Look I just think Jon whimpering a thousand spiders lovingly skittering around inside of him keeping his body in tact making sure he’s not hurting himself ,, touching himself and whining for his mama,,, he feels different and inhuman yet so much calmer and in control than he’s ever been,,, it’s terrifying and yet the spiders around his bones whisper he is loved and he is safe and he will never have to make a choice alone again, he will never have to agonize over whether or not it was his fault again. He will be so loved. His Mother loves him. Hngh