Selfish question of me, but as an avid enjoyer of your analysis and thoughts but neutral opinion of Doorkeay, what do you think are traits or key attractions for Gerry for a romantic partner?? I like for Doorkeay and one your posts, how Michael is very much a gentle and sweet natured person but can have a surprising twist to his character because that was my impression for Gerry that he would like a kind and sweet partner but who can hold their own in a way. Thank you if you're able to respond, but if not, that's okay...!

This isn’t a selfish question at all! I love getting asks and interacting with people.

My headcanon about Gerard when it comes to romance is that what he thinks he wants and what he actually subconsciously wants are very different things.

What he thinks he wants from a romantic partner is someone who’s bit distant, someone who he can say “Hey. I have to go chase down a Leitner in America. See you in a few weeks,” and they’ll shrug and let him go without fuss. He thinks he wants someone super intertwined with the fears so he never has to worry about them being naive. He thinks he wants super interesting like himself who he could trade stories with.

What he actually wants is someone who prioritizes him, someone who see’s him walk through the door and stops what they’re doing to take a second to acknowledge him. He wants someone who’s aware of the fears and can handle themselves with them, but a part of him yearns for something normal and would be happy with someone on both sides of the fence of “normal and not normal” instead of being firmly on one over the other. He wants someone a bit routine and boring who he can have stability with and not expect the unexpected with. (Though he’d like them to have stories too. Even if it’s just about the overly angry bus driver they met once.)

Basically what Gerard would describe on paper as his perfect partner isn’t what he would really want when push came to shove. But also he’s never really spent that much time thinking about it due to the life he lives. He kind of just assumes that long-term romance is off the table for him.