September 2025

behold, oh ye of little faith! i finally wrote some jmart. established relationship teacher sickfic, be upon you! usual archive lock warning applies.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/70388396

think i’m on the up from said illness now so i’m gently returning to writing today, thinking about my current shorter wip and how it’s probably going to have to be canon divergent instead of compliant, which i guess gives me more creative control. Don’t know what it is about this wip, i like the ideas but the execution isn’t working. wondering if i should switch povs? it was originally jonah and therefore had spoilers for the whole show, but i’m wondering if making it a fully s2 canon divergent fic would make it a bit easier for me to write.

problem with that is i’ve already planned the whole thing and written 4k. urgh, decisions.

i think i’ve realised that i actually just hate my current shorter wip, and that really sucks. it’s an interesting idea (not that unique or anything) but at the moment it just feels so… soulless? but maybe that’s because i’ve already decided that i dislike it??

writing is damn hard. esp when it’s for fun but i don’t feel like i’m having any fun.

maybe i should try writing something else for a bit?? but the well of inspiration is pretty dry atm, and i don’t want to push myself into creative burnout. argh i dunno