Jonelias art I did a couple of months ago for @carbonpressure for a gift for their partner thank you again for trusting me with that!!! means the world to me truly <3
hello nem. i finally get to your ask. so, it’s not a headcanon, but close enough because i made it all up. in my head. and as such it’s very self-indulgent, clearly
I’m Going To Talk About Clara Von Closen (i like clara better than carla so. that’s the name i use for her even though she’s carla in 127)
putting this under the cut because it’s practically a fucking essay
chapter 3 of look to your laurels is here! yeah, I know, it took. a while. and it’s kinda mid. who Cares. it exists! there’s a Jon pov! the three of them have a shipname now (treyead, courtesy of mach)
my pleasure !!! he ended up being one of my favs so ive ended up drawing him a few times, but im still struggling with being consistent with his facial proportions )–)0 heres the og ref i made while i was listening
and some other random doodles ( ft. lucy)
wish i had a full doodle besides just mostly headshots but i am exhausted rn so next time per chance….
HI. hi for the love of god hello. thinking about a young trans Jonah Magnus going into society as a man for the first time. thinking about his terror at being seen. maybe he decides that the best way to ensure the keeping of his own secret is to find everyone else’s.
maybe the first time someone tells jonah that they know what he is, he leans in close and spills every secret of theirs he’s discovered and maybe as he does his voice feels more like his own. maybe he spills out secrets of theirs that he hasn’t found out yet.
maybe he’s terrified of how he knew that. maybe he’s grateful to whatever power gave him that gift. (maybe both.)
Jon’s subtle Becoming in season two is possibly one of my favourite aspects of the earlier show in hindsight, and I think it links really nicely with why ends up aligning with the Eye, whereas Gertrude rejected it.
There’s a consistent theme with avatars and finding a sense of protection or comfort in the entity they serve, and being an avatar is never really about what you fear, as much as it is about how you cope with what you fear.
Throughout season two, Jon is actively faced by one of the entities directly — Not!Sasha — and pairing that with Gertrude’s unknown killer, he spirals into distrust and paranoia, always feeling as though he’s being watched or that people are plotting against him. His manner of coping with this worsening state of constant fear and paranoia is by both becoming a causer of it, as well as desperately seeking answers and investigating.
He has to know, and he has to be sure of what he knows. The unknown variables bother him.
He always feels as though he’s being watched, and so, he becomes the watcher. He stalks Not!Sasha, Tim, and Martin, and then digs up as much info on them as he can, alongside Elias. He makes note of their every move, every detail, every slip up, until it becomes obvious to all of t he m.
Note that it’s a stark contrast to his original coping mechanism of ignorance, because that proved it could only work so far. After Jane’s attack, he can’t afford to let his guard down anymore. He can’t afford to trust anyone except himself and what he knows.
He finds a comfort in the Eye before he even knows about it, in a sense, and while this is likely a simplification of season two Jon, I just wanted to gush a little about it, because it’s really clever set up.
He’s the Ceaseless Watcher’s special little boy for a reason!
The Monster is a normal man with a pleasant smile and sharp unsettling eyes that sees too much ; the Monster is a simple man that has kept himself safe for centuries and fed on terror to do so ; the Monster has chosen you, loves you, adores you, needs you to become as Monsterish, perhaps even more so than him, so that you can both be safe, together ; you walked in there with too much curiosity and the door is now locked behind you and although you will feel afraid, the Monster’s call is too beautiful in its horror to resist forever. You will learn to love him ; perhaps you already did ; if you cannot look at yourself in a mirror, it’s fine. He’ll behold you for all eternity instead, as you gorge yourselves in the world you’ve made, together.
(Also, Jon is a long white victorian nightgown, y'know.)
im an absolute fan of when characters have their own twisted perceptions of love. like holy shit that guy thinks inflicting pain is affection! woah this silly man believes love is a form of ownership! give me more.
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