Selfcest forcemasc/forcefem. Is this anything. I love future jon being horrible to past jon but also something about…past jon being utterly horrified seeing them and also just the ache in their chest. That CANT be them. That can’t be. (The idea that it can’t be hurts in a way they can’t describe.) Future jon who’s usually so cruel just. I dunno. I dunno man. I think this is the one thing they can’t be cruel about. Seeing themself before the egg cracked so fucking miserable and hating their body and terrified upon seeing everything they always wanted. I think that’s maybe the only thing future jon can’t hate past jon for. And I think they should forcemasc/forcefem them about it. Please god can anyone see my vision
The only time they can actually bring themself to be nice to who they used to be is seeing past jon staring so painfully longingly at future jons new clothes with seeing envy and want for this thing they could have. That is just out of reach. Past jon staring with undisguisable hunger and envy whenever they go down on future jon. As much as future jon resents them this is the one and only time they will ever feel sympathy for them. Will ever not be able to muster that hatred and frustration. Can only look at them and feel just…sad. So, so fucking sad.