vibing at my halloween party rn. surprisingly many more people have recognised my cosplay than i was expecting! also forgotten how powerful wearing a lanyard makes you feel
vibing at my halloween party rn. surprisingly many more people have recognised my cosplay than i was expecting! also forgotten how powerful wearing a lanyard makes you feel
ending a very long day with a very stressful Email Situation is quite possibly the worst way to end a very long day. i count myself as a resilient person but something about tech issues just brings me close to tears every single time.
unhelpful that as i am finally coming into the stage of fic writing where most of my scenes are fleshed out enough to consider moving into later stage editing that i am floored with anxiety about how i write elias specifically.
like obviously it’s not that big of a deal but???? this better go away soon i swear to god…
do y’all remember when i first started posting about this jonelias wip and i called it the shorter of the two je wips that i’m currently working on?
yeah. last night the ‘shorter’ one hit 10k. so. um.
sometimes doing a PhD is staring at the sentence you just wrote and wondering who in the hell let you into the doctoral school because what the fuck is that.
new jonelias fic up in a few hours or so (as soon as i get my shit together).
new jonelias fic is finally up! just elias forcing jon to rest and then getting really weird about it and worshipping him (featuring paranoid jon). (who also has a massive crush on elias. because of course). nothing sexual but a lot of it is suggestive and also has spoilers throughout so do heed the tags
okay. phew. acts of reverence is up!
this fic was kind of a nightmare for me lol. it started out as something much longer and more complicated, but i decided to pull back when i could feel my mental health slipping (and because i decided i hated the original idea lol) so i genuinely feel like i’ve been working on it for years… but still, happy at how it’s come out. writing elias is kind of a nightmare lol. he doesn’t shut up, like, ever, but i really wanted to write a fic that leant into strange and slightly fucked up care, which i hope came across lol! also paranoid jon is such a treat. bless him, he needs a rest. i really enjoyed writing his inner thoughts so i think i might return to s2/s2 adjacent fics in the future
and now i have a cracking headache so i’m going to go lie down
walked into one of my kitchen cupboards earlier and i can already tell that the bridge of my nose is going to bruise like hell. so that’s nice. not a great omen for the week ahead, is it.
thought i was going to give it a rest for a bit because seasonal fatigue and burnout are constants for me at this time of year, but nope. looks like that’s another jonelias au idea unceremoniously plonked into my head. i swear i was going to take a break from writing fiction!! fuck!!!