If it was my ask okay let’s see if I remember it all, I have the basics I think if I forgot any sorry.
Like I said Jon selfcest got me being unwell.(Like holy hell is it hot I am hooked.)
So who do we think folded first. Was it just one day the mutual sexual tension grew to be too much and they just broke. The tension between them sparking into anger to something more as it then advances into, seriously under negotiated, but seriously hot sex. Or did Jonv1 it’s really want to shut Jonv2 up one day and well, the options were there and we know which one he took.
Or was it Elias, seeing the thoughts the two had and thinking he wanted to see where this went. Slipping thoughts into their heads when they weee alone. Just wanting to see, to watch.
Also I don’t know if you remember the ‘Would you fuck your clone,’ buzzfeed quiz but please think of one of the assistants bringing it in as a joke. But when it’s brought up both Jon’s are just absolutely silent, unable to look at anyone.
YES!! YES THE ASK IS BACK AND ALL IS WELL !!!! <3
Thank you so much anon yes this is how I remember it!!
Okay so personally I like the idea of the Joncest happening as a sudden release of tension. Much as I like Elias slipping little suggestions into the heads of both Jons I honestly prefer that it be not just organic but surprising for both Jons AND Elias. I’m thinking maybe after some instance where future!Jon puts himself in danger and past!Jon starts an Arguement (mad that they took a risk like that when they need them. hates them. feels like he’s being deliberately kept out of the loop and pushed aside (he is) (angry that a source of Knowledge might have been taken from him before he had a chance to devour it)). It’s the classic passionate fight -> passionate kiss. Initiated by future Jon I think. Because for a moment it almost feels like maybe someone cares if they live or die. Like this is really the only person they have left (oh how thoroughly they’ve been abandoned). They just want to be touched. To stop thinking. To get their past self to fucking shut up for ONCE. To release the tension and energy and adrenaline that’s built up from whatever danger they were facing. I don’t know if they’d really be able to explain it (maybe I’m just too tired irl).
It’s not really. Tender. Or even pleasant. Oh it feels good. I think it would be rough, teetering just a little too close to violent before backing away. There’d be very little kissing, perhaps none at all after the first snog. Past!Jon grappled and pinned to the nearest surface. The tearing of clothes to get at the skin. Nails scratching down future!Jon’s back. Panting, shoving, biting. Future Jon pushing fingers into past Jon’s cunt too fast, too soon. Past Jon rubbing at their clit the way he knows he likes it even as future!Jon fucks their fingers in and out of him mercilessly…
I think when it’s over both Jons feel a little like they’ve seen far too much of each other (and of themselves, by extension). Neither of them can really take comfort in it. They’d agree that this was a one-time thing, to never speak of it again… until the next argument, or lonely night in document storage. Until past!Jon is desperate enough to seek his future self’s approval on his knees (and there’s something in his eyes. Something pitiable. And future!Jon grabs his hair and grinds their cunt against his face and says something biting and cruel about how needy he is. And very resolutely doesn’t think about it further.)
It IS very funny to imagine someone (maybe Tim, trying to lighten the mood, the goofy persona fraying at the edges but he’s trying to hold it together because past!Jon is still something like a friend, even if there’s a monstrous copy wandering around the office, looking just like him, wearing his skin-) making a little joke to Jon and the others, “would you fuck your clone?” And Jon jumps, takes a beat too long, furiously denies it. Tim and Sasha try to dig deeper but past!Jon will not budge. Throws up all his walls to protect himself from having to admit the truth. And at the end he feels the distance between him and the others grow just a little longer…
(And maybe past!Jon will seek comfort in the only place he can find anything like it)
More likely I think it becomes yet another unspoken point of tension. Nobody really trusts future!Jon and past!Jon spending so much time with them (even for very legitimate purposes) means they trust him less too, and that’s on top of all the monster shit. Maybe Martin cottons on that they both stay overnight sometimes, wondered if they share the cot (not usually, it’s much too small, but sometimes if they’re both very tired and some maudlin shade of sentimental, future!Jon will hold their past self in their arms, and they’ll fall asleep together just like that…). And maybe Tim notices a hickey that he just doesn’t have the energy to tease past!Jon for, and Sasha floats the theory as a joke that starts to make a little too much sense when the two Jon’s start having arguments that reek of sexual tension. (Not that either of them are attracted to the other, of course (neither of them has ever been attracted like that to anyone), but they know how their arguments tend to go, now. What to anticipate later. There’s an expectation, an anticipation. You know.)
Pretty tired (woke up like an hour and a half ago lol) so I think I’ll end it there for now lol, but seriously thank you again!!