Jonah feeding vampire Jon while mocking him for his lack of self control all the while clearly enjoying being fed from a little TOO much will never not be so so good. Bonus points if Jonahs the one who turned him. I need Jon to get one taste of Jonahs blood and lose himself in it, he meant to be quick and gentle but he just can’t help it :(( I need Jonah to call him “Poor thing” in the most mocking way possible and Jon to shiver but he cant pull back. He’s so hungry. I’m so normal
I love Jonah calling Jon my _, he should do it with more degrading things too. “My poor baby”, to start with. Call him pathetic. In the vampire au my insatiable fledgling, him mocking how needy he is in generalllll. I need him to be so possessive and so mean to him. So loving while he tears him up a little. OK. My poor archivist would go hard actually. Especially when he’s injured and soaking wet.
“My poor archivist” he calls him when he’s covered in blood, fangs still sticking out, still *so* hungry. Barely even coherent he just needs his dad to make him feel better he needs to feed NOW he’s burning up he just wants his dad to make him feel good and instead he’s being so mean to him!!!
I need Jon to get so whiny and petulant when he’s being degraded. Squirming and pouting at him. Do you see it. He’s TRYING and he’s wet and he could be touching him and then maybe he wouldn’t have to be a brat. Did you ever consider that. I’m really normal BTW.
Jon who WAS elias’ pet but who was abandoned in S4. It’s so stupid that. After everything else Elias has done him refusing to see Jon hurts the most. But it does.
Jon digging his old collar and leash out of his desk. Putting them on and tugging on them while he masturbates. But it just isn’t the same. Crying after he finishes because he’s so tired and stressed and lonely. And he feels so Awful. Jon trying all the things he used to do with Elias on his own. To be a good puppy. A good kitty. But it’s not the same without Elias’ love and praise and affection.
Peter should catch him digging his old collar and leash and shit out of Elias’ office btw. Should say that, well, since he’s looking after Elias’ institute, why not look after his pet, too? And Jon sort of wants to say no but he’s so fucking desperate and resents Elias for abandoning him and he NEEDS to be touched and used like that that he (reluctantly) agrees. Maybe Peter had to offer something else too actually idk I’m tired as hell…..
It’s terrible. Peter is often negligent, enjoys bringing Jon right to the edge then leashing him up and abandoning him for hours. Likes Jon warming his cock but is Much more sparing with praise and affection than Elias (always offers just enough to Hurt when he takes it away). But Jon is so lonely. And part of him likes that it hurts. It’s easier to justify sleeping with Peter when it always seems to make him feel worse. He doesn’t deserve the comfort or pleasure he’s seeking unless it’s somehow painful.
Thinking bout monsterfucker jon. Jon finds it far less uncomfortable than sex with a human. His weird mind eye sex with Elias is far less uncomfortable for him and far more enjoyable. If daisy turned into a monster that Didn’t want to kill him he’d have a grand old time. The distortion could probably have a great time with him. Like. Idk. If so many asexual people are more attracted to monsters than humans and jon canonically finds monstrous shit beautiful. I don’t see why not. If we sexualize our regular people trauma I don’t see why jon can’t sexualize his supernatural trauma.
Jon seems to have a fascination with the flesh in particular. Thinks about him daydreaming about what someone could do to him…someone reaching inside him and rearranging him…how badly it’d hurt how good it’d feel the sheer agony and being completely at their mercy…he is taking this fantasy to the grave.
Now I’m thinking about Jon breathplay. I think Jon should have a rape fantasy where someone chokes him till he’s near unconscious then violently helps themselves to his body. I think he’d be really. Really into that.
I love jh as a dynamic of a stronger predator taking someone weaker under their wing,,, hmghfj. I can make him worse but oddly tender….yk??? Yk??? Helen making him worse and delighted when he starts bringing her his victims for her door…saying at least there’s only one and her laughing at him. Saying his attempts at denial aren’t cute anymore. I’m just thinking about. Jon steadily making excuses less and less. Denial slowly fading away. And she knows he’s getting tired of self hatred. Of being miserable. Jon watching her door for longer and longer everytime she leaves. Gazing at the fractals on his arms, tracing the patterns of them. Little spirals and shapes that shouldn’t be able to form so clearly. Thinks about Jon becoming more and more spiral. Thinks about the door seeming to beckon him to follow. To see if he could understand this feeling of alienation that’s followed him all his life.
I dunno. I just think Helen talks about whether or not she was ever michael and it feels too familiar. She talks about her nature and he understands it too well. I think he understood Michael more than he wanted to. The feeling of “nobody will believe you” the fear of being crazy has followed him his entire life. And now there’s this opportunity, what if none of that had tk matter anymore. What if he didnt have to keep trying and failing to be a human, to be normal. What if he didn’t have to get better. What if he just indulged. What if it didn’t matter anymore.
The door hums. It’s cracked open just a bit. Beautiful and confusing patterns flow from behind it. He’s so, so painfully curious what it’d be like without helen there. What he’ll find. And maybe she’ll keep him there a little too long, but what does he have to lose? Who would care?
He goes back to his statement, but the thrum of life and malice behind that door becomes harder and harder to ignore.