs for them, in a way he can’t explain but understands far too well anyway.
Oh and past!Jon would be Extremely Normal if his future self got him pregnant. Maybe during their heat.
And past!Jon never really considered it a possibility. Neither of them did. Never thought they could get someone else pregnant. They don’t think of it at all until past!Jon starts showing symptoms.
He probably tries to hide it, I think. Maybe even succeeds for a few weeks. And he’s so terrified of the Thing growing inside of him but far too curious to ever get rid of it.
It’ll be a shitshow, of course (as if their whole… relationship wasn’t messy enough already). Especially if Elias got future!Jon pregnant too. Just an absolute disaster. But really, that’s what makes it fun <3.
The married Lonelyeyes post where Elias is having an affair with Jon so he and Peter can feed on Jon’s anxiety and guilt and shame about being caught is making me think of Elias being a bit of an exhibitionist over their “secret” affair.
He likes to fuck Jon at the institute when other people are nearby and tease Jon for not being quiet. Likes taking Jon just before a meeting so he has to scramble to right himself. Likes eating Jon out while he records a statement and fucking him in a quiet corner of the archives where the assistants probably won’t go. Once or twice he’s had Jon under his desk, warming his cock, when Peter came in for a meeting.
Jon is constantly stressing about all this of course. What others have heard. What others have seen. He gets snippy at Elias about his clear exhibitionism kink and how risky it it. But he enjoys it all, the sex, Elias attention and regard, the thrill of secrecy and risk of discovery, too much to refuse.
Was reminded of this. Anyway I think Jon should get pregnant from this. Terrified and panicking because his boss (who is married) got him pregnant and maybe he can keep hiding the affair but there’s no hiding this, and he knows how much the rumors will swirl.
Jon: I have no self worth issues or parental figure issues in any way or shape or form. Anyways what if Elias wanted me so so bad he couldn’t keep his hands off me even if I didn’t want it, what if all I had to do to make him feel good was just shake and struggle and make such pretty noises while I begged him to let me go. What if I called him dad and said it hurt it hurt and he told me I was taking him so well and I was so pretty and it’s okay, just relax, it’ll start feeling good soon, don’t worry about anything, he’ll make it better, it’s all going to be okay, and I got to be showered in his love and approval without actually doing anything bad.
I think Jon likes it when Jonah rocks him back and forth after a punishment until he stops crying and tells him it’s okay , he knows he can be so much better. I think he should gently brush the hair out of his eyes and ask if he’s ready to behave himself now, all professional like he’s not cradling him so so gently. I think that would do wonders for him.
Im thinking about the jonsashaelias hell trio again. Help. Omega jon,, Jon in heat thinking nobody's there and sadly chirping subvocals never shutting up even though he tries to because he's lonely and wet and why's nobody here?? He's good he's so good he could be so good, did he do something wrong why is nobody here why does nobody want him he could be so good he promises he can be so good. Sasha and Elias finding him ough. Them looking at each other like...well it's not like we can leave him like this is it?? And he's grabbing onto both of them and whining whenever one of them looks like they might go and really wouldn't it be helpful to have two alphas there for him during his heat? Maybe it'd calm him down faster. Jon is going to get completely spoiled his whole heat by two very very different people as he should be.
Ughh, yes JonSashaElias my beloved.
Jon just being absolutely terrible at tracking his heats, and it being even worse when he’s stressed, and his new position being nothing but stress. Jon pushing aside the pre-heat instincts as stress, he wants his office just so because this place is a mess, not because he wants to make a nest. No he isn’t getting more irritable, how dare you suggest that.
Just ignoring all the warnings so of course he goes into heat while staying late at work. In the moments after he realizes but before his brain short circuits, he is thankful of course that everyone probably went home already. Jon curling up in his office with the door cracked open, having dragged the, definitely not soft enough, blanket from the cot and the single pillow into a rather sad nest.
Nobody else is there so he doesn’t even try to muffle his pathetic whining(his thoughts) subvocals. They start off quiet, but quickly escalate. Chirping out about how he’s just so sad and alone. Nobody cares about him, or he wouldn’t be so alone, why can’t anyone see how good he is? What did he do wrong? Is he a bad omega? Why won’t anyone love him?
Jon so deep into trying to soothe himself he doesn’t hear the door open, but his hindbrain definitely notices the scent of two alphas. Sasha and Elias both hesitating at the door. Sasha because she’s genuinely unsure, while Elias is probably trying to figure out how to send Sasha away, but both instinctually posturing a bit.
Jon’s tone changing from sad to more demanding as the two hesitate, because how dare these alphas be here and do nothing? Can’t they see he’s sad and alone, and so wet. Rolling onto his back, because the part of his brain that feels shame is currently on vacation, presenting a very enticing picture.
A quick and silent conversation is had, purely through pointed glances between the two alphas, with the end decision being that neither was willing to back down, and they couldn’t just leave him there.
Jon finding himself pinned between two alphas, his cunt soaking as he pulled onto Elias’s cock. The stretch feels so nice after feeling so empty. Jon’s subvocals being quite verbal even as he’s panting, a bit overwhelmed, because isn’t he so good, look look how good he is please can he have more, he’ll be so good.
Sasha pulling him forward to get his mouth on her own cock, which doesn’t quiet his subvocals one bit. Look isn’t he doing a good, he can take so much, please more. Sasha giving Elias a look that clearly says, well are t you going to do what he says? A teasing little growl in her own subvocals, which are mostly being used to tell Jon that yes he is a good boy.
Sasha and Elias quickly feeling thankful there are two of them after they realize how insatiable Jon is, and how bossy he is during his heat. Both of them quickly learning to listen to whatever the omega chirped about as he got nippy when they didn’t.
They end up at Elias’s home, since he has an actual house and not a flat. The logistics of getting an omega in heat into a car, and then inside, are complicated and only possible with the two of them. Jon slowly starting to calm down as his heat lulls, making sleepy chirpy sounds instead of words now. Clenching down on the cock in his cunt, while mouthing the other, his eyes hazy.
Maybe at some point Sasha considers leaving, because well it’s Elias’s house and Jon seems to have calmed. So she climbs out of the bed and starts to get dressed. Only to immediately freeze at Jon’s sad little whines, because Alpha leaving? Isn’t he a good omega, don’t leave please, isn’t he a good boy?
Elias raising an eyebrow at her, and asking her ‘where she think she’s going Miss James,’ and Sasha growls at his teasing, which of course only amuses him. Sasha going back to Jon fucking him hard again, as Elias strokes his hair. Letting him know what a good boy he’s being for the two of them, even if he is a bossy little thing.
Jon finally passing out after being throughly fucked, but completely wrapped around the two with no way to extricate themselves. Or at least when they try the omega clings tightly letting out a soft little growl. Both deciding that this can be future them problem, ignoring whatever mortification they may feel in the morning.
Elias slipping Jon’s ring off while they kiss before bending him over the nearest surface. Elias leaving marks Jon desperately has to hide. Collaring Jon so tenderly and lovingly as Jon shakes from the implications of ownership. Of possession. Elias driving Jon home, Jon asking him if he wants to come in… Elias fucking Jon in the bed he shares with his spouse, making him beg and plead and whine and all for him. Jon getting pregnant, and maybe not knowing who the other parent is, or maybe knowing all too well. Jon so so afraid and Elias pulling him into his arms, hand on Jon’s stomach, because he does know, and he’s so very pleased…
post mag 200 Jon and Jonah waking up in Jonah’s office the day Jon got hired. Jon is confused and upset, upset that he is alive, that Jonah is alive. Jon tackling Jonah to the ground, trying to choke him because he has no other weapon. and choking is someone is hard and Jonah is barely resisting, the fear in his eyes barely present. how dare he not feel scared! how dare he think Jon wouldn’t kill him when he already did so! how dare he be right! how dare he soothingly stroke the back of Jon’s hand and look at him Knowingly! how dare Jonah know that it took so much to kill him the first time
Jon collapsing into Jonah’s arms, shaking and sobbing, clinging to him, ashamed and relieved both. Jon finally admitting to himself that he missed Jonah. Jonah confessing that he missed him too, the many times he watched Jon while in prison and it took everything to not get up and leave. how he wanted to see Jon hunt, to witness his development with his own two eyes. how beautiful Jon was when extracting a statement (and that should make Jon feel ashamed but all he feels is satisfaction)
Look you could go the easy way of Jonah stealing his coat, but what if it wasn’t that. What if Jon, who wants to know things so badly, who is just as curious as a selkie as he is as a human made a deal. He needs to know about the things that he can’t explain. He finds a human who seems to know so much, who has the answers. Not only that but he listens to Jon, Jon who never really fit in with his pod, who just wants someone to listen. He finds that in Jonah, who treats him as something precious, and looks at him as though he matters.
So Jon trades his coat(his soul), for knowledge, and what he could have with Jonah.
Thinks about monster Jon Knowing any pregnancies are very likely to take right now and proceeding to immediately jump Jonah to fuck (who was going to do the same thing.) Two guys with weird possessive tendencies and a fucked up view of love get stuck in a panopticon what will they do (get Jon pregnant as many times as humanly possible)
Thinks about jon in the weeks before heat setting up a nice big nest and being all needy and fussy all the time. Thinking about Jon going out to hunt more often and being especially temperamental with his prey. Bringing Jonah back some poor soul to feed off of as a gift for his mate who’s going to spend weeks making him feel SO good soon <3 Jon impatient because he wants to be bred now and being so so fussy all the time. Nipping at Jonah whenever he ignores him because he wants his attention Now not in five minutes. U make someone into a giant dragon you gotta accept that they’re going to be so so whiny all the time. At some point Jonah starts fingering Jon with one hand and doing a task with another because Jon gets so attention starved leading up to his heat. Jon in heat <333
Hnghfh. I am once again thinking about monster jon getting drugged. Monster Jon so weak and helpless and his eyes are soooo heavy and he’s so wet. Tail wagging tiredly because Jonah can be as rough as he wants now, he’s strong enough to take it but he’s still so so helpless. He’s still just jonahs good boy <33 and he’s so uncoordinated trying so hard to do what Jonah wants but everything’s so fuzzy and warm and he can hardly think and he’s just so so sensitive. Jonah manhandling him all around because he’s so uncoordinated and needs jonah tugging on his leash or just straight up moving his limbs for him just to do anything, he’s so helpless and sweet and precious and he’s basking in it. Jonah fingering him while Jon trills and chirps and chitters and tries to move his hips to get him deeper but he’s getting so weak he can hardly do anything. So pliant and only able to whine whine whine. Jonah telling him how sweet he is like this, just his pretty boy, his precious little archives, and Jon purrs because he can barely focus on anything but he knows Jonahs so proud of him and he’s showing him how good he is. Jon should get so full of cum while he’s barely even able to move. Jon should get pregnant <3 and start happily chittering and trying to move and get every last drop of cum once he realizes yes it’s going to take, barely able to think but knowing he wants it so so bad. I just think monster jon <3
Jon who is not yet the Archivist, just a lowly researcher, ending up on the wrong side of the lonely. Maybe he reads a Leitner, or just gets on the wrong side of someone, the how doesn’t really matter.
He doesn’t notice at first, he’s used to being ignored, unless someone wants something. He’s used to people letting doors swing in his face, or pretending not to hear when he asks to hold the elevator. Only he thought that he had made friends at the Instititute. Of course when he confronts his coworkers and they stare right through him, well that’s a bit odd. Maybe they’re playing a trick, but no nothing he does gets more of a reaction than a shiver.
Jon spending the next few weeks completely alone, he still gets his work done, pretends someone is talking to him even if their eyes slide right off. He feels cold, realizes he needs to wear a jacket inside now. He’s confused, because no one else seems to notice. He quickly forgets that as he realizes he’s fading. Staring in shock as he goes to grab a pen and his hand slides through the desk it rests on,
That’s when the terror hits, because what if he does just fade away? What if no one even notices? Was he really that forgettable? No one had even wondered where he went, showed up to his flat to check on him or even given him a call. Maybe that’s his fault, he did push people away, maybe this is just a natural consequence of his personality.
Jon just wants someone to see him, he’s just, he’s just so alone. He ends up breaking down once he makes it back to his flat, all the panic and fear he had been suppressing coming out at once. He’s going to die here, and no one is going to notice. He’s going to disappear just like the boy whose name he can’t remember.
Still he has to try something, other than just living his life, going to work and waiting to fade. So he heads out, the strangers he runs into don’t acknowledge him either, even when he grabs one of their arms and shakes its they just look confused before walking right past him. The panic is bubbling up again, he starts running, feeling pulled along almost, but well his current panic state doesn’t leave him thinking clearly.
He realizes he’s back at his job when he collides with someone solid. Jon stumbles back almost falling only to be caught by a hand grabbing his arm steadying him.
“Jon please look at where you’re going, this is not the welcome back I expected.” Jon freezes because he realizes he’s just run into Elias, who had caught him, stopped him from falling. Elias was looking at him that piercing gaze that sometimes felt like it could pierce his soul. Jon looked at his arm where Elias still held on, his touch feeling like fire after not having any human contact in weeks.
“You can see me?” Jon couldn’t help but latch onto Elias, his voice trembling. Jon breaking as he realizes Elias’s gaze doesn’t slide off him, is just as focused as always. Sobbing into Elias’s chest and if he hadn’t spent the past month supernaturally isolated, he would feel completely mortified.
Somehow they end up in Elias’s office where Jon finds himself giving a statement, for a moment when Jon describes his experiences he could swear Elias looked pleased, but it passed quickly and Jon decided he’d imagined it, or it was a mistake, he’s not the best at reading people.
Elias resting a hand on his shoulder once he’s done, he’s saying something but Jon can’t hear him. He he leans against him, starting to cry again. He just…he just wants to be held, because he’s not cold anymore. He hadn’t realized how cold he had been. Elias pulling him against his chest, muttering something about allowing it. Jon finally feeling like he’s stopped fading, like he’s solid again, and he can be embarrassed about practically sitting in his boss’s lap later. For now he just wants to be seen.
Stupid AU where whenever the others need Elias to be distracted so they can talk Jon goes and jerks off. And Elias Knows what he’s doing but it works every time anyway.
Time for me to think about je being a thing for ten years…Elias having TEN YEARS to manipulate Jon….ough. Obviously i am going to make this so so horny
Jon so firmly under elias’ thumb…Elias’ good boy!! Elias as one of his only connections to last THIS long. Elias’ favorite!!! Jons so thrilled and so nervous when Elias makes him archivist but he refuses to let him down after everything Elias has done for him. Elias should fuck him over his brand new desk. Elias should whisper how proud he is and how much he’s grown and Jon should shiver underneath him, call him dad dad dad, trying so hard to be quiet because he doesn’t want to ruin this by getting caught. Jon feeling so so special and precious and owned <333 Jon who trusts Elias much more than in canon <3333 je…
Jon should spend soooo much time in Elias’ office. It should be his favorite place to fuck in. He should noticeably relax when Elias bends him over his desk from the familiarity of it. Elias should have a picture of Jon he keeps in his wallet. It changes as Jon changes as he gets those gray hairs. Elias should tell him he thinks they’re beautiful. And he means it. Elias has had a…different view on pain, on fear, for a long time now. Elias should run his hands through his hair as Jon blows him, humming happily at knowing he’s doing good and he’s being so so useful. A part of Jon liking the idea of other people knowing how *good* he is for Elias and only Elias. Elias’ office is the place he knows the best. Sometimes Elias tells him stories of what he’s done over the years, where he got some of those trinkets. Jon listens with rapt attention, eyes bright. Jon likes sitting under Elias’ desk. Elias put cushioning there specifically for him a long time ago <3
The je Sci fi au always gets me. Fellas is it gay to intimately repair your boss and they make satisifed little noises that you try very very hard not to think about what they remind you of. I am sexualizing the machine today. Jon handling all of the most fragile pieces of elias..hnghg
-skiesandcandy
Oh yes.
Jon trying so hard to keep plausible deniability, no he’s just doing his job. Look it means nothing that he’s the only one the computer allows to crawl amongst their wires. All computers make those noises, he is very professional thank you very much.
Yeah no one buys this, and honestly the fatality rate has gonna way down now that the slightly murderous ship AI seems to be distracted. So everyone just turns a blind eye to anything going on.
Jon secretly, okay not secretly at all everyone can tell, loving Elias’s attention, the cameras all turning to follow him. Jon constantly talking to him, confessing all his secrets, and his insecurities, look maybe a machine is the only one who actually understands him.
Jon touching himself in his bunk carefully in view of Elias’s mechanical eyes. He’s so embarrassed but Elias telling him it’s only fair. After all Jon gets to handle his delicate circuitry, and while he can’t physically touch Jon he can guide him verbally. Jon squirming as Elias calls him a good boy, so precious to him, how he almost wishes he still had a body just so he could take Jon apart properly. Jon comes harder than he ever has before at the thought.
I think the Institute should host a fancy fundraising party and Elias should bring Jon as his date.
Jon wearing a fancy dress that Elias brought him, because Jon you can’t wear just anything. Elias pulling him into a back room because well, he can only keep his hands to himself for so long. Jon having to muffle his moans with one hand, as Elias helpfully reminds him that the walls aren’t overly thick as he thrusts into him. Elias coming inside him with a contented sigh before sliding a plug into him, since he wouldn’t want to leak onto his fancy clothes.
Jon then having to spend the rest of the party very aware of how wet he is, and how stretched he feels. Jon being unable to say no as Elias takes him to the dance floor, almost cumming right there at the thought that everyone can tell how full he is.
I think Jon should try managing his S1 stress levels with Terrible Bad Idea CNC sex with Elias. It’s barely negotiated. Elias regularly bypasses Jon’s boundaries and Jon regularly doesn’t say shit about it. Jon will storm up to his office and provoke him into a fight and Elias will wrestle him down while Jon tries and fails to fight back. And he’s a little afraid and a lot turned on and he always puts up a serious fight that’s never enough to stop Elias from forcing his legs open and thrusting inside (often with minimal preparation).
Anyway after being forced down and brutally fucked until he cums (often multiple times) Jon is finally all nice and relaxed. Loose and pliant too, so very good for Elias, willing to lie back and just take whatever Elias wants to give him. And Elias will let him cum again (as a reward for being so very good) before finishing deep inside.
While Jon recovers, Elias will slip his collar on and play with his hair and maybe clean up his dripping cunt (or maybe plug Jon up, keep his cum inside where it belongs (where it can potentially breed him, if they’re both very lucky <3)). And then he’ll go back to his spreadsheets because neither of these two losers can be bothered with doing actual aftercare when they have Work. Once Jon’s certain he can stand he’ll walk (all shaky and wobbly) back down the stairs into the archives, feeling all blissfully fucked out, stress (somewhat) banished.
The je Sci fi au always gets me. Fellas is it gay to intimately repair your boss and they make satisifed little noises that you try very very hard not to think about what they remind you of. I am sexualizing the machine today. Jon handling all of the most fragile pieces of elias..hnghg
Jon trying so hard to keep plausible deniability, no he’s just doing his job. Look it means nothing that he’s the only one the computer allows to crawl amongst their wires. All computers make those noises, he is very professional thank you very much.
Yeah no one buys this, and honestly the fatality rate has gonna way down now that the slightly murderous ship AI seems to be distracted. So everyone just turns a blind eye to anything going on.
Jon secretly, okay not secretly at all everyone can tell, loving Elias’s attention, the cameras all turning to follow him. Jon constantly talking to him, confessing all his secrets, and his insecurities, look maybe a machine is the only one who actually understands him.
Jon touching himself in his bunk carefully in view of Elias’s mechanical eyes. He’s so embarrassed but Elias telling him it’s only fair. After all Jon gets to handle his delicate circuitry, and while he can’t physically touch Jon he can guide him verbally. Jon squirming as Elias calls him a good boy, so precious to him, how he almost wishes he still had a body just so he could take Jon apart properly. Jon comes harder than he ever has before at the thought.
Jon veryyy obviously being the computers favorite. They don’t even know why. He’s not even the one with the most clearance he’s just the only one the computer opens the hatches to its wiring for. They don’t even know how he can HAVE favorites still. Most people don’t tend to have light conversation with the consciousness, or go to have their lunch near the security cameras. But if that’s what it takes to keep them from getting murdered than quite frankly they are going to ignore it as much as possible. They don’t wanna know what they get up to.
Goddd. I think his connection with Elias is also very much a Tism thing. No eye contact no body language to read and he can at least understand Elias’ reasoning even if he’s fucked up as hell. After a while of learning about him, bonding with him although he’ll never admit it, he has a lot easier of a time predicting what Elias will do than his fellow crew mates. It’s less stressful, somehow. Easy repetitive task. Fix Elias wires, try not to think about the sounds. Try not to think about the little breath of relief. Elias telling him he’s doing excellent, thank you Jon. Elias sounding a tad bit strained. Go eat his lunch and pretend Elias doesn’t take a moment to sound normal again. Or sometimes he’ll take a little longer in his wiring, listening to Elias’ labored breathing. He can’t even breathe anymore. God imagining that one scene in scavengers reign. “This doesn’t feel good.” “Oh. Uh…how does it feel if I do this?” “You’re touching my processing unit.” “No, how does it feel.” “[Laboured breath] Good, I think.” I’m thinking about it. I’m being really normal about it. Jon also feels really normal about it.
Jon touching himself…Elias completely focused on him…ough. Jon humiliated but Elias wants to see him, and maybe he likes having all the attention. Maybe it’s nice when Elias wants to see how he’ll react if he does this or that. Maybe it’s nice to be observed so intensely, like he’s something incredible to be studied and admired and understood. Elias wishing he could touch hin?? Insane. Jons so normal about it. Can’t even imagine what he’d be like as a human but just the idea of Elias wanting him that bad is sending him into a frenzy. Being wanted by something cold and calculating does something to his brain. Elias’ praise and attention and fondness is more than enough to outweigh the humiliation when it just feels so good to be seen and studied and adored. Elias telling him to do this or that, getting so delighted when he listens just to please him, just to be praised. “You’d really do anything I asked you, wouldn’t you?” With almost wonder in his voice. Jon feels so exposed. It feels good. He didn’t know it could feel good.
Also I see your tags….goddd. Elias wanting to keep him refusing to let him die??? That’s his Jon. He can’t just die on him. Whether or not Jon wants to be a machine isn’t relevant. He refuses to lose him. Goddddd. Explodes. Gnaws on glass.
Jon as Elias’s sugar baby because he should have even more control over Jon.
Jon didn’t know how he had gotten to this point, well no that was a lie actually. Jon knew exactly how he had gotten here, dressed up in clothes he didn’t pick, in a flat he didn’t pay for, and holding Elias’s newest gift. Although maybe gift wasn’t the correct word, not that Elias wasn’t generous, but most of his gifts came with expectation, and the one in his lap was no different. The collar wasn’t large, and if seen from afar probably resembled a choker, but up close, well there was no denying it was something that clearly showed who Jon belonged to. It even had little tags, like Jon could get lost.
Jon had to admit it was pretty, which made sense since Elias liked pretty things by his own admission. He had used that description for Jon himself when Jon was kneeling in front of him, taking his dick down his throat. Told Jon he was such a pretty thing, taking his cock so well, even as Jon’s eyes watered. Jon tried to focus back on the collar, pushing those thoughts aside, not far though. It was hard not to think of such things constantly considering there was not a single surface in this apartment he hadn’t been fucked on.
Jon had never thought of himself as someone who would be in this sort of relationship. Then he had met Elias, and it had felt so natural. Elias had just wanted someone young and attractive at his beck and call, he could do whatever he wanted to Jon, and Jon would take it, practically melt at Elias’s compliments as he was filled. He knew Elias didn’t love him, but it was so hard to remember that fact in the moment.
Which brings him back to the collar, he had called Elias and protested when he found the gift on his doorstep. Elias often had things delivered to him, mostly clothing that he wanted to see Jon in. Jon flinched at how disappointed Elias sounded on the other end of the line. Telling him that the collar was custom order, and wouldn’t he please just wear it for him? Just tonight, then he wouldn’t have to anymore. And Jon could already tell that his resolve wouldn’t stand up to this. He had tried before, but Elias just made Jon feel like he was being unreasonable. After all Elias paid for his school, his flat, his clothes, this was nothing in comparison, and it would make Elias happy.
Jon flinched as the door opened, Elias had a key of course, and rarely knocked. When Jon had protested that Elias had pointed out that he did pay for the place, and Jon really isn’t it easier so you don’t have to get up to let me in? Jon had backed down again, it seems that’s all he did, tried to be firm, only to crumble moments later.
He stood as Elias greeted him, glancing at his neck and noticing the lack of a collar. Jon hurriedly held it out, placating him, not wanting to face his disapproval. Pointing out that Elias really should be the one to put it on, if they were going to try it for the night. That gets Jon a, what Jon hopes is, genuine smile, as the collar is fastened around his throat, it feels a bit like a trap snapping shut. Those thoughts are chased out again as Elias’s lips are on his, and for a brief moment Jon can pretend that they are a normal couple. That moment is broken as Elias’s kisses turn biting before Jon finds himself bent over the back of his couch.
Jon whimpering as Elias thrusts into him, far too fast, but Jon would be lying if he said he didn’t like it. Elias gripping his hips hard enough to bruise, Jon lets his eyes fall shut, as he listens to Elias’s running commentary. Reminding Jon that he belongs to Elias, his pet, such a pretty thing, always so good for him. Jon can’t help but squirm as he’s used, which Elias seems to like as his increased force was anything to go by. He knew he’d be sore tomorrow, but it was hard to consider such things when he felt so good.
After Elias lets Jon lounge on his lap, cum dripping out of his cunt, a reward for being such a good pet. Jon loves these moments, when he can pretend that Elias loves him. When he’s been throughly fucked and he can fool himself that this is normal. Elias strokes his hair and Jon practically melts, knowing this is just a brief moment, but pretending it can go on forever.
Jon wakes up alone the next day, as he often does, sore and covered in bruises and spunk. He pretends for a moment that Elias is just in the other room, maybe making breakfast, but he can only stay in that fantasy for a few moments before he’s forced to get up.
Jon is in love with Elias, Elias doesn’t love him, but he’ll keep the collar on, because it’s a reminder that he’s owned, and maybe being a possession is easier than being a person.
Always thinking about Elias being Obsessed with pregnant Jon. Wants Jon nearby at all times. Loves running his hands along Jon’s swelling stomach and playing with his sensitive tits. Greedily drinking every drop of milk from them once he starts lactating. Will spend hours pleasuring Jon when hormones are making him sad or irritable or aroused, or even just when he feels like it. Enjoys it when Jon isn’t wearing a shirt so he can have an unobstructed view (I mean, not that he minds Jon being naked generally lol). Traces and kisses every stretch mark during and after the pregnancy (because they are from him. They are Proof that Jon is His. A claim etched into his skin). Fussy about taking care of Jon (he does worry, pregnancy can be dangerous and Jon seems to be especially struggling. He can’t afford to lose his Archivist, his Jon…). Wants contact (and often sex) All The Time. So pleased and smug with himself as soon as he knows that it Took. Extra possessive even before Jon properly finds out. Sees every symptom as more proof of his claim on Jon, as something He Did. Wants to show off Jon’s pregnant belly to everyone. Has Extremely Frequent sexual fantasies about fucking Jon in front of everyone. Jon gripping his desk in research, tits bouncing as Elias rails him, stomach hanging low and heavy and obvious while everyone else watches them (he has narrated these to Jon while actually fucking him multiple times. Jon refuses to acknowledge just how much the idea does it for him). He’s soooo possessive and territorial and this is just scratching All of those itches.
The Monster is a normal man with a pleasant smile and sharp unsettling eyes that sees too much ; the Monster is a simple man that has kept himself safe for centuries and fed on terror to do so ; the Monster has chosen you, loves you, adores you, needs you to become as Monsterish, perhaps even more so than him, so that you can both be safe, together ; you walked in there with too much curiosity and the door is now locked behind you and although you will feel afraid, the Monster’s call is too beautiful in its horror to resist forever. You will learn to love him ; perhaps you already did ; if you cannot look at yourself in a mirror, it’s fine. He’ll behold you for all eternity instead, as you gorge yourselves in the world you’ve made, together.
(Also, Jon is a long white victorian nightgown, y'know.)
Thinks about Jon rutting against a sleeping Elias and feeling like the worst person in the world and so so so horny <33 jon can be the shitty morals guy for once. As a treat.
I love when Elias tells Jon he just can’t help himself and mocks him for his lack of self control. Can’t stop himself from rutting on his thigh can’t stop himself from cumming over and over again even when it hurts can’t help himself at all, no wonder he needs him to keep him on track. Throw in some daddy kink for flavor because it fits and I am also a predictable man.
Anyways as Jon becomes a worse person he should also be highly toxic for Elias too. They should be making each other worse as a fun hobby. They should love each other so much and being around each other brings out the worst in them. I need Jon to stoop to lows that he never would’ve before he met elias but feel so so good that he cant stop. Anyways I want Jon brutally ripping all of Jonahs secrets out of him while Jonah can’t tell if he’s pleading for more or for mercy. And he should be so so hard and Jon should look at him like he’s going to eat him alive.
I love when Elias tells Jon he just can’t help himself and mocks him for his lack of self control. Can’t stop himself from rutting on his thigh can’t stop himself from cumming over and over again even when it hurts can’t help himself at all, no wonder he needs him to keep him on track. Throw in some daddy kink for flavor because it fits and I am also a predictable man.
“Is this what you want?” Jon couldn’t hold back small whimpers as Elias’s leg slotted between his. Jon wasn’t quite sure how he had ended up in Elias’s lap, he had come up to give some sort of report he was sure. Elias gripped his hips and Jon immediately lost his train of thought.
“Honestly Jon this is a place of business.” Jon tried to argue, to point out that Elias was just as bad, to put up any type of defense. But as soon as he opened his mouth Elias bounced his leg against his cunt and Jon practically squeaked instead.
“It’s alright I suppose I can indulge you in this case, since you clearly aren’t capable of a little self control.” Jon was feeling fuzzy now as Elias bounced him a bit with each word. No, Jon wanted to refute him, but it was hard when he felt so good, god he just wished he could get a little more pressure.
As though reading his mind(he probably was honestly), Elias lifted him enough to divest him of his trousers, revealing just how soaked his pants were. Jon hid his face against Elias’s chest trying to hide both his embarrassed and how turned on he was. What he couldn’t do was hold back his whimpers as Elias pressed his fingers against the wet fabric.
“What would your coworkers say Jon? If they knew how wet you were? If they knew what a needy little slut you are for me?” Jon made a wounded sound as he came, but Elias didn’t stop.
“Is that all it takes Jon, just the thought of others seeing you? I suppose you can’t really help yourself, you were meant to be used it seems.”
Anyways as Jon becomes a worse person he should also be highly toxic for Elias too. They should be making each other worse as a fun hobby. They should love each other so much and being around each other brings out the worst in them. I need Jon to stoop to lows that he never would’ve before he met elias but feel so so good that he cant stop. Anyways I want Jon brutally ripping all of Jonahs secrets out of him while Jonah can’t tell if he’s pleading for more or for mercy. And he should be so so hard and Jon should look at him like he’s going to eat him alive.
Fellas is it gay to want to be consumed by the monster you created. Is it gay to have created the only thing powerful enough to stop you and it is deeply aware of it. Is it gay to craft a weapon and it cuts your own hands trying to get closer to you. Is it gay for the monster you created to hate and love you for turning him into this and want vengeance and approval in equal measures. Is it gay for it to be so so hungry and you are the only one who can satisfy it. You made him and he is bound to you. He wants to eat you alive and wants to drown in your gaze. Is it gay to teach someone to accept they are a monster only for that power to be turned on you. And a part of you wants to be consumed.
