May 2023

I feel like LonelyEyes is the sort of dysfunctional ship where Elias will be fucking Peter into the mattress and try to kiss him and Peter’s like STOP THAT’S TOO INTIMATE and Elias is just like, Peter, I’m balls deep in you and that’s where you draw the line?? So they have an argument about it in the middle of sex. And Elias does not stop fucking him despite the argument because he specifically scheduled this sex time with Peter and he WILL fucking have his sex because it’s been three months since they last saw each other and Peter likes to pretend he has a full calendar despite spending 99% of his time in his cabin doing fuck all.

Peter obviously loses the argument and Elias gets his kiss, but Peter sulks about it for two weeks straight.

Thinking about touch starved Peter again. Touched starved Peter that trembles every time Elias kisses him. Touch starved Peter who pants and shakes just because Elias touches his bare chest or stomach and it’s so, so much for a Lonely avatar. Touch starved Peter who cries during sex because of how overwhelmingly good it is. Touch starved Peter who babbles stupidly during sex and says sweet things he’d never normally say because of how overwrought he is. Elias who keeps on overstimulating touch starved Peter during sex because of how much he enjoys the sweet babbling (and maybe he wants to see if he can get a Lonely avatar to say ‘I love you’).

LonelyEyes rec list

Just sharing some LonelyEyes fic I’ve enjoyed!

Satisfaction by thinkatory | 4k | Complete
Summary: Peter is nothing if not comfortable with the status quo. “Don’t you ever want to try something new, Peter?”
“Like what?” Peter asks, in open sarcasm. “Skydiving?”
“You might take a risk or two beyond the obvious.” Elias hates his fascination with the perfect cut of Peter’s suit, the angle of his jaw, the fullness of his lips. It’s not a singular obsession, but it would be easy to set aside if only Peter wasn’t such a tease. “Isn’t there anything you’ve thought of doing in the last few years that isn’t fooling around with work of the Lukas sort?”
Peter drinks as he muses on that. “I’ve thought about making more trouble for you,” he admits. “Did you want to make a bet? I’d like that.”
This goes about as well as you can imagine.
Notes: A fic about a bet with Elias backfiring on Peter. Beautifully written, with on-point characterisation, entirely believable, and very hot.

Alone at the Edge of the Universe by PossiblyHuman | 20k | Incomplete
Summary: He couldn’t help it. He was twelve, and had never been fond of reading. Perhaps if he had known this would have been his only chance to read this story, he would have paid more attention. Instead, he closed the book, stroking his hands over the coat one more time before hanging it back on the hook branded with his initials.There was a feeling of intense sadness, leaving it there like that. It tore at him, deep in his core as he walked to the door. Basically begging him to go back for it. He ignored it. If he could ignore the cries of his own siblings, a coat would never hold any sort of a sway over him.

(Or, a self indulgent au where the Lukas family are all repressed and cursed selkies, and Peter deigns to ignore that. Until he no longer can anymore.)
Notes: I was completely uninterested in selkie fics until reading this, because it’s just that good. 

Simon Says by navree | 5k | Complete
Summary: It is the surety of the sentence, the way that Simon is absolutely convinced in what he says, like it’s the simplest fact.

Five times two very old men discussed the status of a young third party (and the one time that status changed).
Notes: So emotionally devastating that I will never recover. All of this person’s fics are just brilliant, well-written and well-characterised, but this one is just heart-wrenching in a way that you don’t really expect with characters like these. I have to share in the sadness. Bonus: I don’t subscribe to the whole ‘Peter died to protect Elias’ secrets’ hc, but this person’s writing is so good I don’t even care.

A Net of Gossamer by navree | 11k | Complete
Summary: Peter gives James a smile then, as uncharacteristic as anything for a Lukas, though it’s just as sharp as the last time he did, like a mouth filled with knives and hard edges, and though light, filled with mockery. James finds that he doesn’t necessarily mind it.

Notes: Another brilliant fic by Navree! All the compliments for Simon Says applies here too. 

Unwanted Looking-After by NevillesGran | 4k | Complete
Summary: Peter all but fell out of the Forsaken, which had never happened before. He had also never been seen—worse, known so intimately. He had never, in his life or worst nightmares, spoken for twenty minutes straight about himself.
“Come now, Peter,“ said Elias. "I’m sure it wasn’t that bad.”

Peter has lost a bet and just barely survived his encounter with the Archivist. His day gets worse from there.
Notes: This fic lives rent-free in my brain. Like the others, magnificent characterisation, well-written, and the ending hit me like a freight train (in a good way. You know, a ‘whao that is an incredibly hot concept I’ve never considered before and I’m adding it to my degeneracy’ sort of way). 

365 daily affirmations for healing and positive thinking by serenfire | 5k | Complete
Summary: The florist asks, “So, who should I address these flowers to?”
Martin can’t seem to get the words out. This was, unequivocally, a bad idea.
Georgie gives Martin one last, wicked smile. “
Write: To Peter Lukas. From Elias Bouchard.
This was a really, terribly awful, extremely bad idea, and it’s definitely going to end with Martin’s death.

Notes: Absolutely hysterical.

get off (i’ll only call you after if you say i can) by lewdwizard (sillywizard) | 1k | Complete
Summary: There is a particular flavor of loneliness, Peter thinks, to anonymous sex. Two parties seeking closeness, connection, from a stranger, ending the night in an empty bed with nothing but the hollow satisfaction of an orgasm. The physical closeness plays so nicely off the emotional distance, sharing such intimacy with someone you will likely never see again. It should come as no surprise that, when on land, Peter tends to frequent glory holes.
Notes: Just some hot, hot gloryhole LonelyEyes.

Ready for your use by LonelyPirate | 3k | Complete
Summary: Elias is having a great time. Peter not so much.
Notes: Apparently I really like fics where Peter has Elias’ dick in his mouth. Anyway, hot, well-written, and the concept and execution is just [chefs kiss].