Gerry Keay analysis teehee
“I’ve always wanted my friends to call me Gerry” is so loaded. He didn’t have friends, he didn’t feel the kind of close to people where he’d ask them to call him a nickname. Fuck. Why now? Gerry and Jon have excellent banter, of course, but Jon was getting a lore dump from him. Doing basically the same thing as the hunters, using him as a source of information. The difference is that Jon promised to help him finally Go. Is one act of kindness all it took? Has anyone offered Gerard anything selfless before?
And for Jon’s part, he doesn’t really have many friends. Sasha is dead, Tim and Melanie blame him for their imprisonment at the institute, Basira probably could have been his friends under different circumstances, but it is what it is. He keeps pushing Georgie away, and he won’t let Martin get close, and here’s Gerry.
Gerry is a gift from god, he’s got the information that Jon’s been on a chase for since season 2. He worked with Gertrude. He isn’t hostile to Jon. He calls Jon his friend.
And Jon has to lose that after one conversation. Being Gerry’s friend means that he has to do the thing most antithetical to the eye, destroy knowledge, and what’s more, destroy one of the only connections he’s got, however small. Jon spends so long telling himself that distancing himself from people is the best way to care for them, to keep them safe, fucked up how the only time he’s right about needing to break a connection for someone else’s good is with the only person who calls Jon a friend.