the first statement from Adelard Dekker, he speaks of the loss of control over one’s own brain, thinks the intersection of love and fear is what we owe, and lets someone die out of pragmatism. how can you not love him.
initially listening to tma characters grappling with morality, free will under unknowable systems, and ‘who’s a victim and who’s an agent’ &c. was soso interesting but now it just low-key pisses me off bc I know it all gets homogenised into The Single Right Take. polyphony died a slow, painful death and me I also don’t feel so good
everything that’s wrong with me can be exemplified by the fact that I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve listened to tma. I’m still sexy and have good taste though bc through it all I’ve only listened to s5 once.
sorry but. Jon is in his place of power, being fed on his lunatic documentation until he embodies it, holding communion with each other through the tapes until their words blur together and their voices become one.
I love thinking abt Jonah Magnus being terrified to die and literally murdering and torturing people to stay alive for centuries so 200 years into the future he could wait in line at the DMV
