lo and behold, my supervision went much better than expected and now i just have to get through therapy without feeling like i’m shattering into a thousand pieces.
told my supervisor how apathetic i’ve become in regards to the thesis and she was like oh cool how did you manage that. and i didn’t have the heart to tell her that i’m actually just putting way more emotional stock in writing gay fanfiction now (which she would have found cool because i know she knows what fanfic is and is a fiction writer herself) so instead i just said i’m so tired that i don’t care about the end product any more. which i suppose in a way is true. the thesis is temporary, my fanfiction will be on ao3 for (i hope) forever.