I am once again thinking about how a lot of Jon’s kinks are just horny versions of shit he hates. Of his trauma and insecurities as well tbh.
He hates being considered incompetent at literally anything or needing help or someone holding his hand through something. He LOVES being “trained” so to speak in scenes, he loves being called well trained especially, he loves being treated like he’s so so smart and such a fast learner.
(Sasha bending him over, showing him how to last longer without cumming, being so proud when he figures it out!! Look at him!! Her good boy, so smart! So talented!! Hes squirming happily the whole time, an embarrassing little grin on his flushed face because he did a good job and Sashas smiling so wide at him and he feels so so warm. She takes photos as evidence <3 he’s gonna want to see how he looked in the morning.)
Jon hates not knowing what he’s doing or feeling stupid. He LOVES dumbification shit. He loves being treated like he’s so helpless and dumb in a safe sweet way. Yk.
(So whiny and drunk out of his mind, can barely keep his thoughts in one place. Can’t do anything but rut against Tim’s hand so so confused why he won’t let him cum because he’s been good. He’s been good why is he being so MEAN to him. Tim laughing at how needy he is and that usually means he’s going to start being nice now so he keeps pushing into his hand whining for his attention. “Poor baby.” Tim calls him, and he’s so embarrassed because he knows he’s making a mess everywhere and he can’t even figure out what’s going on just that it feels really good and he wants more. Why isn’t Tim giving him more? Tim’s hard. He could fuck him. He wants more. He keeps slurring all his words and making Tim and Sasha giggle which means he’s doing good, so why aren’t they touching him?? :( )
(Jon barely able to form a sentence whining because he’s came so much tonight but he still needs more , he still needs more and he’s so sensitive he thinks he could cum if Tim breathed too hard on him right now. Jon so so wet and Sashas laughing at how whiny he is but isn’t he good??? He’s been so good. She’s saying he deserves to cum again and again and it hurts and it’s too much but he cant help whining for her anyway. Tim’s saying he’s so much cuter when he feels too good to think and he whines happily because he just wants to please him soso bad :((( )
He hates being babied. He also has the biggest daddy kink known to man.
(Elias stroaking his hair, scritching at the base of his neck, telling him how handsome and clever he is. He feels so warm in his lap, even though he’s not the one fully clothed. Elias telling him he made him so proud today, giving him little snacks, roughly shoving him onto the desk and praising how much stronger he’s gotten, it was harder to get him down this time. He can’t hold back his flustered grin.)
(Elias shoving him down and admiring him, “teaching” him how to get off properly, all false professional and stern, as Jon rocks into him panting softly. Trying so hard to pay attention but it feels so good and the collar is comforting and firm around his neck and his fingers are calloused and practiced, and he feels so embarrassing next to him. Dripping all over his desk, so much less experienced, like he doesn’t know anything at all- but that’s the point, isn’t it? Elias is going to show him. He feels giddy. Elias smiles down at him approvingly, like he can read his mind. He wants to bask in his approval forever.)
(Elias referring to himself as Jons father. Apologize to your father, Jon. Your dad’s here, it’s okay now. Do you need your dad to make you feel better? You make me so proud, you know that? Jon eats it up everytime. Little whines of dad and sir and please, love you, more. Jon eating up every little bit of approval. Jon trying so hard to impress him and Elias clapping him gently on the shoulder and telling him to relax. It’s just his dad. He’ll take care of him. Jon wants to vibrate out of his skin.)
This says nothing about his psychological issues (lying)
So much of this comes down to Jon just really REALLY wants an excuse to be seen as doing a Good Job and not incompetent just endearing or so so smart. And his deep rooted desire to be cared for versus feeling like that’s childish and going to make them lose respect. But if it’s a mentor figure than that’s their Job they’re teaching him and he’s learning well enough to deserve their care. This once again says nothing about his problems.