Thinking about Selkie Jon my beloved.
Look you could go the easy way of Jonah stealing his coat, but what if it wasn’t that. What if Jon, who wants to know things so badly, who is just as curious as a selkie as he is as a human made a deal. He needs to know about the things that he can’t explain. He finds a human who seems to know so much, who has the answers. Not only that but he listens to Jon, Jon who never really fit in with his pod, who just wants someone to listen. He finds that in Jonah, who treats him as something precious, and looks at him as though he matters.
So Jon trades his coat(his soul), for knowledge, and what he could have with Jonah.
skiesandcandy:
Hnghfh. I am once again thinking about monster jon getting drugged. Monster Jon so weak and helpless and his eyes are soooo heavy and he’s so wet. Tail wagging tiredly because Jonah can be as rough as he wants now, he’s strong enough to take it but he’s still so so helpless. He’s still just jonahs good boy <33 and he’s so uncoordinated trying so hard to do what Jonah wants but everything’s so fuzzy and warm and he can hardly think and he’s just so so sensitive. Jonah manhandling him all around because he’s so uncoordinated and needs jonah tugging on his leash or just straight up moving his limbs for him just to do anything, he’s so helpless and sweet and precious and he’s basking in it. Jonah fingering him while Jon trills and chirps and chitters and tries to move his hips to get him deeper but he’s getting so weak he can hardly do anything. So pliant and only able to whine whine whine. Jonah telling him how sweet he is like this, just his pretty boy, his precious little archives, and Jon purrs because he can barely focus on anything but he knows Jonahs so proud of him and he’s showing him how good he is. Jon should get so full of cum while he’s barely even able to move. Jon should get pregnant <3 and start happily chittering and trying to move and get every last drop of cum once he realizes yes it’s going to take, barely able to think but knowing he wants it so so bad. I just think monster jon <3
Jon who is not yet the Archivist, just a lowly researcher, ending up on the wrong side of the lonely. Maybe he reads a Leitner, or just gets on the wrong side of someone, the how doesn’t really matter.
He doesn’t notice at first, he’s used to being ignored, unless someone wants something. He’s used to people letting doors swing in his face, or pretending not to hear when he asks to hold the elevator. Only he thought that he had made friends at the Instititute. Of course when he confronts his coworkers and they stare right through him, well that’s a bit odd. Maybe they’re playing a trick, but no nothing he does gets more of a reaction than a shiver.
Jon spending the next few weeks completely alone, he still gets his work done, pretends someone is talking to him even if their eyes slide right off. He feels cold, realizes he needs to wear a jacket inside now. He’s confused, because no one else seems to notice. He quickly forgets that as he realizes he’s fading. Staring in shock as he goes to grab a pen and his hand slides through the desk it rests on,
That’s when the terror hits, because what if he does just fade away? What if no one even notices? Was he really that forgettable? No one had even wondered where he went, showed up to his flat to check on him or even given him a call. Maybe that’s his fault, he did push people away, maybe this is just a natural consequence of his personality.
Jon just wants someone to see him, he’s just, he’s just so alone. He ends up breaking down once he makes it back to his flat, all the panic and fear he had been suppressing coming out at once. He’s going to die here, and no one is going to notice. He’s going to disappear just like the boy whose name he can’t remember.
Still he has to try something, other than just living his life, going to work and waiting to fade. So he heads out, the strangers he runs into don’t acknowledge him either, even when he grabs one of their arms and shakes its they just look confused before walking right past him. The panic is bubbling up again, he starts running, feeling pulled along almost, but well his current panic state doesn’t leave him thinking clearly.
He realizes he’s back at his job when he collides with someone solid. Jon stumbles back almost falling only to be caught by a hand grabbing his arm steadying him.
“Jon please look at where you’re going, this is not the welcome back I expected.” Jon freezes because he realizes he’s just run into Elias, who had caught him, stopped him from falling. Elias was looking at him that piercing gaze that sometimes felt like it could pierce his soul. Jon looked at his arm where Elias still held on, his touch feeling like fire after not having any human contact in weeks.
“You can see me?” Jon couldn’t help but latch onto Elias, his voice trembling. Jon breaking as he realizes Elias’s gaze doesn’t slide off him, is just as focused as always. Sobbing into Elias’s chest and if he hadn’t spent the past month supernaturally isolated, he would feel completely mortified.
Somehow they end up in Elias’s office where Jon finds himself giving a statement, for a moment when Jon describes his experiences he could swear Elias looked pleased, but it passed quickly and Jon decided he’d imagined it, or it was a mistake, he’s not the best at reading people.
Elias resting a hand on his shoulder once he’s done, he’s saying something but Jon can’t hear him. He he leans against him, starting to cry again. He just…he just wants to be held, because he’s not cold anymore. He hadn’t realized how cold he had been. Elias pulling him against his chest, muttering something about allowing it. Jon finally feeling like he’s stopped fading, like he’s solid again, and he can be embarrassed about practically sitting in his boss’s lap later. For now he just wants to be seen.
The je Sci fi au always gets me. Fellas is it gay to intimately repair your boss and they make satisifed little noises that you try very very hard not to think about what they remind you of. I am sexualizing the machine today. Jon handling all of the most fragile pieces of elias..hnghg
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anaceshornyblog:
Oh yes.
Jon trying so hard to keep plausible deniability, no he’s just doing his job. Look it means nothing that he’s the only one the computer allows to crawl amongst their wires. All computers make those noises, he is very professional thank you very much.
Yeah no one buys this, and honestly the fatality rate has gonna way down now that the slightly murderous ship AI seems to be distracted. So everyone just turns a blind eye to anything going on.
Jon secretly, okay not secretly at all everyone can tell, loving Elias’s attention, the cameras all turning to follow him. Jon constantly talking to him, confessing all his secrets, and his insecurities, look maybe a machine is the only one who actually understands him.
Jon touching himself in his bunk carefully in view of Elias’s mechanical eyes. He’s so embarrassed but Elias telling him it’s only fair. After all Jon gets to handle his delicate circuitry, and while he can’t physically touch Jon he can guide him verbally. Jon squirming as Elias calls him a good boy, so precious to him, how he almost wishes he still had a body just so he could take Jon apart properly. Jon comes harder than he ever has before at the thought.
Jon veryyy obviously being the computers favorite. They don’t even know why. He’s not even the one with the most clearance he’s just the only one the computer opens the hatches to its wiring for. They don’t even know how he can HAVE favorites still. Most people don’t tend to have light conversation with the consciousness, or go to have their lunch near the security cameras. But if that’s what it takes to keep them from getting murdered than quite frankly they are going to ignore it as much as possible. They don’t wanna know what they get up to.
Goddd. I think his connection with Elias is also very much a Tism thing. No eye contact no body language to read and he can at least understand Elias’ reasoning even if he’s fucked up as hell. After a while of learning about him, bonding with him although he’ll never admit it, he has a lot easier of a time predicting what Elias will do than his fellow crew mates. It’s less stressful, somehow. Easy repetitive task. Fix Elias wires, try not to think about the sounds. Try not to think about the little breath of relief. Elias telling him he’s doing excellent, thank you Jon. Elias sounding a tad bit strained. Go eat his lunch and pretend Elias doesn’t take a moment to sound normal again. Or sometimes he’ll take a little longer in his wiring, listening to Elias’ labored breathing. He can’t even breathe anymore. God imagining that one scene in scavengers reign. “This doesn’t feel good.” “Oh. Uh…how does it feel if I do this?” “You’re touching my processing unit.” “No, how does it feel.” “[Laboured breath] Good, I think.” I’m thinking about it. I’m being really normal about it. Jon also feels really normal about it.
Jon touching himself…Elias completely focused on him…ough. Jon humiliated but Elias wants to see him, and maybe he likes having all the attention. Maybe it’s nice when Elias wants to see how he’ll react if he does this or that. Maybe it’s nice to be observed so intensely, like he’s something incredible to be studied and admired and understood. Elias wishing he could touch hin?? Insane. Jons so normal about it. Can’t even imagine what he’d be like as a human but just the idea of Elias wanting him that bad is sending him into a frenzy. Being wanted by something cold and calculating does something to his brain. Elias’ praise and attention and fondness is more than enough to outweigh the humiliation when it just feels so good to be seen and studied and adored. Elias telling him to do this or that, getting so delighted when he listens just to please him, just to be praised. “You’d really do anything I asked you, wouldn’t you?” With almost wonder in his voice. Jon feels so exposed. It feels good. He didn’t know it could feel good.
Also I see your tags….goddd. Elias wanting to keep him refusing to let him die??? That’s his Jon. He can’t just die on him. Whether or not Jon wants to be a machine isn’t relevant. He refuses to lose him. Goddddd. Explodes. Gnaws on glass.