man, i will never get used to the emotional toll of being disabled. was meant to go to a thing tonight which i’ve been excited about for six months, but i’m so tired i don’t think i have it in me to leave the house. self-forgiveness is really tough when it feels like the world is just taking things from me all the time and never giving back. i suppose the upside is i’m hanging out with some friends online tonight instead which can be done from bed. still. it isn’t fair and it never will be.