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I need Jonah to tell Jon he’s so brave during a punishment. I need Jon to almost burst into tears over it. I need Jonah to realize the thread here and pull on it until he has Jon completely unraveled, core trauma on full display, and I need him to exploit that to analyze him and also give him a lot of orgasms. Okay? Okay.
Half of jons sex appeal to Jonah is studying him under a microscope because good God this man has so many problems and it’s like dissecting him to him. Jonah spent hours testing his reactions after he called him “dad” for the first time trying to study and understand him as much as possible. He learned a lot about his archivist that day.
Things Jonah has deduced about jon via kink shit:
Jon craves for someone else to be to blame for his actions so he can be a good person. He still clings to his agency but he wants to be able to do whatever he wants without any of it being his fault.
Jon is starved for approval. His lifetime of being ignored or seen as too much effort has left him with a deep seated feeling he cannot improve and a feeling of isolation from all his peers. (This was from other things as well but him losing his mind over being called a sweet boy and “poor baby” when he was bratting confirmed many suspicions.)
Jon specifically wants approval from authority figures. He wants guidance and comfort and not to have to do it himself, but feels too guilty to put it on other people he views as on the same level as him. An authority figure feels safer and less Mean to do it to. An authority figure is supposed to handle all of it.
Jon wants to be good so badly. He wants, desperately, to be viewed as kind and clever and desirable. He doesn’t want to change. He wants people to view him as he is now as all of those things. So badly.
Jon fears not having any agency, but he fears his own desires and what he’d choose if he had nothing stopping him the most. He fears his own choices. Sometimes he wants them all stripped away and for someone else to just…conveniently choose everything he’d want.
Jon desperately wants to be pitied and to have sympathy but can’t open up to save his life. He desperately wants to be sympathetic. He wants everyone to understand why he’s doing this but he cant handle the idea of being rejected.
The rape kink was maybe the least surprising. Like ah yes this guy who’s agency was stolen from him at an extremely young age and is already marked by the You Have No Agency fear is kind of enamored with the concept of having no agency in a good way and has a very complicated relationship with choice, and this carries over to his sex life? What a surprise. Nobody could have possibly predicted this.
We are having JonTim thoughts in this space tonight.
Honestly I’m so weak for the two of them having a ‘thing’ while they’re together in research. Maybe they got drunk, maybe Tim called Jon a good boy once at work, maybe the two of them just needed stress relief. However it happens I just want Tim domming Jon, helping him get out of his head when he’s stressed. I think it’s pretty soft, both are a bit hesitant to go too far. Neither one being great at communicating, but it’s good.
Tim tying Jon up, making him cum till all he can do is whine, just pampering him. Fucking him gently till he’s too out of it to really think. Teasing him for it, look at him, not a thought in his head. Jon would snap back but his thoughts are all small, and honestly it feels so nice to be treasured.
Jon breaking it off when he gets his promotion, even though neither really wants to. Jon worried that him being the boss would cause problems. Elias ‘helpfully’ reminding Jon of that fact, maybe he’s a bit jealous, who’s to say.
Then we get the bad wrong version of their relationship sometime in season 3. Jon wanting Tim to forgive him so bad, but Tim won’t accept his apologies. Jon corners Tim in the archives one night and begs him to tell him how to make it up to him. Tim of course gets mad and Jon, paragon of self esteem that he is, suggests Tim hurt him if he needs to.
Tim getting angrier because yeah part of him wants to hurt Jon, and he doesn’t like what that says about him. Tim pinning him against the wall, trying to just scare him, but Jon just lets him, which just makes him angrier. Jon asks him if this is what he wants, and Tim takes that as permission, just so angry. Asks him is f he remembers his safe word, not actually waiting for an answer before shoving him to his knees. He makes him take his cock down his throat, deeper than Jon is used to, hitting the back of his throat. Jon chokes but lets himself be used, not even fighting back when Tim wraps a hand around his throat.
It escalates from there, and pretty soon Tim has Jon prone on his desk, thrusting into Jon’s cunt from behind. Jon can’t help getting wet as soon as he’s pinned down, and it hurts but, also has him moaning. Tim calling him a slut, just a stupid little whore for enjoying this. While Jon is writhing on his desk, unsure if he’s trying to get free or just get Tim deeper. Jon whimpering, his mouth open and drooling as Tim fucks into him, yanking him back by his hair calling him a monster.
Jon going limp and just letting Tim do whatever he wants, taking everything he’s given. He start to pass out letting himself be maneuvered, not really there. Until Tim’s coming inside him, and Jon follows shortly after from the feeling of being filled finally managing to focus back on what’s happening. Jon whimpering as Tim pulls out and pulls his pants back on, his throat too sore to talk. His neck has the imprint of Tim’s hand, while chest is covered in bites, the skin red and bruised, bleeding a bit in a few places where Tim’s teeth broke skin. He just lays there looking up at him with wide eyes, tears tracks covering his cheeks.
Maybe Tim leaves him there, lets him pick himself up, wash away the blood and cum. Screw aftercare, this doesn’t fix anything, maybe it even makes it worse.
Or maybe Tim looks at Jon, hurt(by Tim), in pain(because of Tim,) crying(it’s all his fault,) and something in him cracks. He gently, so gently lifts Jon up pulling him against his chest, and whispering that’s he’s such a good boy, so good. That he’s sorry(unable to say he didn’t mean it,) carrying him to the bathroom to help clean him up. Get him some water, everything he would have done before after a scene, while Jon just clings to him like he never wants to let go.