Confusion is really hot I’m sorry I cannot lie. Jon should be so overwhelmed and trying so hard to hold onto a thought, but everythings so wrong and confusing and keeps changing, he doesn’t understand. Whimpering into helens neck because nothing makes sense, she shouldn’t be able to cut him open and him survive it. His body so confused because it knows it should be dead. Jon whining so loud trying to comprehend all the shapes and colors shifting endlessly, everything looks so wrong, doesn’t make sense, thinking is so hard and everything keeps changing if he looks too close or thinks too hard about it and it all slips away in his fingers. It’s so…confusing. It’s so hard to think when something is writhing deep inside of him, something that shouldn’t even exist, something that keeps changing and it feels so good and he dkesnt know anything, doesn’t know anything at all. So hard to think when her voice hurts to listen to, when it drills it’s way into his brain and shakes him apart. He doesn’t know anything anymore.