Currently going through a Jonelias Renaissance after several months of nothing and god i want Jon to be Elias’ special guy. He picked him. He chose him. He thought him; this man is going to be the guy who will be eternally with me. This guy, surely, I can have all the feelings I want about, because he’s all mine, I’m basically getting him to be exactly who I want/need him to be –
and in the end he’s wrong, or maybe he doesn’t actually lead Jon enough because Elias likes more dropping little pebbles in the water and watching it ripple than like, privatizing the whole lake like the web is, AND YET, even at the end, Jon manages to be his one exception, manages to be special enough in Elias’ eyes that Elias is able to give him one last good luck instead of hating him or focusing on his death, which he’s literally ruined a world to escape in the first place.
I’m obsessed with it. I want Jon to be Elias’s exception for everything. It drives normal people crazy. It drives Jon crazy. Elias just stares at him and goes “ah, yes <3. My own little gift to myself <3. Doesn’t he look frazzled and angry today <3. I love him <3”