Looking up “breeding bench” because I was thinking about the concept of “what if Jon had a fantasy about Elias putting him in a breeding bench” and apparently there are also breeding stands for dogs and. Okay. I’m not sure if it would be feasible but. Imagine Elias purchasing a dog breeding stand. And putting Jon in it. And then fucking him.
Look it’s just. Something about hundreds of very small creatures writhing inside someone touching every surface every little nerve burrowing deep inside and making a nice warm home out of their entrails is just. Very appealing to me. I think it’d feel very very. Interesting. For reasons. And i think Jon should be whimpering so loud as all these tiny creatures writhe inside him oh god there’s so many of them why does it feel so-
Anyways. How are yall doing tonight <- covered in blood
Girl help. Now I’m thinking about Elias trying to keep jon from going full blown corruption. Trying to satisfy that Itch in other ways…I need it to be weird. I need Jon to be clinging onto Elias for dear life because he’s one of the few things grounding him. Jon trembling kneeling at Elias’ feet looking up at him with big sad eyes, trembling lips and so so cute…they should be so toxic. Which is fueling the corruption in a different way. It’s just changed to Elias being his wasp nest <3. Just. Jon begging for him to use him pleading he needs it he needs it so bad break him, break him , he needs it, he needs it please it hurts-
Jon attaching to Elias so hard after reading her statement because he’s crumbling and needs stability. He needs a cnc scene so bad. Yknow his rape fantasies where Elias wants him so bad it doesn’t matter what he wants? Those are even more intense when he’s feeling this low and I think. Cnc won’t fix it but he Is using it to try and keep himself calm. Losing himself in feeling like Elias needs him. Can’t help himself. Can’t resist his wonderful son, who’s just so perfect and good and how can he not bend him over his desk even when he cries no no no. When his pain is just so pretty. Losing himself in the idea of getting knocked up against his will, consumed by a constant mark of Elias’ need. Changed and claimed forever, helpless to do anything but watch as his body is molded by his fathers loving, cruel hands. I still think it’d be hot if Elias got him pregnant to fulfill that Need. To be a home. Be consumed by what loves him. And I think that scene could be so so good. I think Elias makes a comment about getting him pregnant and this part of him that is crawling and writhing sings.
I just think. Given the fun dumbification of helens corridors there could be so much fun ageplay there. Jon so overwhelmed with sights and sounds that don’t make sense and so many strange things and his brain telling him so many different things and he’s just so. Confused. Whimpering and whining and he just needs his mom because it’s all big and weird and he needs her to show him where to go and how to handle it because it’s all too much for something so precious and little,,, he’s just so confused and his brain isn’t working right and he just needs his mama. Doesn’t really know what’s happening or why her body keeps changing or why evrrythings so weird but he’s so little how would he know?? Needs his mama’s help he’s so lucky she found him here. Doesn’t this feel nice? So confusing but his mom’s here and her fingers hurt but fingers always hurt that’s just how it works and it feels so good too. Of course she’s always been that tall of course her teeth are always so sharp. He’s just so confused right now. His brain won’t work these hallways are just so confusing but it’s almost nice now that his mom’s here. His brain is so so tired from thinking so hard. He’s slowing down. Poor guy. Might need to get fucked to sleep and they’ll have to keep exploring in the morning <3