stupid bastard man (affectionate).
cassiopeia / pavo
stupid bastard man (affectionate).
Someone smarter than me please make a post about how like. Jon spent most of season 5 five correcting people when they referred to Jonah as Elias, but when he actually spoke to him again himself, he fell back into those same patterns as well and instinctively referred to him as Elias because I feel like there’s some excellent points to be made there but alas I lack the braincells to make them myself
#oh it’s abt denying familiarity towards your maker #the one who knows you down to every brush stroke #because you can’t let yourself be their creation can’t admit the intimate knowledge they have of your being (and in turn you of theirs) #because then its personal. then its about you and its about someone you know and #you can’t keep pretending this is some far-reaching worldsmashing good vs evil conflict next to which you’re nothing #its between the two of you the conflict is centered on you and the rest of the world just happens to fall within your scope #jon would love to claim insignificance and deny his agency and with ‘jonah’ he almost can #logically Jon knows jonah is elias but he doesn’t KNOW it. Jonah is a name that he’s heard not a person he knew. #it’s easy to deny a connection to and condemn JONAH #with that name jon doesn’t need to acknowledge his own conflicted thoughts and emotions wrt to #the person who always inexplicably regarded him as unique special hard to replace #who was - matters of taste aside - jon’s chosen lifeline when he was #wracked with paranoia or doubting his humanity or starving for information #who never looked at him with horror (more than can be said for most of jon’s friends and colleagues with whom he is currently siding) #but rather like he was seeing something precious and beautiful #the person who shaped him into the what he is today - a thing capable of #incredible power knowledge and sight to the point of complete understanding #and it’s a gift jon is trying so hard to see as terrible rather than wondrous #with the name ‘jonah’ - a name jon can hardly put a face to - all that can be ignored.#but then his companions say ‘elias’ and it’s just habit for them #it doesn’t mean anything when clearly it SHOULD and he corrects them #beholding is all about seeing and maybe if jon forces elias to become jonah #(his true name a name that simply stands for an evil and unknowable figure) #he’ll finally see his true nature #he’ll finally see things clearly and choices will be easier they won’t be personal #he can take down the monster without having to acknowledge it’s twin inside himself #so he calls him jonah and insists everyone else do the same #but its easy to deny your maker when you’re not staring them in the face seeing yourself reflected back in their eyes #and suddenly knowing exactly who you’re seeing #anyway that was a really wordy way to say that names hold intimacy
cassiopeia / pavo
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do you have any songs you associate with jonelias? (or just jon and elias separately)
wolf by aliceband - just like… all of it. the vibes are there.
you weren’t meant to see that by the rare occasions - again, mostly vibes, but also like. neither of them are good at intimacy or affection or anything. also references to seeing.
the garden by the crane wives - vibes
moon waltz (piano version) - vibes and also i love this song too much not to put it on here
like real people do by hozier - they’re monsters! in love! what more can i say
candy eyes by jack stauber - im a big softie and ‘bled into something good’ is very jonelias core imo
as it was by hozier - vibes…
untitled god song by haley heynderickx - vibes but also s5 dynamic my beloved
MAUSOLEUM BY RAFFERTY - THIS IS THE SONG IVE BEEN LOOKING FORRRRRR this song is about a love affair between a person and a. skeleton.
LITERALLY the jonelias song ever
the horror and the wild by the amazing devil - contains the lyric “think of all the horrors that i promised you i’d bring” what more do you want
francis forever by mitski - purely because it contains the lyric “i don’t think i could stand to be where you don’t see me”
winter by yabadum - one of the most jonelias ever to me
jonah songs:
nunemakers parable by everybody’s worried about owen - there is… so much jonahcore in this. this song is About Jonah to me
jon songs:
askepios by the mars volta - tbh this is still kind of jonelias to me but its mostly about jon
francis by haley heynderickx and max garcía conover - has lyrics about knowing things so its automatically joncore to me
its all so incredibly loud by the glass animals - can’t articulate why this is joncore to me but it is
Toxic old men™! Again!
I’m drawing lonelyeyes again. And I’m totally normal about it.
