AITA for being upset with my boyfriend for the position he put me in?
My boyfriend (M30s) and I(M30s) have been dating for a few months, but have known each other for a few years now. He was my supervisor in the archives department at a paranormal research institute (I don’t want to name names and get in trouble, but you could probably guess which one it is) and I was an archival assistant.
Recently, my boyfriend’s boss (the head of said institute) manipulated him into starting the apocalypse and changing the world as we know it. I want to make it clear that I don’t blame him at all for this. I love my boyfriend and I know he never intended for this to happen. But he blames himself a lot, despite my best efforts to convince him that this wasn’t his fault.
We were faced with a decision recently that would have fixed things. There were essentially two choices, which I’m going to try and present in an unbiased manner, though I have my opinions.
-We could kill our boss. However, this would require my boyfriend to take my boss’s place as the arbiter of the dread power who oversees the apocalypse. My boyfriend would have been arguably in a worse position than ever before.
-We could flush out our boss (as well as all the other core fears of our new apocalypse) into an alternate dimension. However, we would have no idea who or what could be impacted by that.
Me, my boyfriend and a few of our coworkers ended up discussing it and putting it to a vote. We decided to go with the second option. My boyfriend wasn’t happy with this (I think it’s because he’s got a bit of a martyr complex, but he insists that’s not the reason.)
My boyfriend said that he would go along with the popular vote, but he ended up going behind my back to carry out the first option. I found him in the process of ascending into godhood, but was too late to stop it. I was PISSED OFF. Pissed off isn’t strong enough. I was furious. Not only did he go behind my back, but he insisted on carrying out his stupid martyr complex.)
I gave him a thorough scolding and he ended up telling me to go through with the second plan anyway, despite the fact that he’d now become god anyway. He said that if I stabbed him while the powers were being released, there was a chance we could come out the other end happy. I did it, but I was NOT happy to do it. It had a really big impact on me to do that to my boyfriend, especially when it was all avoidable. I feel angry still, but also a little bad for feeling so angry. So…AITA?
Edit for context: At one point, my boyfriend promised me that he would never leave me if there was any other option. So this felt like an added betrayal on top of all that.