Re: your tags: I think there's a unique sort of... loneliness in being confronted with evidence that very very strongly suggests a certain philosophical conclusion that has virtually no contemporary support. The inescapability of suffering under the Fears, the, well, absurdity of human life being just grass for eldritch monsters to graze on, is so antithetical to Enlightenment and Modern ideals of progress and reason/anthropocentrism. Idk how well I'm making my point here.
nonono you’re absolutely right!!! Like, I made a joke multiple times that Dostoevsky hadn’t even started writing Crime and Punishment when Jonah was going through the existential horror torture chamber and it must have felt so. alienating to be so distant from everyone’s perception of reality (more than he already felt im sure. autistic jonah magnus based on nothing longcon always and forever idc) and not to have any framework of reference to work his thoughts and feelings through. damn. being emotional about jonah magnus hour fr